**All characters and situations in this story are fictional and if by any chance parallel anyoneâs past experiences, it is in now way intentional and simply coincidental**
Phillip Williamson had just celebrated his eighteenth birthday and was eagerly anticipating his high school graduation only three short months away. Phillip was a normal high school senior, with some good friends and decent, yet not tremendous grades. He had already been accepted to San Jose State, not too far from his home, so school really wasn't much of a concern for Phillip at the moment. His primary focus at the moment was finding a girl to take to the prom. Phillip really didn't spend much time with girls since he had a nearly full-time job and had gone through a strenuous year of college prep tests and the tedious admittance process. So with the latter behind him, Phillip declared to himself he was "back on the market".
Phillip was an attractive young man, with an average height and decent build. He also had an attractive set of baby blue eyes that complimented his smooth, silk hair. With these features, it wasn't difficult at all for him to land a nice piece of ass. Yet, when after dating several throughout the end of February and early March, none, even a girl considered by many to be the school's hottest, did anything for Phillip. It took him a long time to even get a hard on when he was sucking their tits.
One day in the middle of March, Phillip went to pick up his latest girl for a date, but when he walked into her house, he saw the girl's older brother jacking off to a porno on the front room couch.
"Whoa man, I'm sorry. I thought Jill's parents were both at work and nobody else was home." said Phillip completely embarrassed.
"No big deal man. Want me to get her, she's finishing up changing?" asked the brother.
"Sure. Just tell her to meet me in the car, I left the flowers for here in there."
Phillip walked back to the car puzzled and confused. Seeing his girlfriendâs brother stroking what had to be at least an eight inch, very thick cock made him get a hard on more stiff than any before him in his life. He had to hastily get out of there before the guy noticed his dick arising from his pants. After that date, Phillip broke up with Jill, because he needed to think about some things. He found it puzzling that after doing all the things he's done to girls over the years, none of it compared to the feeling of just seeing a hard cock soaked with precum. Immediately after he got home that night, he jacked off and came like he had never before. This was bothering him a lot, and he knew he couldn't say anything to his parents, because he knew sooner or later his homophobic father would find out and make damn sure Phillip would never see anything outside an Intensive Care Unit.
After a few more girls and lackluster sexual experiences with them, Phillip began exploring homosexuality more and more. He was browsing gay porn websites and even contemplated having gay cybersex. This was becoming an issue that needed to be addressed. Soon he decided he would see the only person with both the guidance and the discreetness for this particular problem, his Priest, Father Abram Saunders. Father Saunders had been Phillip's priest for as long as he had known and Phillip knew he could entrust this problem with him. So on an unseasonably warm early spring day, Phillip told his parents he picked up an all-night shift at the restaurant he worked at, and went to the church to see Father Saunders.
Phillip walked in wearing only his red striped polo shirt and faded bluejeans, taking advantage of the great weather. The church was empty, save for only Saunders and a janitor who was on his way out for the night, as it should've been on a Thursday. Phillip was very nervous and couldnât seem to put his confession into the right words. When he approached the confessional, his heart skipped a beat and he froze.
âLook man, you have to do this.â He thought to himself as he neared the small door.
He was beginning to perspire, but he soon thought of what a gentle and forgiving person Father Saunders was. Even if homosexuality was sinful and denounced by the church, he knew his priest would understand. With this newfound confidence, Phillip entered the confessional. He knelt down, and a recognizable hand opened the small window. A recognizable voice was soon heard.
âTell me your sins my child.â Spoke Father Saunders in a gentle manner.
âItâs Phillip Williamson.â Phillip stated.
âPhillip? Is everything all right, Iâve never thought Iâd see you here? Are your parents fine, I heard a silly rumor a while back that they were getting divorced? I discarded it as false, and I sure hope that I wasnât wrong.â
âNo, no my mom and dad are just fine. This is actually about me. And I really donât know how to put this.â
âWell whatever it is, the Lord is forgiving.â
âOver the past few months, Iâve been dating some girls-.â
âI see, youâve been having pre-marital sexual intercourse.â Said Father Saunders cutting in.
âWell I havenât had actual sex yet, but that isnât my confession. You see, when Iâm with these girls, I donât feel anything a normal guy would feel, if you no what I mean.â
âI see.â
âAnd a week or so ago, I found my self surprisingly aroused by a guy pleasuring himself. So my confession is that I think Iâm gay.â Added Phillip who now had a look of dejection, embarrassment and even fear on his face.
âThis is a very difficult thing to admit, and I see why you came to me and not your parents. One of your fatherâs only negative traits is that he isnât a man who accepts things that he perceives as awkward and different. Letâs step outside and sit on the pugh, I can see you came not just to get this off your chest, but you need some guidance as well.â
âYes, that would be nice.â Said a slightly less nervous Phillip.
âIt will be.â Replied Father Saunders who gave Phillip a warm, grandfatherly grin.
The two walked out of the confessional and Phillip who gave his priest a small look of relief. Father Saunders was a man with a grandfatherly quality, for he was sixty-one years old, with slightly balding grayish-white hair. He returned the Phillipâs look with another warm grin. Phillip was led to the pugh second from the front where the two sat.
âNow letâs get right to it, no need lingering. When you saw this man self-gratifying himself, was this the first time another man ever aroused you in the slightest way?â asked Saunders.
âYes it was.â Answered Phillip.