At the time when I first started to get curious about other guys, I tried to deny it and pretend those feelings weren't there. There's no way I could like other guys, at least that's what I thought to myself. At most I'd click on gay porn, "by mistake", but never even considered acting on my new feelings. Finally, I decided to at least get a small butt plug, curious about how it'd feel to have something in my ass. And as much as I liked the feeling, it still took me until shortly after my 18th birthday to actively try and have my first experience finally.
I had no idea where I could find a guy to top me but after wasting time on various websites and apps I eventually ended up on Grnder. I spent a lot of time talking to guys, all eager to fuck my virgin ass, but for one reason or another, I always found an excuse to not go through with it. Some guys were either weird or lived too far away, and my nerves were holding me back as well. Eventually, I started talking to a guy really nearby, he actually lived in the same neighborhood coincidentally. He was an older guy, 34 years old while I was 19. The age difference really turned me on and was also how I imagined my first time.
He kept trying to find a way to get me to his house, of course, my nerves were still getting in my own way. He was a very persistent guy though and eventually convinced me to come over and just give him head. I thought maybe after giving him head I'd be less nervous about going back for more. As nervous as I was I was also excited, we agreed to meet up that very night so I jumped up to get ready. I got dressed and thought I'd clean out my ass just in case. The guy sent me his address and I decided to walk over since it was so close by. The entire time he was messaging me, telling me how much I'd love it and I told him what I'd do as I was nervously shaking the whole time.
When I got to his house he was already waiting for me at the front door and without saying anything he let me in and led me upstairs to his room. When we got to his room he immediately started running his hands all over me and kissing me. I wasn't really comfortable with it but I just stood there frozen almost and let him continue. Then he dropped the sweatpants he was wearing and his boxers, exposing his really thick, cut 8-inch cock before he laid down on his bed. Obviously, I was worried how his cock would fit into my mouth but at the same time, I was salivating and excited that I could play with it. Trying not to think too much about it I got on the bed between his legs and firmly held his thick cock in my hands for a second before softly kissing it on the head. All my nerves seemingly disappeared and I fell completely in love. After kissing it all over, I sucked on his balls and dragged my tongue up and down his shaft. He was rock hard, and veiny, which I loved along with how his balls felt in my mouth. Wrapping my lips around the head, I swallowed most of his cock until I was choking on it. After, he held the back of my head and thrust into the back of my throat. I felt euphoric and wanted to worship his cock, I wanted to please him. I looked up at him and told him I needed him to fuck me.
