He stared at me with that mesmerized look in his eyes, watching me slowly reveal his body inch by inch as I undid the buttons. And I could feel his amazement with meâat how this situation had evolved from unexpected sexual exploration to whatever was this new territory we were encroaching upon. When I had finished with the last button, my hands grasped each side of his shirtâmy thumb tips making tiny circles on the skin near his pecs as they wound themselves up in his chest hair. My eyes never left his, and James only stood there, sighing with every movement of my thumbs. A silent trust between us.
I drew nearer to him and moved my hands under the folds of his shirt. I could feel his heartbeat under my palms, feeling his nipplesâwhich were hardeningârise and fall with his breathing. I had felt that hairy chest many times, but this was different. My older lover stood before me as not just a man but my man. He leant in and kissed me softly as I closed the distance between us.
When our lips met this time in the low light of his bedroom, my hands parted further from each other and slipped his shirt off. It fell with a purr to the floor, and as soon as his arms were free of it, they circled around me. Hooking gently under the bottom of my t-shirt and lifting it off with care. Till we were bare chest to bare chest. His arms around me again to draw me closer to him, where my hands could explore every nuance of his hairy chest while he trailed kisses just under my left earlobe. His hot breath tickling my sensitive neck each time he took a breath in between kisses.
If there was anywhere in the world I could have been, I wouldn't have been anywhere except there against him. My arms found their way around him and drew him closer, till I could feel the warmth of his chest hair against my young adult torso. Knowing that every bit of that hair was my man's hair. That I was giving myselfâwillinglyâto him in a way that I had never given myself to anyone else before.
My fingers swirled over his back, feeling his back muscles as he held me close. And every audible sigh I could hear only made me long to give him more. To pleasure him in ways I previously had never known I wanted to pleasure another man before. I felt so vulnerable and frail but so alive and empoweredâknowing this was exactly where I was supposed to be. Knowing that, right here and now, if nothing made sense outside this bedroom, this was exactly who I needed to be right now.
As if in agreement with this thought, James's lips found that special button on my neck that always makes me tingle when he kisses it. I moaned a little into him, spurring my body to grind my hardness into him as I planted gentle kisses into his shoulder and neck. My fingers still stroking his goose-bumped back light enough to make him quiver and buck a little into me.
My own nipples were hardening from the electric pleasure he was giving me, to the point that every time their tips kissed the fine hairs of his chest, I felt like sighing. I pressed my body closer against him and felt my heart thrum in my ears as we stood closer together. His fingers exploring the nuances of my lower back, caressing my beltline just above my underwear. Finding the warmth of my flesh under the waistband and inching them lower, over the mounds of my glutes, until at last they fell to the floor.
When his lips reluctantly ended their soft travels on my skin, he looked down at my naked body. Then James faced me. Those charming eyes were softer than ever, telling me without words that it was okay to be defenseless and vulnerable like I was. Those eyes told me that he belonged to me tooâas much as I belonged to him. No oneâman or womanâhad ever looked at me that way before. And while outside that roomâthat momentâit might have scared me with all the thoughts and possibilities of what was and what could be, in that moment, it made me weak. My spine tingled from that expression on his face, and carefully, he eased me back the step or two to the bed.
I felt the back of my legs brush against the bed. James took my hands in hisâfingers entwined tightâand a moment later I was easing backward onto the bed. Not being able to see it behind me but trusting that it was there as I stared into my lover's eyesâthe same way I somehow knew I could trust him. The soft folds of the plush blanket caught me, having me the way James would have me tonight. Then he let go of my hands, his eyes still staring down at my naked body exposed to him.
His hands hooked in the waistband of his underwear, and they too joined the floor. Allowing me to see every inch of his hairy nudity in the dim of the room. My eyes traced every bit of his masculinity just as I felt his eyes doing the same to me. Until, when it seemed he could help himself no longer, James slowly climbed into bed next to me, crawling over me to envelope me with his form. I rose to meet him. His hand took my chin and lightly drew my face to his till his lips brushed against mine like a feather. It was a kiss that seemed totally new to both of usâthe kind of lip meeting where it seemed both of us could feel the nervous hesitation in the other. But neither one of us stopped; I knew we both didn't want to stop.
