Nothing but the Truth

I would consider myself straight because I don't find men attractive. At all.

This hasn't stopped me over the years in engaging sexually with them. I've never felt turned on by the person but by the acts and taboo nature of them. I would say I am heteroflexible though as while I am only attracted to women, I can certainly get off with men.

I have done some fairly degrading things over the years to feel the pleasure and it hasn't bothered me what the man looked like at all or what they wanted to do as I got myself off in these situations.

I started quite small but ended up really doing some kinky things before eventually losing my full anal virginity with a man about 10 years into this.

So these are the 8 main experiences of my life that have built up my desire to recieve pleasure however it happens and who ever it is with.

EXPERIENCE 1: Finally convinced by a high school friend.

I went to uni a complete virgin. I was awkward and not much of a looker. I was skinny, touching 6 foot but had put some effort into gaining some muscle by running and some resistance training.

I had decent abs but otherwise nothing much to write about. I didn't know this at the time but I have a decent arse that was pretty peachy and a decent cock. I've received plenty of compliments for it since some of my first interactions. It's a shade under 7 inches and 3 fingers thick.

Not porn worthy but just plenty for normal people!

Now Jason was my friend from high school, openly gay for years and considering the area we lived in is quite homophobic, he was pretty active in his own sex life.

The whole time we had been friends, he had flirted with me. While I enjoyed the attention and flirted back just to tease. I never had any intention of acting on it.

He had tried to kiss me before on drunken nights out but had accepted my rejections with grace.

He did catch me at a low point though. He had travelled up and stayed the night following a night out in town. He crashed on the floor next to my bed and we chatted quite drunkedly about the night.

I had been at uni a few months and still had not managed to find any action. A few make out sessions but nothing beyond it. We were discussing this quite openly and in detail into the darkness.

"Hey bud, I could help you out you know. I can show you what it's like to get a blowjob?" he whispered, clearly a little hesitant to offer it up.

I didn't respond straight away but my far from sober mind went into overdrive.

What if everyone found out? I wasn't gay, no issue with anyone who was but it's a lot of questions and labels I wasn't ready for.

My horny brain responded with the fact it was pitch black, I would never even see him do it.

A few minutes passed before I responded to him.

"Fuck it, go for it. Don't ever tell anyone though!" I conceded, also whispering even though noone could hear me.

He moved like lighting and pounced. I couldn't see his face but could feel the excitement in his whole energy.

He pulled my covers down and quickly found the waistband of my boxers.

He pulled them down but not far as he was too focused on his prize. He massaged my flaccid shaft to wake it up and sucked on the tip.

I couldn't see anything but I could feel his manipulations having an effect. As I hardened, he moved his hands to my balls and lightly squeezed them. His mouth starting to bob as I got to full mast.

When I had reached full stem, he struggled to suck me properly as he was kneeling beside the tiny bed while I laid sideways in front of him. He could not get a good angle as he tried to take as much of me as he could.

"Can you stand up? It would be a lot easier," he slurped as he pulled off my cock.

His voice reminded me who was playing with my cock and I almost rejected the whole thing but my cock begged me to continue.

I swung my legs round and stood with my calves against the frame, Jason now kneeling in front of me at the perfect height to devour my cock.

I stood awkwardly trying to envisage anyone else was doing this. He started to bob and the pleasure overshone the shame. I put my hand on his head to guide his bobbing but regretted it and pulled away, not enjoying the texture of his hair as it grounded me in reality.

I looked to the ceiling, unable to see still but it helped me step aside mentally and focus on the blowjob. He had skill but was just not the preferred recipient of my cock.

It took a while as the alcohol and embarrassment made me hold back but he got to a point of no return.

"I'm going to cum, where do you want it?" I asked, still whispering.

He responded by trying to swallow me whole which naturally tipped me over the edge and I came inside someone for the first time in my life.

He took it like a champ and swallowed it all, before popping into the ensuite to brush his teeth. Light seeped in from the bathroom. I saw his erection through his own boxers as he went in and could hear him gargle and spit.

