It was the colors that got me the most. I tend to favor subtle gradations of color in my work, and my artist's eye was strained to the limit by the sheer riotous explosion of color that was the parade ground. Pink and green and yellow and orange in eye-searing combinations whirled around me; it looked like a kaleidoscope threw up all over downtown. And, of course, full-on rainbows were everywhere. There were rainbow flags, rainbow face paint, rainbow-striped clothing and everything else you could conceivably slap a rainbow pattern on. Pride was turning out not to be what I'd expected...but also, it kind of was exactly what I'd expected.
Overwhelming, in a word.
I wasn't even sure I was supposed to be there. Was all of...this...really for me? All the people around me, sure, cheering and waving, hoisting glitter-painted banners and the ubiquitous rainbow flags. They were who all this was intended for, not me. Did one experience, however transformative, really entitle me to a place here?
"You look lost."
I jumped at the sudden quiet words in my ear. With all the chaos of the march, I hadn't noticed anyone come up to me. Although given the general level of noise and the density of the crowd, I don't know how I could have. I pulled away and turned to get a look at the person speaking to me...and had to stop and take a second, longer look.
He was breathtaking.
Glossy black hair, streaked with understated blue highlights that matched his eyes perfectly. Finely wrought features, from high cheekbones and straight nose to a jawline that would make my sculpture professor tear up. His body was chiseled perfection, every muscle defined in such ideal proportions he could've put every figure drawing anatomy textbook I've ever seen to shame. He sparkled in the sunshine, each ridge of muscle lightly dusted with body glitter. To complete the effect, he wore only a tiny set of iridescent swim trunks that paired well with the huge, glittering fairy wings strapped to his back. At least I assumed they were attached somehow; in that moment, I might have believed they were real, that he was some sort of fey creature from the Irish legends my grandmother told, beautiful and terrible and impossible.
It made me wish I had my sketchbook. I could have drawn him for days.
He smiled, and of course his teeth were perfect too. "Ease off the ogling, you'll make me blush," he said, though there wasn't the slightest hint of embarrassment in his voice or bearing. If anything, he enjoyed the attention--and it wasn't just my attention he was getting. Practically every man who passed us in the parade spared an extra-long glance to take him in. Somehow, I was pretty sure it wasn't just the wings they found so eye-catching.
"Look," he said, "you just seemed a bit overwhelmed. If not, my mistake."
"You're not wrong," I admitted. "It's my first time at one of these things, and it's kind of a lot."
His smile became something wicked. "Ooh, a virgin? Well, now you have my attention."
I found myself blushing as only a redhead can. "I am not a...look, never mind. Thanks for your concern, but I'm fine."
That unreasonably attractive grin only deepened. "Oh, don't be like that. Tell you what, why don't I show you around this madhouse?" His eyes twinkled as though at some private joke. "I'll be your Virgil, and guide you through Pandemonium."
I blinked at that. I had not been expecting classical literature references from this man, though I couldn't point to a reason why, precisely. Don't judge a book by its ridiculously sexy cover, I guess. I opened my mouth to refuse him, and was surprised by what came out.
"Sure."
His smile gave the sun a run for its money. "Perfect! Come on, I know just what you need to see." He tossed a well-muscled, vaguely glittery arm over my shoulders and swept me off into the maelstrom of color and noise that was Pride. "By the way, what's your name?"
"Connor," I replied. "Yours?"
He smirked. "Dante."
I rolled my eyes. Of course.
He started pointing things out, both widespread traditions like Dykes on Bikes and stranger local ones that were apparently unique to our town. Why we needed a gay-only gardening/horticulture society was unclear to me, but to each his own, I guess.
"So," Dante said at one point, "you mentioned this was your first time marching. Mind if I ask why?"
I hesitated. "I guess I wanted to see if I fit in here, with...all of you."
He raised an eyebrow. "All of 'you'?" He gestured at the crowd around us. "Pretty diverse crowd here. You're going to need to be more specific."
I fumbled. "Um...gay people?"
The eyebrow was joined by its immaculate twin. "You must have really been lost. Exactly where did you think you were?"
I ran a hand over my face. "Ugh, I'm not explaining this well."
He snorted. "There we agree. Let me guess. You had an...experience, shall we say...and now you're confused. Not sure if you fit in one camp or the other?"
"Exactly!" I exclaimed. "I've always liked girls. Still do. But my...horizons were broadened recently, and..."
Dante snickered. "Oh yeah? Get your horizons broadened good and hard, did you?"
I blushed again. I was doing a distressing amount of that today. "Shut up. The point is, now I'm looking at guys in a way I wasn't before. I mean, I could always appreciate male beauty, but that's just part of being an artist. Now I'm...feeling it, I guess, in ways I never have."
Dante, of all things, shrugged. "So? There's a B in LGBT for a reason. Welcome to the team, I guess."
I stared. "That's it? Welcome to the team?"
He shook his head. "You're focusing on the wrong thing. People get so worked up over labels." He spread his arms out, encompassing the swirling madness around us. "Look around. Pride is not about labels. In fact, it's the opposite. Why do you think we called it that in the first place? We are here to proclaim that we are who we are, and the rest of the world has to accept that, not us who must accept the world. Take no prisoners! Show no fear! No shame! We march to be recognized as the individuals we are, not the box everyone else tries to put us in!"
Cheers and applause broke out around us, and I realized belatedly how much Dante had raised his voice. Apparently they agreed with him, though they thankfully went back to parading instead of paying attention to us. Dante, however, stayed focused on me.
"So you think guys are hot as well as girls. Congratulations, you get twice as many options when it comes to getting laid. Sounds like something to celebrate, not be ashamed of. Something to be...PROUD of, even." He waggled his eyebrows as I rolled my eyes. "What you need is something to get you out of your own head. You're overthinking all this."
"Oh yeah?" I asked, knowing he was right but not wanting to admit it. "And what would you suggest for that?"
His grin was downright devilish. "Some say pride is the worst of the seven deadly sins, did you know that? I say, if we're sinning anyway, we might as well try out a few more and see which ones we like." He loomed closer to me, abruptly inside my personal space. I found myself intensely...aware of him. Despite the warmth of the day and the crowd around us, I could have sworn I could feel the heat radiating off his skin. "I'm quite fond of lust, myself," he purred, eyes inches from mine.
I gulped.