Steve lay on his back with his legs in the air. He was alone in his flat. The air was perfumed by a lavender massage oil which he had smeared around and in his anus. In his hand now was a saucepan. He wanted to see whether his arse could cope with a sizeable penis. He had done this with candles, but he hoped to land a guy with a bit more than that. The saucepan handle was cylindrical and swelled to a ball at the end - about the same size as the end of his cock. He inserted the tip and pushed slowly and gingerly. Before he knew it, the thing was in and he felt okay. No pain. If he could do it with an inanimate object like this, he could allow a man to penetrate him.
He removed the handle and took it into the kitchen to wash.
Tonight he would go to a gay club 50 miles away and get himself picked up.
Steve had three main types he fantasised about: black guys, Indians and fat hairy white guys. It would have to be one of those.
He took a shower and got dressed in a blue shirt and black jeans, with grey boxers underneath. He put on his slip-on shoes in case he had to take them off in a hurry.
Ready, he watched TV for an hour until it was late enough to leave.
As he started the engine of his car he found himself nervous. Tonight he was going to get himself seduced - by a guy.
He parked a couple of hundred yards from the club and walked briskly there, wondering if anyone could tell what he was up to. He prayed that he wouldn't bump into anyone he knew.
Entering the club, he took a deep breath and told himself to relax. He was just like the girls he had pulled over the years - and he didn't think they had been terribly nervous. Maybe it was first-night nerves.
The music was deafening: the sort of high-tempo disco that gay clubs were renowned for.
He found a separate bar which was quieter, and sat in a corner with a JD and Coke. There were a lot of guys around, in groups, couples and a few on their own. He studied the options and the first of his favourites appeared: a tall, fat, red-haired man, balding and unhealthy-looking. Steve would have forgiven him that, but then he heard the guy laugh and it was one of those loud, forced, hale-and-hearty ones, which he hated.