I think I was on my knees in that store for about 10 minutes. Completely confused at what had just happened. He hadn't done anything to more than pinch my nipple and make me fix his pants, but his voice had flipped some sort of switch in my body. Everything was still hot and the tingling in my stomach got worse the more I thought about my behavior.
I'd gotten my first kiss in a bookstore, from a guy who had already decided he would
fuck my
good little boy cherry
, and made me get on my knees so my face was level with his junk and fix his pants.
For some reason praying seemed like the right thing to do even though I'd never been particularly religious. I got up off the floor, fixed my tee-shirt, crossed myself -just in case- and headed to the front of the store. Right now getting home would be like being granted sanctuary. But of course my luck just didn't want to cooperate.
Maybe I did the cross wrong.
The guy, who had not less than 30 minutes ago had been fucked against the wall, was checking out a book and leaning against the counter by the register. Bold as you please without a hint of shame. I could feel the blush growing as I tried to hurry pass him, but he caught my eye. He smirked. Like he knew I would be the next one. Blushing harder I practically ran from the store.
By the time I got home my cheeks were a normal color, my lungs were working properly, and my body thankfully was no longer tingling everywhere and hypersensitive. There was only my mom's car in the driveway-- so I thought it would be safe to just call out a hello and hide in my room for the next 30 years or so in shame.
But for some reason my mother, the woman who usually could care less about what I was doing while she was working, called me to the living room. I didn't like the way she asked either.
"Matthew, dear, can you come to the living room please?"
It sounded too.. nice.
I readjusted my glasses on my nose, patted my overly curly hair and hoped it didn't look as bad as it usually did, and went to the living room.
My lungs gave out again, blood rushed to my cheeks, and heat bloomed along with those godforsaken tingles in my belly.
There he was.
Sitting on my living room couch with his mom, smiling with the innocence of an angel; like he hadn't broken public decency laws half an hour earlier. I'm pretty sure I stood there gaping for about a minute before my mom decided to say something.
"Honey, you remember Gavin from next door. You used to go to school together. They moved back into town- they even managed to get their old house!" My mom smiled, seemingly way too happy when she had the devil incarnate in her house, until I remembered that Gavin's mom used to be her best friend for years growing up.
It took awhile to get my lungs working just enough to croak out a quiet, "Hello Mrs. Judekias."
"Oh, Matt dear, it's Ms. Hunt now. I'm a free woman again." Gavin's mom chuckled and I noticed a twitch in Gavin's jaw. I cleared my throat and tried to breathe properly. I bit my lip, thought about praying again when I saw that devious glint in his eye. I awkwardly shifted my weight when I realized the only seat left in the room was next to Gavin.
There was no way in hell--
"Matt, sweetie, why don't you sit down? Catch up with Gavin. I remember you two you used to be inseparable as children." I gulped drily and told myself there was nothing he could do in a room with his mother in it. The couch was a normal size, but it didn't seem big enough to have a comfortable space between me and Gavin. I clung to the arm of the couch and kept my head down. Wished I had a book to hide in.
"Hey Matt. How've you been?" His voice was different than in the bookstore. It wasn't as heavy, and didn't make everything sound obscene. Now it was just a low purr that made me shiver slightly. Of course he noticed. "Cold?"
"I'm fine.. um, school is good not too busy but just busy enough that you feel like there's always something to do. The bookstore got an entire new shipment of historical fiction, Mr. Johnson sold his old Mustang you know the cool red one that used to sit on the corner."
Rambling on and on was not one of my best attributes. Gavin rested his arm on the back of the couch, which meant the tips of his fingers were by my collar. Which only made me more nervous and start rambling faster. "All the school dances sucks, you didn't miss out on much, the school book fair is pitiful, all the people at school or either pompous idiots or pompous nerds who always want to be in cliques and don't get me started on the athletics department funding-" His index finger trailed from my hairline to my shirt collar and this time the shiver that seized me was almost violent.
I looked to my mom for help but she and Mrs. Jud- no, Ms. Hunt had their heads together and were talking as if Gavin and I didn't even exist. A pitiful whimper grew in my throat as I realized how screwed I was.
"You have a boyfriend, pup?" The heaviness was creeping back into his voice, making him sound like he was right next to my ear as he spoke. His finger kept moving across my neck and my head was growing fuzzy.
It was just that voice..
"Uh-- um.. what was the question?" I really was pitiful, a fingertip on my neck and five words had me so worked up I couldn't think straight.
His hand moved closer and started playing with my hair. Twirling it around his fingers, burrowing into it to scratch my scalp- which oddly enough made a contented sigh fall from my lips. I didn't have to look at him to know he was smirking at how easily he could play my body like an instrument only he knew how to use.
"Boyfriend. Anyone I need to get rid of." His tugging on my hair got just a bit sharper, sharp enough to make me answer.
"I don't really... people." I shrugged and arched my back slightly when he pulled again biting my lip raw trying to keep silent. Since when did my hair turn in to an erogenous zone? Since when did I
have
erogenous zones? I'd always considered my sexual interest in anyone nonexistent. My sex appeal at the same level.
One touch from Gavin and it does this?
Gavin's hand stilled in my hair and he was quiet. (
Seriously what is it with him the suspenseful silences
) I risked a glance at him and found him watching me closely. His eyes were already dark but now they looked black, his pupils blown wide like he was high off something. Soft looking hair was still falling over his forehead and for some reason my hands started itching to push it back so I could see what his face looked like without anything in the way.
"You've never been kissed before have you?"