He pulled away. Pulled me up to his height. We had a long wonderful kiss. I had never kissed a man before tonight. All I can think of is wanting him! It's different than I feel for a woman - I've never felt like this for a woman.
He laid me down on the bed. He pulled out a condom and lubed it. I thought he would put it on but he used to finger me. The first finger was no problem but the second was quite tight. After the initial shock, it started to feel wonderful! Especially when he pushes in!
He stood up in front of me so I could put the condom on him. He had these little packets of lube - like those vinegar packages they have in restaurants. I put one on, It looked like lots to me. I started to move to into position on the bed. He stopped me and said "You're going to need more than that. Put all three packs on." I couldn't believe I could get 3 packs of lube on it but it all stuck.
I got into position on my stomach on the pillow. He got on top. I just assumed he would go slow but he just drove it right in. Probably got it half-way in before my muscles spasm-ed
like a bear trap and I felt an overwhelming sense of panic. "Stop, please stop!"
He stopped and held me as he said breathe, just breathe. In through your nose and out through your mouth. It worked, I could feel my muscles relax. He just held me close and whispered in my ear. We tried to kiss but couldn't quite connect. Finally, I think I'm relaxed enough - the pain subsided and it feels amazing! I have such a desire to get it all in but he's not even trying to put it in further. He's teasing me!
I pushed back against him and just then he drove it home. It both felt great and hurt. "Pull it out - it hurts!" He just held me tight and whispered to remind me to breathe to relax. The panic feeling and pain subsided. As I relaxed, I realized I can feel the end of his dick inside me. It feels so awesome to be filled with that big cock. I can't believe I can take it all.
He starts to do some short strokes. Hardly moving in and out at all but when he pushes in, it feels wonderful. I've never felt anything so intense. Both pain and also pleasure - when I can suppress the pain and panic feeling.
He took a long back stroke but my muscles spasm-ed and pushed him right out. He just positioned his dick and slid it back in without touching it. Such skill! This time he did one smooth, slow and wonderful in stroke - right to the hilt. I kept my eyes closed and focused on my breathing. I kept the pain and panic down. Now just wonderful feeling when he pushes it in. The withdraw this time is awesome but less intense. He slowly does about five full strokes. Now the pain is gone! As soon as I had that thought - it came back. I closed my eyes and focused on the pleasure.
He starts to really put it to me! OMG this is awesome. Especially when he thrust in. I think my brain has exploded with pleasure and this feeling of just wanting him! I don't think it was long until I felt my orgasm cumming. I couldn't believe it - I didn't even have an erection. Then wham, wham wham! Cum squirting and I feel my ass muscles spasm - in such a wonderful way. Then it keeps going. I realized that its him cumming but it feels like me also. How can that be?
Somehow it ended. I just remember him pulling me close. He wrapped his arms around me and just held me as my heart calmed down. We started kissing and somehow rolled over so I was on top. After a few minutes I laid my head down on his shoulders. I think we fell asleep for a few minutes.
I'm glad he quickly left. I need to have some time to figure this out. I can't believe I just got fucked! It was all I could do to stop myself from telling him that I love him. I can't say that because I'm paying him. I've got to find a boyfriend!
