Editor's note: this submission contains scenes of incest or incest content.
It's been a while since I had a nice moment with my dad. Actually, the last two times we were in the same room for longer than 2 minutes, he fucked me like a bull. After that, it got complicated. When I storm into the kitchen to get some coffee before I leave for my classes, he finds an excuse to go upstairs as quickly as possible. When he comes back home from work and I'm at home, I drive off to see a friend.
Of course it would be awkward. My dad and I filmed us fucking to get money from his ex boss for a vintage Porsche. After that we got popular and had a very Kubrickesque night having sex in front of a crowd. Oh, and I should add I indeed let the spectators cum on my face after my father came inside my ass.
So yes, things are tense in this household.
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"Your mother is leaving tomorrow to visit aunt Betsy."
My dad is standing in the door frame of my room. The light behind him makes his grey hair light up and obscures his face. His big frame is intimidating and I don't know what to say.
"I think we should have dinner together. I will make something."
Before I can say something he leaves again. What the fuck does he want from me? We barely talk even though I couldn't sit normally for weeks after his plowing and now he wants to have a nice dinner?
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After class I dread going home. I take my time to say bye to my fellow students and take the busy route home, hoping to end up in a traffic jam. No such luck and this Porsche is so damn fast.
When I enter the kitchen, my dad just puts the plates on the table. It's my favorite: pasta carbonara. A recipe my grandmother used to make and that dad experimented with for years to make vegetarian when I stopped eating meat. You really don't miss the crispy pork now anymore.
"Hey Ben, glad you are here."
I sit down and he immediately starts talking.
"I know things have been weird between us. We did things that aren't supposed to happen between a father and a son and there isn't really anything that prepares you for the aftermath. I do want you to know that I do really love you and I am very proud of you. From what I can tell you're doing great at university and I don't understand TikTok, but your videos clearly are very popular."
Embarrassed, I stuff my mouth with pasta. Gooey and creamy. Lovely.
"I really am, Ben. And that's why I decided that you should keep the money John gave you. All of it."
I swallow. I hoped we could endlessly postpone talking about the money. For our one time only show, my dad's ex-boss (and our biggest fan) transferred 100.000 dollars to my account to keep it a secret from my mother. I have been too afraid to touch it. I start protesting.
"No, Ben. Really. It's yours. You know, It's not comfortable to say this, but I don't care about the money anymore. Something happened that last time we.. eh.. you know. It's been years that I was able to do it like that. Your mother doesn't like it like that, and..."
"Oh my god, dad. Don't tell me that."
"Ben, you swallowed my load and I saw it spill out of your ass. This really is too icky for you?"
My dad. English teacher during the day, poet by night.
"Yes, it is."
"Alright. So what I'm trying to say is that this energy we have is amazing. I love how you let me fuck you and I'm pretty sure you like it too."
I think of the men I've slept with since the show. He's right. No one was able to give it to me like he did. Rough but lovingly. Some guys tried, but they either don't have the stamina or where very performatively dominant. Not the way my dad does it. He truly and fully possesses me. In between these hookups, I am starting to fall for one of my classmate, Matteo. We've been seeing each other a lot and the sex is great, but it's boyfriend sex.
I sigh.
"You're right. It's something else."
Dad pushes his unfinished plate away, gets up to stand next to me and takes my hand.
"Can we do it just for fun one time?"
I drop my fork on my plate, get up and follow him. Upstairs he rushes past my moms and his bedroom and walks into mine. He pulls me forward and launches me on the bed. Before I can even think about getting up he is on top of me with all his weight. I look up my ceiling at the glow in the dark stars that I never took down.
I feel the heat of his body through his clothes. His stubbly chin scratches my cheeks, lips and neck as he places wet kisses wherever he finds a spot. This is the dad I remember sweating on top of me, getting what he wants and pushing me to my limits. The way he looks at me reminds me of when he was angry with me for one of my shenanigans. Only now he is definitely coming with me when he sends me to my room. He pushes his lips on mine and shoves his tongue deep inside my mouth.
He rides against my hips, forcing my legs to part. His hands grab flesh and pull me hard into his body. I need to calm him down.
I put my arms around his neck to embrace him tightly while I breathe out. He opens his eyes and looks right into mine. He laughs and breaks our kiss.