(Takes up from end of Part Three.)
The next few days were weird ones for me.
I thought of Mike constantly, reliving the moments we'd spent together in the woods and in the back of his van. Images of his naked body, of his big cock, paraded endlessly through my mind. At times I thought I could smell and taste him, feel my hands and mouth on his cock, feel his cum flowing down my throat.
I wanted Mike with a desperation I haven't felt for another person in years.
There were times, too, though, when I tried to step back and think objectively about what was going on. I've always been an analytical person, even about my own thoughts and feelings, and I am accustomed to thinking I know myself pretty well.
Now, though, I was a mystery to myself. This sudden upwelling of lust for another man didn't fit my self-image as a more or less normal straight guy. That image had changed radically; some inner dam had broken, and I'd been swept away on a flood of unfamiliar feelings.
I can't say I was really troubled by this, however. The opposite, in fact: I felt as if a door had opened to something new and exciting and definitely worth exploring.
Looking back on it now, I'm surprised I managed the rest of my life as well as I did. I went to work, did my job, exercised, shopped for groceries, got the oil changed. I even went on a Tinder date, which went pretty well, considering how many times I thought of Mike's cock while I was with her.
Finally, on the following Monday morning, I got a text from Mike: "Wednesday night?"
I texted right back. "Yes, 8 at my place," and sent him the address.
When I got home that night, I got to thinking about what we might do when we saw each other again.
I pictured myself greeting him at the door, pulling him inside, kissing him passionately, falling to my knees, fishing his cock out of his pants and sucking him right there in the foyer. The fantasy was so exciting I stripped my clothes off, flopped on my bed and jacked myself to a furious orgasm.
The next day, though, I got another text from Mike:
"Bad news: have to cancel tomorrow. Good news: I'm free all weekend."
I was disappointed, of course, at the delay in seeing him, but spending the weekend together seemed like a fair trade.
I texted back: "I'll be at my place by 7 Friday. Come on over anytime."
As you can imagine, this sent my fantasy life into overdrive.
The next evening I had beers with a bunch of people from work. I happened to sit next to a guy named Jay, who I didn't know well but who had some role in a project I was working on. We got deep into conversation about it, and before long I realized that everyone else had left.
"I'm starving," he said. "Want to order something? Burgers are great here."
I wasn't starving, but I was feeling a little drunk, and I thought it would be a good idea to get some food in me.
While we were waiting for the burgers Jay mentioned a boyfriend, which confirmed my impression that he was gay.
He glanced at my left hand, where a pale strip of skin showed where I'd once worn my wedding ring.
"Divorced?"
I nodded.
"How long?"
"Four months."
"New girlfriend yet?"
"No."
"Boyfriend maybe?"
That caught me off guard. I hesitated just long enough for him to notice.
"Well, well," he said teasingly. "Playing for our team now?"
"No," I said, blushing. "I mean... I'm not ...not really...I'm just..."
I looked down into my beer.
"Dude, relax," he said. "Nothing to be embarrassed about. You're not the first straight guy to take a walk on the wild side."
Just then our burgers arrived. I was grateful for the distraction. We each took a bite, then Jay said, "Seriously, Jim, no judgment here."
Then, maybe seeing my confusion reflected in my face, he added in a kindly tone, "And if you feel a need to talk about it, let me know. It'll be just between us, I promise."
"Okay," I managed to say. "Thanks, Jay. I don't need that now, but I appreciate the offer."
"One bit of advice," he said, smiling again. "You can never use too much lube."
It took me a second to register what he was talking about, but when it did I was able to smile back at him.
"Good to know," I said.
I left work early Friday to head for the mountains, making a couple of stops on the way to lay in supplies of groceries and booze.
And - you guessed it - a bottle of lube. Whether and how this might be used, I wasn't sure, but what the hell?
I got to the cabin around 6.
The weather was sunny but unusually cool for summer, so I chopped enough wood to have a fire later on. Then I took a shower, put on some sweats and poured myself two fingers of scotch.
I was tingling with excitement.
A little after 7 I heard a car turning into the driveway. I stepped outside as Mike pulled up - not in his van, but in a sleek-looking Mercedes.
He got out and came straight up to where I stood on the steps and folded me in his arms. Then we kissed for a long time.
"I feel like I have a boyfriend," I said.
"You do, stud."
He went back to the car and got his bag out of the trunk. I waited for him just inside the door.
