After nearly 20 years of marriage, I left my wife and began my new life. Unfortunately, I didn't know what would be in that new life.
I felt like a failure and I felt alone.
My wife and I had never been great sexually, but in the final five years of our marriage it was dead. I slept downstairs and I think we were both relieved.
She had lost interest in sex. I was beginning to think I had lost interest in women.
I'm a nice looking preppy executive guy. Think Hugh Grant in a suit. As far back as high school women have hit on me. Most I have turned down. I thought it was because I was picky. But finally, in my early 40s, I was beginning to admit that I thought more about men and cock than about women.
An old high school friend knew I was divorcing and sensed I was in the dumps so he invited me to come stay with him in Bermuda. He worked in the US embassy there and told me he had a great house with a pool and I'd have run of the place.
His wife and little son would be out of the country all summer so he and I could hang out. He even joked about going to strip clubs, though I was not so interested in that. If it came to it, I'd go to make him happy (and maybe to convince myself that I still was attracted to women) but if I could avoid the cheesy strip clubs, I would.
I was down there for sun, relaxation and some drinking. I needed to heal and figure out who the hell I was after 43 years on Planet Earth.
When I arrived in Hamilton, my friend was there to pick me up.
"Hey buddy, I'm so glad to see you, we're going to have a great time," he said. "Reunion time for the wild high school guys!"
"Thanks for inviting me down, Dan, this means a lot," I said.
"No problemo, Keith." Dan grabbed one of my bags and we went to his car.
Driving back to his place he said, "Hey, I forgot to mention that Luis is staying with me now."
"Your first son?" I said, vaguely recallling meeting the kid about ten years ago. Dan had had a nasty divorce with a local after they had a biracial kid. She was a mess and was using him to get U.S. citizenship. She was so pretty that he should have been suspicous since he was not that handsome, but...
"Yes, he's 19 now and kind of a fuck up but I'm hoping I can inspire him and get him to go to college in the US," Dan said.