My Night with Lincoln's Coc

I loved sucking Lincoln's cock. I wish I had seen him again.

Lincoln, if you ever read this, if you survived the AIDS epidemic, I want to see you again. Tell me what model car I was driving, its' color, tell me how many times I came in your ass that night, tell me what books you gave me, so I'll know it's really you, I want to be sure it's you. I want to go back with you to that night about 35 or so years ago.

It was the early 80's, maybe a year or so before AIDS hit. I hope you survived.

Yours is the first cock I ever outright, touched, played with and sucked. I'd have taken you in my ass too, but my ass was too small and your cock too big. I'm glad you didn't rape me, a lot of guys would have.

I met you one night in Hollywood. Cruising, you smiled and I pulled over. You weren't looking for pay, just a "ride home".

Black, handsome and nicely dressed. About my height 5'11" and my weight 160#, about my age, mid/late twenties/early thirties. My cock is 7-1/2" yours a little bigger, but not enough to make me feel bad. The only real difference between us, you're Black and I'm White.

You invited me in and I accepted. Like a gentleman, you held the door for me and I walked inside. You had a very neat little 1 bedroom apartment. You walked in and closed the door, turned to offer me a drink and I didn't give you the chance. I kissed you and you kissed me back. We kissed and I felt your masculine body against me and under my hands. You were a good kisser, just a little, not too much tongue and you knew all the good places on the neck and shoulders. I got hard and so did you. I could feel your stiffening cock through our pants. I wasn't supposed to feel it, but I felt it and I loved it. I was kissing a man, touching your body and feeling your cock getting as hard as mine.

That was it. I was going to be a real fag real soon. I wanted your cock. I felt your cock through your pants with my hand. I was feeling another man's cock and I was going to touch and feel it more. I was going to suck another man's cock. I was going to suck your cock.

Excited.

I sank to my knees and opened your pants. I couldn't believe I was going to touch and suck another man's cock! I was touching it through your pants! I opened the catch and pulled down your zipper. Scared and excited, I didn't stop. I pulled down your pants and underwear. In front of my face, sprang a beautiful cut cock and beautiful balls, half hard. I reached up and touched it. I'd never really touched a man's cock before but I did right then. It was spongy firm, warm and alive in my hand. Now or never, I'm going to do it.

I opened my mouth, kissed your cock and then slid my lips over your cock and sucked your cock, right there, on my knees, in the middle of your living room. Almost immediately, you got full hard in my mouth. Your cock was so lovely hard in my mouth as I sucked it.

I loved it. I'd never sucked a cock like this. Warm and alive in my mouth, it was wonderful as I sucked you and slid my tongue and lips over your cock, feeling it in my mouth, warm and alive. A real cock in my mouth. I was a real cock sucker forever and I loved it. That's it about sucking cock. You suck one cock and you are a cocksucker forever even if you never suck another.

I was on my knees, sucking your hard cock and loving it. I surrendered to sucking your cock and loving it. I was a cocksucker now.

I'd always denied, but always been curious. Now I'd done the forbidden and I loved it. I'd touched your cock and balls and then sucked on your cock. I was on my knees in front of a handsome, well built and well hung, Black man. I was sucking Black cock on my knees and I loved it. Everything was forbidden and everything was wonderful.

After a bit, you wanted more. You said let's go to the bedroom. We were both naked by the time we got to the bed. We lay down and had a wonderful 69. You sucked my cock and I sucked yours. We were both good and hard, we both loved sucking and being sucked. Wonderful energy when men suck each other's cocks. Your cock was wonderful in my mouth and your mouth was wonderful on my cock.

Again Lincoln, you took the lead and asked me to fuck your ass.

I couldn't believe it a handsome Black man asking a White man to fuck him in the ass. I kissed you and played with your cock while you stuck a gob of Vaseline in your ass and some on my cock. You bent over on the bed for me to fuck you doggy style. I looked at your shining asshole and fingered it some. You were ready to be fucked. I mounted up behind you, lubed my cock and pushed the tip of my cock against your asshole, you relaxed and it opened for my cock to slide in.

We were bareback, this was before anyone knew about AIDS. I buried my cock deep in your ass and felt it all around my cock. I could feel your ass hot and quivering around my cock and it felt wonderful.

You were hard as a rock, moaning. You liked the way I fucked your ass. You were jacking off too. I grabbed some of the Vaseline so I could play with your cock while I fucked your ass. I wanted to feel your wonderful cock in my hands. My white cock deep in your black ass and my hands stroking your big black cock.

