Two months later I walked out the prison a free man. I enjoyed the bus ride to my hometown. My mother was surprise when she saw me standing on her porch.
We sat and talked before the front door slammed open. My sister ran over almost knocking me down.
"You're ass better be home for good!" She yelled as she ran up the steps.
"Oh, my God!" The voice was my ex-girlfriend Gloria. "Why didn't you call me when you were on you way home?"
She threw her arms around me but I just looked at her.
"I didn't think Brad would be okay with you coming to see me." I laughed.
She looked at me crazy "Didn't think I knew."
I went to the basement and looked around. My own apartment set up, the only think my mother ever did was clean she never went looking for anything. So looking around I knew my dizzy ex had been looking for something. I ran up the steps before she and my sister left.
"When you searched my room," I said looking at her "Did you find what you were looking for?"
"What are you talking about?" She laughed
"Yeah, Gloria what is my brother talking about?" My sister asked "Please tell me you didn't take anything out of his room."
"No she didn't!" I laughed. "She couldn't find anything because nothing was down there."
I sat down as she stormed out of the house.
"KT!" My mother called "Someone name Hayden came by and left a number for you."
I took the number and looked at it, deciding that it wouldn't be good for me to call him.
A decision I quickly realized was a bad one. I began to mope around the house, feeling sad and lonely. Missing Hayden and what we had.
One day I was watching TV when my mother called me upstairs. I walked into the living room as she was talking to someone. It surprised me when I walked around the corner to Hayden was talking to my mother.
"Hello KT" Hayden said as I walked into the room. I took a deep breath not really knowing what to say.
"Son, sit down." My mother said.
I looked at them and rubbed my forehead.
"Momma, I HUHHH" I scratched my head and sat in the chair.
"Why haven't you called Hayden?" She smiled as she held Hayden's hand.
"Momma I need to explain something's to you." I mumbled.
"Explain what baby?" My mother said "Hayden was just telling me how you protected him when he was locked up."
"I was telling your mother I just wanted to thank you in person for being my friend." Hayden smiled.
"Hayden would you like to stay for dinner?" My mother asked getting up.
"NO!" I yelled, "I mean Hayden has other things to do then have dinner with us."
"Kevin Aaron Terrell!" My mother called, "Why are you being so rude?"
The frown on her face gave me a cold chill. I remember that look when I got in trouble as a kid. I sunk back in the chair wishing I could disappear.
"KT's right I have some where to be." Hayden said standing up. "Walk me to my car."
I jumped up and followed behind him. I closed the door behind us so my mother wouldn't hear what I was saying.
"Hayden! Hold up." I said grabbing his arm.
He looked at me with a frown on his face.
"What the hell are you doing?" I asked.
"I wanted to see you." He started to cry.
"Please don't cry." I moaned, "I hate when you cry."
He knew my soft spot and his tears were one of them.
"I'm sorry KT," Hayden cried. "I can't help how I feel."
My mother opened the door, "Is everything alright?" She asked.
Hayden's eyes got big when he looked up and she stepped out on the porch, he ran jumped in his car and sped off.
I dropped my head and turn to go back in the house.
"Son is everything alright?" She asked again.
"Fine mom!" I moaned as I walked by her, "I'm not hungry."
I walked to the basement door before she could get to it. I went down the steps locking the door behind me.
I didn't get much sleep that night and waited to hear my mother leave before I went upstairs.
I had been avoiding her for about two weeks when I realized that she was leaving before nine in the morning everyday and was in bed by ten at night.
One night I didn't miss her, she was sitting on the couch waiting for me.
"Are we going to talk about your friend Hayden?" She asked as I walked into the house.
"No!" I replied grabbing something to eat.
"Hayden coming to visit has upset you and I want to know why?" She said.
"Momma, leave it alone!" I yelled.
"First of all who the hell do you think you are talking to? She yelled. "I'm not one of them silly ass little girls you mess with."
"I'm going to bed!" I yelled retreating to the basement locking the door behind me.
I didn't sleep and wasn't surprised when my alarm started screaming the beeping noise at six in the morning. I jumped in the shower and quietly went out the front door before my mother woke up.
I couldn't believe we were fighting about Hayden. This Hayden situation was tearing me up. I have never yelled at my mother.
**
"Kevin Terrell!" The receptionist yelled. "Ms. Jenkins is no longer employed here. So your new Parole Officer is Ms. Lee."
