It is shocking how much your life can change in less than a week. It wasn't even that long really. Now I had more secrets and the love and respect of my father that I didn't realize I'd been craving my entire life.
I stood in the room where all of the groomsmen had gathered to support my younger brother. Today was his big day. He was going to marry the love of his life. I don't personally believe in true love, but he did and I was extremely happy for him.
Four other men I barely knew were in the room along with my brother, me, and our dad. Dad looked happier than I had ever seen him before and I wondered if that had more to do with seeing his youngest son getting married or the fact that he's been railing his oldest son and getting the sex he's been craving.
He looked at me and a knowing look passed between us. Nothing that anyone else would have picked up on, but something secret between two lovers that meant everything -- at least to me.
Okay, maybe I do believe in true love after all?
"Christian. I can't thank you enough for coming. Dad told me about all of your troubles." Mark, my younger brother, said wrapping me in a tight hug. I doubted Dad had told him everything.
"I wouldn't miss it for the world." I said looking over his shoulder and into my Dad's eyes. I saw the lustful desire there. Did he dream of both of his boys worshipping the cock we came from?
Mark was five years younger than I am, but he's the same height that I am. We look a lot alike taking most of our physical features from our father. However, other that physical attributes we couldn't be more different.
He is responsible, has a great career, and getting married to the love of his life today. I was the complete opposite. At twenty-seven years old I had struggles of real income, nothing in the way of a stable career or even the prospects of one, and there was no way I could marry the love of my life.
Mark released me as Dad kept staring at me as if he knew what I was thinking.
"Okay guys. I think we have to go get pictures taken." Mark said turning to everyone else in the room.
Four of Mark's best friends all followed him out of the room. When they were gone Dad came over to me and hugged me tightly. I felt everything in that embrace. I know it is stupid to think, but it was like all of the wrecked pieces of my life were somehow coming back together.
Only my father had the power to pull me back together like this. He just held me and I fought tears. His hand ran up and down my back slowly. Love and comfort. Everything I'd ever wanted.
"I love you, Chris."
"I love you too, Dad." I said as he slowly pulled back.
"Oh, don't look at me like that." He smiled. I took a deep breath to try and compose myself.
"Sorry." I laughed.
"We have a lot to discuss, but everything's changed." He said what I had been thinking.
"I know." I said looking down feeling the painful break coming. I knew it was coming. That ultimate rejection. He was my father, he was married to my mother, and I couldn't be the reason their marriage of more than thirty years ended.
"Stop that." He said pulling my face up to look at him. "You're moving home and we're going to figure this out together."
Then he leaned in and kissed me. Passionately.
Someone outside in the hallway moved and he broke our kiss but still looked at me. Everything surged inside of me. When one of Mark's groomsmen poked his head in the door we were standing three feet apart just staring at each other.
"We're ready for you guys." He said and then disappeared.
Dad put his arm around my shoulders and we walked out into public. "Just so you know, Son. As soon as the ceremony is over and everyone is distracted I'm going to tear your guts up. You look too fucking hot in that tux not to."
I was hard the entire time we took pictures!
The ceremony was beautiful. Mark and his bride were the perfect couple. They were going to make beautiful babies. I had my turn dancing with the bride and she seemed perfect for him. She laughed and the entire room lit up, but when they finally came back together for another dance everyone was watching them.
"Now." Dad said coming up behind me and whispering into my ear.
Everyone was distracted, and it was time for him to make good on his promise. Something I would never hesitate to be a part of. I followed him to the back of the room and we both quietly slipped out through the door.
"You look so fucking hot in your tux, Christian."
"You too, Daddy." I smiled when he opened the door leading back into the church where the wedding had taken place. The great thing about this venue was that the ceremony happened at Mark's church. They didn't have to do anything separate. The reception even took place in their massive fellowship hall.
The sanctuary seemed twice as big as it had before now that there wasn't anyone else there. The tall ceilings were painted with angels and clouds like the room opened up to heaven.