I published one story called "Master's Toy: Part 1". Since then I've been busy and lost access to my account. Now I'm back to publish more stories.
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I am a straight man who fell into debt to an older, affluent man. I live as his slave now. While he enjoys using me for sexual gratification, he also finds it amusing to force me into pornographic shoots. He hires porn production companies to film scenes with me playing the part of the girl. As a straight male who once enjoyed such scenes, it is a degradation I can barely endure.
I've heard that writing anonymously about your experiences can help. Here is my first attempt.
Names of porn companies are changed.
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The camera points directly at my face. I looks away in shame.
"What's your name bitch?" the cameraman asks.
I do not answer at first. I feel tears at the corners of my eyes. My voice is choked. I have already been humiliated, turned into an object for sexual degradation. I don't want to participate any further.
My body is shaved and covered in oil. I am wearing nothing except for a pink g-string and black high heels. The g-string does little to hid my erection. My face is painted with makeup: fake eyelashes, metallic blue eye shadow, purple lipstick, and thick black eyeliner. A rhinestone collar is wrapped around my neck. There is a name tag, bearing the name I refuse to say. A chain leads from the collar to the cameraman's hand. It is a leash, another symbol of my submission
"Bitch, what is your name?" the cameraman repeats.
I decide to submit, knowing I have no choice.
"My name is Ashli," I say.
"And why are you here today Ashli?"
I swallows the last of my self-respect. I look directly into the camera. "I'm here to be your slut," I respond.
The cameraman laughs. He is a taller, muscular white male. I can't pay much attention to his features. My focus is on the enormous penis hanging between his thighs.
The cameraman pulls the leash. I fall to the floor on my hands and knees. This is where he wants me; on my hands and knees, leashed like an animal for his amusement. My thong clad ass points high into the air. The lights reflect off my smooth, oiled body. I look forward with pleading eyes.
"Come here slut."
The cameraman pulls hard on the leash. I crawl forward submissively. I don't want to be here, I don't want to be his slut, but it's easier. I crawl the way I've seen strippers move across a stage, as if there is nothing more important than the leering man holding a one dollar bill. My back is arched in a vile representation of my submission. My hips swing so that the the camera catches my thong clad ass swaying back and forth.
The cameraman pulls the leash hard so that my face is pressed into his crotch. His penis presses against my face. I try to move my head away, but he presses harder. Everything else slips away. My entire world is the space between his muscular thighs, where his powerful cock sits awaiting adoration.
"Kiss it bitch."
I open my mouth and kiss the engorged shaft. My lips cover the his penis, leaving it wet with my saliva. I suck lightly on the skin, wanting him to know that I'll be good. My tongue laps at his manhood. I taste his cock and my heart beats faster. The cameraman slaps my ass.
"Look into the camera."