Life had never been an easy road, if it was even a road at all. Maybe it was a dirt path so overgrown with leaves that you could hardly see it. At least, that's how Masen saw it. He was a gorgeous, muscular man with dyed-black hair and bright blue eyes standing at 5'10" tall. Many women lusted after him, wanting to jump in his pants whenever they looked into his eyes and listened to his soft, gentle voice. However, there was a problem with that. He was gay.
Though he loved women, he just couldn't deny the throb in his heart and crotch when he saw a hot guy. His favorite time of the day was afternoon just because that's when he could easily find a hot guy with his shirt off doing yard work or construction. There was just something about hard working men that made him shiver from head to toe.
One guy crossed his mind in particular when he thought of his dilemma. Scott Crusac, his neighbor across the street. He had medium brown hair with a shade of deep red and green eyes. Being taller and more muscular, he made Masen feel so small and submissive around him. Not to mention he made him feel so shy as well. He would find himself watching Scott through the gap in his blinds and jerking himself while Scott mowed his yard. Yes, he knew it was wrong and creepy, but he couldn't help himself. He just couldn't bring himself to talk to him, even though he so desperately wanted to.
Masen sighed and scratched his head lightly while he poured himself a cup of coffee. It was nearly 5 in the morning, but he couldn't sleep. Was it thoughts of Scott, and his ache for him? Or was it just stress over the seemingly endless list of messages on Facebook of woman trying to hook up with him? He wished he could just deny them all, tell everyone he was gay, and it would be all over with. However, his family was full of hardcore Christians, so coming out would make them all block him. They always made it so clear how they feel about homosexuality at family reunions. All he could think was 'they are assholes so does it even really matter?', but some of those people included close members like his parents. He loved his parents, so what could he do?
A few seconds after the thought crossed his mind, the door bell rang out through his house. He was confused. Who would be ringing the door bell so early in the morning? He grabbed a kitchen knife from the counter just in case, and hid it behind him. Then he slowly cracked the door. What he saw was a shock. It was Scott standing there at HIS door! His heart thumped hard inside his rib cage.
"Hi, sorry if I woke you, but I seem to have locked myself out of my house. You think you could help me out?" Scott asked him. His voice was deep and sincere leaking from between his thin lips that were hidden behind a full beard.
Masen gulped, "I'm not sure how I could help you, but I can certainly try. I just need to get dressed. You want to come in? It shouldn't take me long."
Scott smiled lightly at him and nodded, following him inside. Masen closed the door behind him. He was in nothing but a dark blue silk robe that was a bit short on him. It made him feel extra vulnerable. His cheeks had become rosey, watching Scott walk over to his couch and sit down.
"Your place is nice. It's so homey," Scott told him, looking around the living room at all the artwork, family pictures, and simple set up that Masen had going on.
"Well, it definitely feels better now that you're here. Would you like some coffee?" Masen said, nervous and shakey. Why was he flirting with him so openly? What if he gets offended? Those kinds of thoughts kept running through his head. Stupid. Stupid. He thought to himself as he poured a second cup of coffee.
"Oh, no, thank you." Scott finally replied to him, causing him to abruptly stop what he was doing.
He turned around, looking up to see that Scott had gotten off the couch and walked up to him. They were close now, and it made him feel so chaotic inside. There was a seriousness in Scott's eyes that nearly frightened him.