When he came in there followed a scene straight out of a rom-com: Mike and I trying to kiss, hug and undress ourselves all at once while edging toward the bedroom. I knocked over a lamp and he barked his shins on the end table before we made it to the bed.
Once there we wrestled for a minute to see who got to suck the other guy's cock first. I won.
"Ok, you bastard," Mike said. "Suck my cock first. See if I care."
Before he could finish speaking I lowered my head and swallowed his dick whole, so deeply that the swollen head hit the back of my throat. I felt a slight urge to gag but fought it, breathing through my nose and trying to relax as much as possible.
I backed off, took a deep breath, and went back to work, sliding my lips up and down his shaft, over and over. From time to time I stopped to swirl my tongue around the head or drag it down the underside of his shaft. Meanwhile I savored the sharp taste of his precum.
All this time Mike was moaning and gasping. He lifted his hips off the bed, instinctively trying to jam his cock deeper into my mouth. I had to put my hands on his thighs to hold him down.
Then he wound his fingers into my hair and pulled me downward, forcing his cock into me. It wasn't easy for me to take him in that deeply -- my eyes were watering something fierce -- but I did my best to relax my throat..
Finally I felt his cock swelling. Seconds later he came. His body gave a sudden jerk and cum flooded my mouth. I swallowed once - he groaned when I did -- but I couldn't keep up. I just let it flow down my throat and spill from my lips. It felt like there was a gallon of it.
When his body finally stopped jerking and twitching I let him go.
"My God, Jim, that was absolutely fucking incredible," he said, panting. "I'm sorry I was so rough. I kind of got carried away."
"Not to worry," I said. "It was kind of hot making you lose control."
"My turn to make you do the same," he said.
Two seconds later I was on my back with my cock in his mouth.
Whereas I had tried to work fast, Mike went more slowly. He began by licking me all over, from the slit down the shaft to the root of my cock and then to my balls. He slathered my scrotum in spit, sucked the testicles into his mouth one by one, then licked his way back up my shaft to the tip. Only then did he take me in. I was so keyed up that I came almost immediately.
We lay there for a long time afterward, saying little, enjoying a friendly, almost intimate, silence. Through the window I could see that the sun was going down.
"How about a drink?" I finally said.
"Sounds good."
I got up and, without dressing, went into the big room and poured two generous glasses of scotch. On the way back to the bedroom I fished two gummies out of my stash.
"Here," I said, handing him his drink and one of the gummies.
He took a big sip from the drink but looked at the gummy uncertainly.
"I've never had one of these, actually," he said.
"These are low-strength," I said. "Once they kick in, maybe an hour, we'll have a nice, low-key buzz that'll stay with us for hours. Trust me, it's great for sex."
He shrugged and popped it into his mouth.
I ate mine and took a drink.
"Hungry?"
"Getting there," he said.
"Let's get started on dinner, then. We could grill burgers, or we could boil some pasta."
"Meat!" he said.
"Burgers it is."
I got dressed and went to light the charcoal.
****
The dope kicked for me just as I was taking the burgers off the grill. As we sat down to eat I watched Mike to see how long it took him to realize he was high.
He chewed his burger slowly, savoring every bite. Between bites he gazed at it, as if he were trying to place this particular burger on the scale of great burgers he'd eaten in the course of his burger-eating life.
After two or three minutes of this he blinked hard several times, turned to me and said, "Dude, I'm high."
I burst out laughing.
"What?" he said.
"Kinda sneaks up on you, doesn't it?"
"For sure," he said.
When the burgers were gone we sat talking for a long time -- families, jobs, women.
"Can I ask you something?" Mike asked.
"Sure."
"What happened with your ex-wife?"
"Long story, but the short version is that we never should have married in the first place. The sex was great, and we thought that made us compatible, but after we got married it turned out we didn't mesh that well outside the bedroom. I think if we'd lived together beforehand we would have found that out, but we were in a hurry and didn't take the time to really get to know each other."
He nodded.
"What about you?" I asked.
"The sex for us was good, too," he said. "Still is, sometimes. But we fight a lot. Lately, too, she's been drinking -- a lot. I've stopped drinking around her, and tried to get her to go to AA or something, but she's in total denial. "
'I'm sorry, Mike," I said. "That's a lot to deal with."
"Yeah."
"And I'm sure all this -- you and me, I mean -- isn't making it easier."
"Jim, please put that thought out of your head. I want this."