He returned, turning off the light again and laid down on his make shift bed.

An awkward silence descended for a while. He eventually spoke again.

"Um, I'm pretty hard. Would you like to try?" he asked.

"Really sorry but that's not for me. You can wank though, I feel a bit bad." I responded.

"No problem, hope you enjoyed it at least. Can I at least look at you while I do?"

"Um, I suppose but I don't want to see. Turn the light on and I'll put my pillow on my face." I reluctantly offered.

"Sure, that works for me," he shrugged.

He got up and turned on the light from the bathroom again, I could see his erection before I covered my face. I know it's weird considering he just sucked me but seeing it in the light would make it real and at the moment I had the ability to be in denial.

He stood by the bed, and moved my boxers down again, revealing my still semi hard cock. I could hear him wanking and the slick noises of a sticky cock being jerked.

He must have been really turned on as it didn't take long before he was moaning.

Unfortunately, I assumed he had brought tissues through or was going to cum in his hand. He had made no such plan and in his cresendo, leaned forward and came all over my naked cock.

I felt it hit me like a shot, a warm sticky liquid splashing on my cock and groin. 4 or 5 big splashes before he held his position over me and a few more smaller dribbles landed on my thigh. He breathed heavily over me.

I had gripped the pillow tighter as he started cumming and did not want to move it and see the mess he had made.

"Shit, sorry bud but I didn't think about where I was going to cum. Want me to clean it up?" he apologised.

I grunted and nodded under the pillow, just wanting this interaction to be over.

I once again assumed, quite incorrectly, that he would get tissue before I felt his bristly chin on my stomach as he started licking and slurping the cum up. It took him a minute or so before it was gone and I was clean.

I had not moved the pillow but essentially just allowed it to happen.

He then went back to bed and I rolled away.

We hung out the next day and it was pretty awkward. We haven't spoken since and have had no follow ups since.

I do regret not following up with him as now I have started experimenting with my sexuality more, I see it as a missed chance. I had too many hang ups back then and maybe too homophobic in myself to understand what I had passed up and that I could have started this journey way earlier.

Experience 2: The first thing inside me.

The first experience opened up the door to pleasure from men and I see as a huge reason as to why I have pursued it since. The worst part was knowing him as it made me feel uncomfortable as I didn't feel like I was gay or remotely attracted to him. This meant it took a certain level of maturity to understand, that the people in my life didn't possess and I wasn't willing to go through that. Every man since, has been someone I have never met outside of our sexual interactions.

That being said, my second experience was actually with a woman but potentially my most transformative and the thing that has driven me most with the receiving of pleasure in this way.

Not long after uni, I had completed far more things sexually and now had slept with multiple women. I felt far more confident and like I did a pretty top job when it came to giving pleasure. If anything, I preferred causing orgasms and there was a real power and satisfaction behind it. A sense of accomplishment and that I had earned my own release.

Every encounter I had this attitude and has caused me to real commit to causing orgasms with my male partners and do things that I wouldn't do by myself.

This time however, I was with a woman called Rose.

She was stunning. We only ended up being fuck buddies but she really opened the world up to me and I could never thank her enough.

We had been sleeping together for a little while when she was getting changed in my room, ready for a mutual night out with friends.

I had stripped to boxers, ready to get into something smarter when I felt her behind me and she reached round to rub my cock through my boxers.

I could feel her firm breasts on my back as she coaxed me to full rod.

"Lie down and drop those boxers mister," she ordered sultrily.

I whipped them off and through them to the side. As I fell on my back, my legs over the edge so my butt was on the corner of the mattress, she knelt between my legs and took her bra off.

Her tits were the best I had ever seen. They were a C cup easily and she was short and slim, so they were incredibly prominent on her chest.

Her areola were dark pink and her nipples were rock hard. She loved them being sucked and could get off from just that alone.

She took my tip in her mouth and swirled her tongue around the head. She grasped my shaft and slowly jerked it as she pleasured my tip. To this day, the best cocksucker I had been with.

