I had decided to use a sick day, but I was not sick at all. I needed some time off - to make myself happy. I had spent the day stroking my cock while talking to guys on chat. I was chatting with a guy named Jay who lived not too far from me. He was working until 2:00 and wanted to meet as soon as he was off work. I had never met a guy from the internet. Girls, yes... Guys, never! Although I was really interested in doing it for some time, I had chickened out at the last minute often.
My wife would be home from work by 4:00; I had plenty of time if I could work up the courage. I was still unsure.
As it became closer to 2:00, I grew nervous. I decided that no matter what, I was going to get in my car and drive to his house. He didn't live in a wealthy neighborhood; he lived on a city street full of row homes. I could easily drive right past his house without anyone noticing.
He had done this a bunch of time - at least that was the story he told me. He lived with his girlfriend but she was out of town so it was low risk in terms of that.
As I drove to his house I had mixed emotions. I had sucked before. First a friend, and then at an ABS a few times. I wasn't nervous about that as much as I was about meeting in the privacy - the insecurity - of this unknown man's home.
When I turned on his street, I promised myself that I would at least park my car. I was thinking in terms of small steps. There were kids outside at a playground across the street. There were people walking around; they were passing my car as if it were any other. Occasionally a car passed me. I must have sat there for five minutes with butterflies scurrying about in my stomach.
I got out of the car and began to walk toward his house - it wasn't to late to turn around. When I reached my destination there were three steps leading to a big maroon door. I knocked and it opened. I couldn't believe I had gone this far - now, it was too late.