I loved fucking your ass with my hard cock. I loved feeling your hard cock slide through my fag hands. I'd crossed over. I was now a real fag and loving it.

When I came, it was a great cum. It was one of those cums were the cum just rumbles out of your cock. I filled your ass with my cum. I could feel it exploding from the head of my cock and could feel it flow around the head of my cock as your ass filled up with my cum.

We kissed a little and took a shower together to clean up. I soaped up your cock and played with it while we kissed some more.

All clean and naked, we went to the living room and sat on the couch talking. You were nice and talked a little about your mother and doing no harm. I told you about how you were really my first.

And I looked at your beautiful cock, all soft now and I leaned over to suck it some more. I looked at your beautiful cock and I wanted to suck on it and make it hard in my mouth. I loved sucking on your cock. I loved feeling your cock get hard in my mouth as soon as I started sucking you.

Back to the bedroom and this time I wanted you to fuck me in the ass. We tried and tried, but I just couldn't take your cock in my ass. You were too big for my virgin ass.

We must have pushed half a jar of Vaseline up my ass and you worked me over with your fingers up my ass to try and stretch me, but it didn't work. I wanted my ass fucked and filled with cum but I couldn't. It just hurt too much, I took it to the point of near tearing and we stopped.

I was good and hard and so were you. We 69'd a little more and then I fucked your ass as deep as I could and came in your ass again. You loved the way I fucked your ass and I loved you loving it. Oh yes, I loved fucking your ass almost as much as I loved sucking your cock.

So the night went until I left, You gave me some books to read and your phone number. I thought about calling, but didn't. Despite a few drunken adventures with drag queens and transvestites, when a warm wet hole was a warm wet hole, I'd never admitted I was sometimes attracted to men. I figured the Laydies were essentially female and I was still playing a hetero roll, even if it was actually a man I was sodomizing.

Pretty much all my life I'd known I was sometimes sexually attracted to men, but didn't want to think about it. There were too many parts of my world it didn't fit. It was easy to ignore. I was powerfully attracted to women and it was easy to think I was hetero and nothing else.

Some of the gay guys I knew had scared me with crude passes. I wasn't ready to deal with them or their crudeness. They were crude and lewd and didn't seem any kind of fun at all. If any of them had been any kind of nice, it might have been very different.

It was different with you.

Now I'd just spent a night with a gay man who was nearly my double save for skin color. I'd spent the night absolutely enchanted by playing with his cock and sucking on it. I loved it when I sucked on him and I loved it when he sucked on mine. When we 69'd it was exquisite. I still wished I'd been able to take him up my ass and have him fill me with his cum. I wanted to know what it feels like to have your ass well fucked and filled with cum.

I'd known homosexuals for a while, there were even several where I worked and a neighbor of mine was a transvestite (cute too). I could see they got along ok. That helped. But all my family and friends knew me only as a heterosexual who fucked a lot of pussy. That's primarily what I was.

I just wasn't ready to deal with coming out as bisexual to my family and friends. I figured my dad would freak and mom would shred any pieces dad hadn't completely shredded. I wasn't sure if any of my cousins would speak to me again and I knew one, probably two, uncles never would for sure. I didn't even want to think what my friends would do.

So, I never called.

My ass is still virgin and I still close my eyes and remember the wonderful feel of your cock in my mouth.

I dream of how it should have been. Calling you and getting together, maybe with one of your friends. He could have fucked my ass and made it loose to fit your nice big cock.

I can see me in a room full of handsome men like you. I'd be naked and suck all their cocks starting with the smallest one. When he was good and hard, he could start fucking my ass with his cock. I'd be sucking on the next bigger guy. A cock fucking my ass, a hard cock in my mouth and everyone watching me, playing with themselves and sucking each other. A cock in my ass, a cock in my mouth, that would be the way to do it. A proper orgy of gay men enjoying each other.

After the first cock came in my ass, the next could fuck my ass while I sucked the next biggest cock of the night. When my ass had been opened up enough, you could fuck my ass and fill me with your cum. Above all, I wanted you to fuck my ass as I'd fucked yours.

Lincoln, wherever you are, I hope you survived the AIDS epidemic. I hope you life has been good. If you ever read this, know that I have never forgotten you, that you will always have a warm place in my heart.