I had been getting closer and closer to taking the plunge into gay sex. Each day, I'd pursue Craigslist ads just to see what was happening in my area. After that, I'd read some Literotica stories about first times, getting harder by the minute, until I could not deny myself the pure pleasure of jerking off on cam with some random guy. I loved watching him stroke himself while he was enjoying watching me and could not wait to blow a load of cum all over myself. I would fantasize about having his cock buried deep in my virgin mouth and then as he would cum on cam, I would pretend that he was shooting his load down my throat. I would then take off of my cum and lick my fingers clean, savoring the warm, salty taste. As each day passed, I knew that it was only a matter of time until I would be unable to resist answering an add and fulfilling my fantasy.
I should mention that I am an older married guy with absolutely no experience with guys. Oddly, while I certainly recognize a good looking guy, I am in no way attracted to them. All I want is to pleasure another man and enjoy playing with a cock that is not my own and to ultimately feel him erupt in my mouth.
Which leads me to how I satisfied my deepest fantasy. One day as I was reading the Causal Encounters ads, one in particular caught my attention. The guy was about my age, said he was "mostly" straight but loved to engage in mutual masturbation and oral. He was not interested in kissing or any type of anal play. He lived pretty close to me. I typed a reply and my hand hovered over the Send key. I was unsure if I should go through with this or let it remain an unfulfilled fantasy. It took me a few minutes to decide and after I had sent my reply, I felt a sense of relief. After all of these years, I might actually get to fulfill my fantasy of sucking a cock.