That soft sensual kiss deepened, and then I took his hand in mine and broke away just long enough to kiss the tops of his knuckles as our fingers entwined. Then our hands fell to the side of me on the bed, and my lipsâlike two travelers returning homeâfound his again. Our mouths deepening the kiss to gently introduce our tongues; we slowly made out like it was the first time we were making out ever.
My other arm circled around his back and held James close. His other arm did the same to me, and we were entwined in each other's arms in such a way that I wondered if this was how true love was made. As if to answer my question, James's lips broke away from mine to trail kisses down my throat and then to my chest. The tip of his tongue dotted my skin in morse code bursts of sensual passion.
Then he sank lower. My handâwhich had been rubbing his shoulder blade and his backâfound the back of his head as his lips made their trek to my nipples. I ran my fingers through his thick head of hair, knowing that, yes, this was how true love was made. He planted gentle kisses on and around my nipples for a whileâalternating between themâuntil I was whimpering from the tingle of him. Feeling his leaking erection against my thigh, my other hand in hisâfingers clutching each other the way our hearts were learning to clutch each other.
I threw myself back on the bed, arching my back as James followed my every movement. My every nerve exploded in a series of passionate overload, his chest hair making love to my skin as his tongue traced every contour of my nipples, his mouth still alternating between them. Flicking the tips till my breath hitched and my toes curled.
Hearing my sharp breath, James whispered to me. "You want it, baby?"
My fingers tightened in his hair, massaging the back of his scalp. "Yes," I breathed. And a moment later, fearful he hadn't heard me, I repeated it a little louder. "Yes, baby."
To acknowledge my answer, he left a trail of lighter kisses on my skin in a long V down to my waist. The tip of his tongue touching me lighter and lighter as he trailed downward till every nerve within me was electrified. I writhed with the feeling of it, feeling like I was his.
But before his mouth could travel below my waist, our holds on each other broke apart. Then he slunk off the bed and stood before me again between my slightly spread legs. His eyes locked on mine, and I knew what was to come now. James dropped low enough to take one of my calves in one hand and the other in his other. Then he lifted them a little higher, eased them wider apart, and bent over the bed to shrug them onto his shoulders.
My hands grabbed the side of the bed I'd come to know so well lately and, bracing myself a little on his shoulders, scooted myself closer to the edge. His loving smile returnedâhis erection still solid at attentionâand I knew I was safe and loved. Like a girl about to be deflowered by her high school sweetheart.
That smile never left me as he reached over and grabbed the bottle of lube on the nightstand. It had been full last week, but as proof of our bond together, we had used enough it that it was now only half-full. James worked some of it onto his manhood, capped the bottle and tossed it on the bed beside me. Then I felt him line up the tip against my pucker, feeling it prod the outside of my opening as we continued watching each other. Until, finally, with a sigh, James glided the tip inside me.
My breath hitched from the feel of him sliding into me, still not loose enough to take him without a measure of discomfort. But I relaxedâtrusting himâand let my body welcome my lover into me like I was gifting myself to him. And like a gift to me, James was gentle as he eased into me, stopping every inch or so to allow me to get used to him before he continued giving me a part of him I knew no other man had ever been gifted before. That softness was still in his eyes, telling me he had meâthat I was his. And I'm sure the look I was giving him confirmed that for him tooâuntil I felt his pelvis flush with my ass as he finished sliding fully inside me.
I don't know how long we stayed like thatâhis erection twitching in the warmth of me in that dim roomâembracing the feel of the closeness we were making. But when it seemed like it would go on forever with my hole clenching and unclenching around his hardness, James eased his erection backwards till only the tip was inside me. Allowing me to feel the emptiness trailing after him as he withdrew.
Only for him to fill me up again.
He eased forward little by little until his pubic hair met my skin again. This time grinding a little against me as my ass met his pelvis. Then he eased out again, just as gentle as ever. The feeling made me melt, experiencing the pleasure spread through me as he continued his slow journey back and forth. Not roughânot hard. A steady rhythm that wasn't fucking; in a motion I can only describe now as making love to me, James eased in and out of my welcoming body.
We were like that for the longest time, his chest hair rubbing the backs of my legs as our bodies met and parted. Met and parted. Working a steady rhythm together that left us both sighing, borderline moaning. I could feel every inch of him sliding in and back outâin and back outâto the point every nerve ending within me was tingling with passion. Wondering how I could ever live without thisâwithout Jamesâand knowing that I couldn't. That I wouldn't if I had any say in the matter.