I always had an ambition to play soccer professionally but that had been dashed just prior to leaving school.
After leaving school I continued my studies not really knowing what I wanted to do. I did pretty good with my academic education, my grades just after my 19th birthday left me pleasantly surprised and proud.
I did have an issue however that had been worrying me for years. I was worried about the size of my cock. I had been taking a shower at school when a guy came in and made comments about my size. It didn't really help that he was huge in the cock department. I laughed the comments off but they took root deep in my memory. I recall several weeks later I measured myself when hard and only reached 5 inches. I had read the average was 6 inches and this really deterred me from going any further with girls, even though my interest in them had developed.
I had seen glimpses of my older sister in her underwear on several occasions and I has also seen her both topless and naked a few times. I had got very hard and masturbated and once I had even gone to her panty drawer and tried on several pairs of her panties. I was desperate to experiment with girls but my confidence to do so was not there.
About one month after I received my exam results at 19 years old I went to stay with my aunt who's lived close to a university I was hoping to attend. I stayed a week and decided I liked the place, but was going to take a gap year and come to terms with my insecurities.
I was travelling home via the train and didn't really plan the journey too well. My connecting service was due to reach my home town fairly late. This meant I had only 15 minutes to catch my connecting bus. The train was inevitably delay!
I knew of the delay while waiting at the train station. The board stated a 30 minute delay. I resigned myself to walking home. I had done this before but this time I had my bag to carry.
While waiting a guy sat next to me. At some point in the opening conversation he told me he was 36. He was clean looking and smartly dressed so he raised no red flags. He asked if I was waiting for the delayed train and conversation started from there. It was all very casual.
Once the train arrived and during the journey he sat opposite me and we continued to chat. He had previously studied subjects I was interested in so the conversation was easy.
As we got closer to our destination he asked if I had a girlfriend. I lied and said we had split as she was going to a different university. He asked if I was living in town or getting a ride. I said neither as I had missed my bus and my parents car was off the road. I told him I would be walking. He changed the subject to something else and we continued talking.
As we approached our stop he then said he couldn't give me a ride home tonight. I hadn't asked or assumed but thought it was nice, albeit a little unusual of him to say this. He did however say I was welcome to share his taxi and he could make me comfortable at his place. He offered to give me a ride home in the morning. The weather was poor and he did say he didn't like driving in the dark in poor weather. I still maintained that at that I would be fine and thanked him for the offer.
As the train pulled in to our station we stood and waited by the train door. My bag was heavier than I remembered and all of a sudden I was thinking of carrying it 4 miles through the rain, on unlit pavements. He then asked again if I was sure I didn't want to stay with him? This time my answer was different.
He had a taxi waiting. As we walked towards it all of a sudden I hoped to see nobody I might know. I couldn't explain this feeling but it was there. I was also relived he lived in completely the opposite direction to my home.
We didn't say much in the taxi but all of a sudden I was aware that this could be a sexual opportunity and that Nobody would ever know. I had always thought and fantasized over women but suddenly in the taxi I thought about sex with a man. He had given no obvious reasons for me to think this, but I did none the less. The fact that the next day I would never have to see him or meet him seemed a great opportunity. Then I recalled he was nearly twice my age and most likely only being kind in offering me refuge. I guess my mind was too active to make any conversation.
On arriving at his house I was pleased it was in an area I didn't even know existed. The place was clean but fairly small. It was obviously one bedroom but there was a big sofa in the living room.
He offered drinks and I took a Coke. He offered something stronger and joked he wasn't going to take advantage of me if I had a beer or 3. He then asked again about my previous girlfriend. How long had we had been together and lots of other questions. i was obviously a little uncomfortable with these so tried to change direction of the conversation. He had told me earlier he had split with his partner over 2 years ago and was happy now being single. He did say that he missed the regular sex but that now on the rare occasions he does have sex it is much more exciting. The conversation flipped back and forth for another hour or so.
During the conversation I did think constantly about having some sort of sex play with him. As the conversation drew to a close I wasn't ready for what he said next. He told me he could either give me a duvet for the sofa or I was more than welcome to share his bed. Before I could say anything he said he sleeps naked but there was no pressure for me to do the same or indeed do anything I wasn't comfortable with. He held up his arms saying up to you and walked towards the bedroom door. He looked back and smiled saying it would be much more comfortable in bed.
Without thinking I stood up and followed him. I walked in to the room a few seconds after him and he told me I could put my clothes on the chair that was in the corner of the room.
I started to undress very slowly. I was watching him take off his clothes. I was terrified of him getting naked and seeing a huge cock, but also quite turned on about seeing this. As he pulled down his briefs I noted he had a smooth almost hairless legs and a smooth ass. He then turned and walked to the bed and I was surprised to see a smallish cock of probably 3 inches.
He clearly saw me looking but I then pretended to be struggling with my belt after quickly looking away. I continued to strip. I then had a mental dilemma of do I take off my boxer shorts? I think I must have been in slow motion because he said that I could sleep nude or wear my boxers.
All of a sudden I was bent at the waist taking down my boxers. The walk to the bed seemed like miles and when I got there I realized I was semi erect. The thought occurred to me then that I didn't even know the guys name.
I got in to bed next to him. It wasn't a big bed and we were close to each other. I realized the main light was on and I was going to ask if I should turn it off. I was very nervous of having to walk back to the light switch especially as I realized that I was now almost hard. He then turned on his bedside light and said he would get the light. He got out of bed slowly and walked to the light switch next to the door. I noticed now that his cock was now also semi erect. It certainly wasn't like that a minute or 2 earlier as he got in to the bed.