"Is she going to see me today?" I asked.
"Go to the door." She smirked.
"I hate these people." I thought as the door opened.
We walked down a long hallway before turning into her office.
She looked at my paper work.
"You have to obtain a job." She said never looking up at me. She pulled out a letter. "Go to this address."
She picked up the phone and made a call about the job on the letter. After hanging up the phone she stood up. I followed her down the hall to the door.
"Do I have to ask for anyone?" I asked as she held the door open.
"They are expecting you." She said, "If you mess this up I will send your ass back to prison."
Then the door slammed.
I took a long sigh before turning to leave.
**
I walked into the building with the address that was on the paper. I entered the elevator and got off on the top floor. A woman answered the door.
"We were expecting you." She said.
I followed behind her as she walked into a larger room, where another person was sitting behind a desk.
"Have a sit."
I did as she said and watched as she disappeared.
"Kevin!" The soft voice called.
"Do I know you?" I asked.
"Yes!" The person cleared their throat, then moved closer. I stared at her legs as she stood in front of me.
"Sexy" I thought as I felt my cock twitch.
"This is the only way I can be with you."
I looked up to Hayden, dressed as a woman. My mouth dropped as he stepped closer to me. I took a deep breath he was sexy as a woman.
Then I came to my senses "Why are you doing this Hayden?" I said, "Why can't you leave things alone?"
"I LOVE YOU!" He yelled, "I'M WILLING TO GO THROUGH THE SURGERY AND HORMONES. JUST SO I CAN BE WITH YOU."
"HAYDEN!" I yelled "STOP IT! IT'S OVER" I paused "WE ARE OVER!"
"NO! NO! BABY PLEASE, LISTEN!" Hayden started to cry, "I can be a woman, your woman. I can get a sex change so we can be together."
I dropped my head, rubbing my fingers against my forehead. Hayden was willing to sacrifices for me. Change for me and I wasn't even man enough to admit my true feelings.
"I can't let you do that!" I mumbled pulling him down on my lap.
"Everything's already set up." Hayden said, "I will pay you to take care of me. So that we can spend time together."
"I'm not worth all of this." I mumbled, still trying to grasp what he was about to do.
"My surgery is in a month." He said, "I'm doing the hormones first. I get my first injection in a week."
I felt numb and could only shake my head "NO!" I mumbled, "You can't"
"Claire!" Hayden yelled standing up.
The woman that answered the door, enter the room with a backpack. Hayden walked out before I could say another word to him.
"His mind is made up." Claire said.
"Can't you talk him out of it?" I asked.
"He loves you." She whispered, "Only you can stop him."
"I don't want him to go through with the surgery." I whispered to Claire, "I am not worth all of this."
We walked to the door.
"There is a cell phone in there." She was pointing at the backpack, "Talk to him. Only you can change his mind."
**
For two day I walked around in a fog. I didn't eat and don't remember doing much sleeping either.
"Kevin." My mother called as she walked in the house. She turned to see me sitting in the living room. "Baby what's wrong?"
She grabbed my hand and rubbed it gently.
I could feel the tears rolling down my face. I closed my eyes,
"Hayden!" I whispered.
"You love him?" She asked. I just stared at the floor not saying anything. "It's okay if you do."
I looked at her with a frown. "God I underestimated you," I mumbled.
"You are my child and all that hurt you're carrying inside of you." She took a deep breath, "Well! It's not worth your pain."
"Hayden's willing to change his whole life for me." I cried, "And
I wasn't even man enough to tell you how I felt about him."
"So you do love him?"
"Is it a bad thing."? I mumbled, "If I do."
"NO! I like Hayden." She smiled, "He sees something in you baby that you don't see in yourself."
"I still don't understand that," I chuckled.
"Baby! To your friends you are KT! Bad ass, drug dealer, gangster." She smiled, "But to Hayden you are his protector, his knight in shining armor and he feel safe with you. LOVED!"
"But I'm a coward." I said, "I couldn't admit my feeling for him to you. I couldn't even admit them to him." I closed my eyes to keep tears that were forming from falling.
"You can't choose who you love." She said, "All that is important is that you love."
I started to laugh, "What's so funny?" She asked.
"Another inmate told me the same thing." I laughed, "He's the reason I was protecting Hayden."
"I'm going to cook." She said getting up walking toward the kitchen, "Kevin! Don't let Hayden do something that you don't want him to do. Especially if you can stop him."