She bobbed and sucked and massaged my balls until I was close. She liked to know when I was close as she would try to surprise me with the ending. She had swallowed, taken a facial, covered her tits and the second best one, she had made me creampie her at the end of the blowjob. This time though, genuinely changed my whole world.

She waited till I told her I was nearly there and she put her finger on my rosebud. I clenched in panic at the sudden guest to my anus.

"Relax, trust me," she said, taking my cock out of her heavenly mouth.

I did my best as she pushed the finger in, causing me to erupt and have the best orgasm I have ever had. My arse clenched her finger as I came and the feeling was beyond words. That one intrusion changed me forever.

"You like that huh?" she smirked at me as she pulled her finger out. She wiped her finger on a tissue from my bedside table.

"Fuck me, that was the biggest orgasm I have ever had," I responded trying to get my breath back.

"Yet, honey, yet," she responded proudly.

I never got to see what happened next as she met someone she settled down with. She is now married and has kids with this person so I can't begrudge her it but I do feel like I missed out on a hell of a time with her.

This though was the biggest step towards my exploration as I had seen the light and have found ever since the best orgasms involve anal play. I have tried toy after toy but I did get desperate to try out the real thing inside me. The anal pleasure became an earworm in my life and I could not stop thinking about going further with it.

These first two experiences set me up greatly for the rest as I did not mind sexual experiences with men as long as I didn't know them and anal pleasure had become a total fixation.

Experience 3: The right hole opens.

Now I didn't dive straight into riding massive cocks or orgies. It took a lot of time to get comfortable with the idea but I ultimately kept it anonymous so there would be no fall out or follow up to contend with. I had tried toys and enjoyed them but I had become fixated on trying the real thing. I wanted to feel a real cock.

I wasn't ready for diving into full anal but was willing to test the waters. I wanted to just at least touch another person's cock so I searched for a gloryhole. Full anonymity and I could get the experience I was after.

It took a year before the opportunity landed before me. I had been trailing craigslist and chatted with a fair few people but nothing really worked for my situation until I saw someone advertising their gloryhole.

They wanted to suck someone and maybe be fucked. I messaged when I saw and asked about reciprocating.

He wasn't keen as he was an out and out bottom but I could suck him for a while before he did his bit. That way I could be turned on and more likely to succeed with actually pleasuring a cock before I chickened out or got post nut clarity.

He sent me his details and said to come over at 11pm. Nice and late, noone would see me turn up and go in his flat. He said I had to buzz in but he would leave his door open for me and that he had a panel set up in his bedroom door. He also gave me the option of wearing a mask if we got into it and wanted to go further.

I drove over, extremely nervous and decided to park about a 5 minute walk away. He could never see my car and I was still unidentifiable. I walked to his, buzzed the door and it opened straight away. I climbed the two flights of stairs and found the door open as promised.

The flat was dimly lit, and the front door opened onto an L shape corridor. A bathroom to the right, the hole was the first door on the left and a backlit living room at the tip of the L where the tv was on.

I took the mask off the door handle and went to the cardboard hole. I put the mask on for good measure and knelt in front of the hole.

I was shaking with nerves but so excited to finally have my first try of a cock.

His cock came through the hole, semi erect and a reasonable size. Only 3, maybe 4 inches long but it would get bigger when I had my way with it. It reached a little over 5 inches and my hand could wrap round it well.

I licked the tip and felt the taste of precum. Not disgusting, which prompted me to take the whole head in my mouth. It had a rubbery texture as I sucked and swirled my tongue. It quickly grew in my mouth and I could feel the rigidity behind the flesh of his rod. I started bobbing my head but realised quickly that I would gag far too hard trying to jump straight into deepthroating.

I grasped his balls as they were just through the hole and massaged them with a few of my fingers as that's all I could reach with.

The precum taste got stronger but not unpleasantly so. I was enjoying how hard he was and that I had caused that. He was now moaning and praising my work. I was quite proud that I was being successful with my first ever blowjob.

He pulled away and said it was his turn.

I stood up and pulled my shorts and under wear down. I had to squat slightly to reach the hole with my fully erect cock. I was hard as hell doing this.

