"What?" Nick asked.
"I said -- I think I might be in love with you." Spider shrugged. "You asked me what was going on."
"Yeah I did...wasn't expecting that." Nick frowned.
"So." Spider chewed a nail.
"So what?" Nick sat on his bed. Spider sat next to him.
"Where do we go from here?" Spider asked as he turned to face him, his eyes were red from the tears and Spider felt horrid for what he'd done.
"I don't know Jason." Nick sighed. "Where do you want to go?"
"I kinda want to be with you. That's what I've always wanted. Just been to much of an arsehole to say it." Spider smiled sadly. "And now I've probably ruined it, haven't I?"
"I don't know." Nick lay back and held his hands over his face. "I have so many feelings for you and they're all so conflicted. I don't know what to think."
"Shall I go?" Spider stood to leave.
"No." Nick shook his head. "If you go I might never let you back." Spider sat back down on the bed. Nick still had his face covered. They sat in a strained silence for around ten minutes until Nick sat up and sighed, he wiped his red raw eyes and looked at Spider. Spider slid close and put an arm around Nick and pulled him to his chest. Nick sighed again and his body trembled lightly.
"Oh Twinkle." Spider soothed and kissed Nick's temple. "I'll never hurt you again, I will look after you."
"I just don't know if I can trust you." Nick said softly.
"Do you think you could maybe grow to trust me?" Spider asked.
"I don't know Spider, I really don't." Nick said into his shoulder.
"Do you want too?" Spider asked and desperately hoped he did.
"I do." Nick looked up at him and Spider tentatively kissed his lips.
"It's all going to be okay. I promise." Spider held him close.
The next few days were a blur to the two. Nick felt distanced and unsure, everything he thought of Spider he was confronted with a rush of love and then the crippling agony of what he had done. They spent some time between classes together but the two didn't really interact. The rest of their friends thought that they'd just had another falling out. Spider had confided in Nile who had done his best to give the right advice, but he knew it was ultimately down to the two boys -- they had to sort their situation out on their own.
"Want to do something tonight?" Spider asked Nick who was lounging on the Drama Club's sofa.
"Sure, what?" Nick looked up.
"Dunno, could go for a walk maybe, its nice enough today." Spider sat on the arm and stroked his hair softly.
"Yeah, we can grab a takeaway and have a picnic." Nick smiled.
"Sounds like a plan." Spider looked up as the door opened, happy that Nick finally wanted to do something with him. Maybe he was getting over his insecurities. Trevor, Lion and Claudia came into the room and Spider felt the atmosphere change. Nick withdrew into himself and couldn't help glowering at the girl. "Hey, stop that." Spider said softly. "There's no need." Nick frowned and turned away from him as Nile and Nathan came in. Nile looked over and raised an eyebrow and Spider just rolled his eyes. Nathan sat with his arms around Claudia's waist. His head was on her shoulder and he was chatting to Lion about sports. Spider looked at her and her eyes met his, he smirked despite himself and she looked away, embarrassed. They hadn't discussed the incident -- even when they'd been alone it hadn't cropped up. Spider had made sure she got the impression that it wasn't going to happen again though. Before lunch he excused himself to go smoke and went to sit under his favourite tree. Shortly Nick joined him and snuggled into his side, his unsure ness had crept back and he needed comfort. Spider slung an arm around him and finished his cigarette ten he nuzzled into his head. Nick looked up for a kiss and Spider kissed him gently, telling him he'd be smoky. Nick whispered that he didn't mind and the two kissed.
"Get a room!" Nile appeared and lay in the grass in front of them. Nick looked terrified and his eyes shot to Spider.
"Nile knows." Spider soothed and leant against the tree pulling him back.
"About?" Nick asked.
"About everything baby." Nile rolled onto his back and grinned. "You keep him in line!"
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Spider leant back on his elbows and looked at the view from where they had chosen to picnic. It looked down across the city and the soft lights made it seem unreal. They had finished their take away and now Spider was waiting for Nick to make the next move. It didn't take him long and soon he'd sat to face him.
"I think I've got things in my head sorted." He said.
"Oh yeah?" Spider smiled, he didn't want to press him.
"Yeah. What happened has happened. We will just start from now." Nick nodded.
"I am glad to hear that." Spider shuffled closer.
"But you must be honest with me." Nick told him. "I want to know if you've done anything else with anyone."
"No! I have...oh." Spider paused. "I've kissed Nile."
"God that doesn't count. I doubt that'd ever stop." Nick teased and Spider laughed.
"C'mere." Spider pulled him over and kissed him. Nick wrapped his arms around his neck and Spider deepened the kiss, he wanted to make sure that Nick new that he was loved. He kissed down his neck and stroked his back, pushing his shirt up and running his fingers over his soft skin. Nick's hands gripped him, as his kisses got more urgent. Spider stroked his stomach and soon was fiddling with his belt.
"No you can't!" Nick gasped. "We're outside!"
"Twinkle there's no one around for miles, relax." Spider murmured into his ear. "Trust me." He rubbed Nick through his boxers and felt him growing hard despite his nervousness. Slowly he rook the others cock from its underwear and began to stroke it slowly, pumping it with his hand as he kissed along his shoulder. Nick moaned softly. It felt so good but he was sill worried someone would catch them. Spider moved down and gently licked the head of his erect cock, his tongue dancing across the sensitive opening before he took it into his mouth. Nick groaned and laid back, his hands found Spider's hair. Spider suckled on his member for what seemed like a torturous eternity, he kept at the same speed and Nick was calling out like a cat in heat. Spider looked up at him and smiled. "Can I fuck you?" Nick nodded and allowed Spider to remove his clothes. They were soon both naked in a blur of kisses and touches; Spider worked himself into Nick, his wet cock glistening in the evening's light. Spider was kneeling with Nick on top, his legs around his hips. Nick moved on Spider's cock fluently and Spider realised that he wanted to come. "Oh, you're liking this tonight baby." He moaned.
"Your cock feels so good. I want it all." Nick gasped and bobbed faster. Spider complied and began to thrust up into Nick hard; the red head threw his head back and groaned with pleasure. Spider watched as his body moved, his hard cock weeping between them, the feel of being inside his ass, so tight and warm. Spider began to pant and held Nick closer feeling the tingling sensation begin to build in his balls. He pumped Nick's cock and watched in delight as he came over his hand with a moan and a shudder. Spider then relaxed and let his orgasm flood Nick's ass. "Ooh god." Nick breathed and put his head on Spider's shoulder. "That was amazing."
"It was." Spider agreed and kissed his head. They stayed together for w while before Nick became stressed at the point of being naked in public so they dressed and began to walk back into the town. Spider was content with his feelings for Nick at the moment and he was happy that Nile knew, but he wasn't sure if he wanted any of his other friends to find out, so he decided he'd keep it quiet while they got settled. Nick walked beside his new love, he had thought over their relationship deeply. While he was happy to carry it on, he didn't trust the dark haired one at all and vowed to himself to not get too involved as he might get his heart broken. They walked back and soon were near Spider's house.
"Well I guess I'll see you tomorrow." Nick smiled shyly. Spider pulled him towards him for a cuddle and kissed him softly.
"Yeah you will...unless..." Spider smirked. "You want to come in for round two?"