His mouth attacked me. That's the only way I could describe it. He was sucking hard and gripping firmly. Almost desperate to yank my dick off my body. It wasn't the best blowjob but it was working.

He could deepthroat unlike me and tried doing so on my 7" cock. He was bottoming out well considering the cardboard separating us.

He pulled off my cock and edged away from the hole.

"I really need that inside me. You up for trying it?" he asked me.

"Sure, wheres best to do it?" I hesistantly responded.

"Out there on the sofa, I have lube with me so go sit down," he ordered.

I pulled my cock back through, stripped naked and walked into his living room and sat on his sofa. My cock bobbed as I walked and I was apprehensive again. I adjusted the mask as it was like a full burglars one but with eye holes and a mouth.

I waited as I heard the cardboard pulled down from the doorway and he padded through. He was rock hard and lubing up his arse as he walked in.

He only had a masquerade mask so I could see his hair. Shaved completely but with a star engraved in the side. He had a bit of a belly but he looked strong and fit. I would say he was late 40's.

He stood in front of me facing his telly. He reached behind and used the rest of the lube on his hands to coat my cock and then he lowered himself.

I'm not sure if he was really tight or if I was thick but he struggled to get me inside him. My head would not poke in properly and the best we managed was the tip before it slipped out again. He eventually gave up and he lightly sat above my groin and his cock rested on mine.

"Sorry mate, you're too thick. My arse won't take you. Will you come suck me on the bed and finish that way?" he asked, clearly disappointed.

I think he was being kind about my cock. It was thick but he clearly had experience so I'm not sure why I wouldn't go in.

"Of course, can I make you cum first? I don't want to wuss out when I finish and not return the favour," I bargained.

He got off me and beckoned me to follow him. He laid on his bed, legs open and dick bobbing. It had wilted a little due to our lack of success but I would soon get it going.

I climbed on the bed between his legs in an all fours position. My arsecheeks wide open in the cold room so I could feel a tingle on it.

I took his cock in my hand and got back to work. I sucked for about ten minutes, trying all the tricks in porn. I stuck a finger in his lubed arse that he seemed to enjoy as his cock throbbed when I did.

My jaw ached after a while so I paused and wanked him but the air must have been the tipping point as he fired cum high into the air and all over his stomach and chest.

"Fuck, I needed that. Now let me do you!" he exclaimed as he rolled of the bed and got me back to standing. He sucked like his life depended on it, enthusiastic and firm.

I was so worked up, I only lasted about 30 seconds before cumming hard in his mouth.

"That was fun, thanks for letting me try this," I said as he slurped the last few drops out of me.

"No worries, you can come back and try again anytime," he responded warmly.

He let my softening cock drop from his grip and I found my clothes by the door and put them on. He had gone back to the living room and slumped onto his sofa, still nude.

I said goodbye as I left and went back into the night air. Not completely satisfied with the experience but enjoyed it enough, I wanted more.

Cocksucking wasn't as gross as I assumed and I really did enjoy causing orgasms. I could definitely do it again.

I never went back to this guy but I did find someone else willing to meet under my strict conditions.

Experience 4: The straight guy in the woods.

Craigslist stopped having personal meets as an option. I'm not sure when but I was gutted as my only success had come from it. It was a few years before I found another place to organise a meet with likeminded men.

There was a website, similar to grindr but no bots as it was all moderated properly. You could write in your profile what you were looking for and I put my restrictions out clearly. Very few offers came in as naturally it came across as not genuine to the regular users but without any verifications I was limited.

It did however have a "near you" section where I found a guy who called himself John. No idea if it was his real name and never asked otherwise. I messaged him as his profile said he was a straight guy looking to be sucked by a man for the first time.

This guy was hopefully my speed and he needed secrecy too.

I messaged and offered to meet somewhere secluded and dark so we couldn't see each other and we planned out a meet. This is the inspiration for "The lad in the woods" story as it worked similarly.

I walked 20 minutes to get to the meeting spot as there was a log in the middle of the woods that was a regular meeting spot if you went there.