Dear Figaro,
How have you been? I have literally been rushed off my feet, I have had the craziest two weeks. My life has been just working, sleeping, planning and doing my writing course. Theo asked if his pen pal could move in for a few days, I said yes, he hasn't mentioned anything but I can sense that his nose is out of joint now that I am not at home as much to hang out or fool around. It will be good for him to have a play thing, I will let you know how that goes.
I went on a night out with Lockie after I filmed the last scene. It was really nice to be excited about something after weeks of stress. I had the music blaring and was dancing around my room as I was getting ready. We decided to meet at a club for a few drinks and a dance. I wore skinny jeans with converse and a jacket. I smelt really good too. I still hadn't been paid from the studio as they do it monthly, so I was living on fumes but decided to go all out. My mind was telling me this wasn't a date but I got giddy at the thought that it might be.
I arrived late, as usual, he was sitting at the bar, tan coloured jeans with a pale blue shirt, his hair short and slicked to one side. I stopped and observed him, it felt longer than ten days since we shot our scene together, the image of him shooting his load replayed in my mind, I could still taste him Figaro. He waved at me and I could feel my cheeks getting red as I placed my jacket on the stool.
"Hey, Star," he said, as he cupped my hand in a bro version of a handshake, like he wanted to arm wrestle. "Seen your new video, thanks for not letting me down, you dirty fucker!"
"You are more than welcome," I replied with a smirk, doing my best to signal the bar tender for a drink. "Glad you approve."
We spent about an hour there drinking and catching up, the booze loosening our tongues, I could sense a bit of a bite in his words when he brought up the subject of comments and views.
"Curtis told me that your second video is more popular than our one" Lockie said, staring at me with an eyebrow raised.
"Yes he mentioned it to me as well. Guess its beginners luck." I tried to steer the conversation on to something else.
"My original video was the record holder so I guess if anyone was going to take my crown I am glad it's you.Iif Curtis asks you to cam, say no, that's my thing Mason, I don't want you doing it, you can have all your huge views and comments, just let me have this."
"I won't Lockie, I am just grateful that you got me the gig in the first place, I won't go into camming... do you really like it that much?"
He shrugged his shoulders, "It's fun I guess, don't have to leave my room either, and it turns me on knowing that guys are out there sending me coins and gifts and stuff."
A shadow seemed to stretch across his face.
"Are you okay?" I asked, moving in closer to him.
"I not sure, I have been kinda confused for a while, don't know what I want anymore."
I had not seen him like this before Figaro, I was not sure if it was the drink but he wasn't his usually confident cocky self, he looked lost.
He stood up shakily, grabbing my hand.
"Enough shop talk, let's dance."
We threw ourselves onto the dance floor, and began jumping along with the rest of the people in the club, girls kept approaching Lockie, but he just ignored them. Once or twice, a girl would look us up and down and assume we were a couple, the thought made me glow inside. I signaled to him that I was going to get us another drink, he just smiled and moved further into the dance floor, he must have been drinking lots before he came to the bar because he was pretty fucking drunk at this stage.
I waited at the busy bar, feeling happy that Lockie and I were letting our hair down like old times. I was snapped back to reality as I was shouldered roughly.
"Woah!" I said as I grabbed the bar for support, "Easy."
The guy who shouldered me held his hands up in an 'I surrender" gesture.
"Sorry about that, fucking slipped, you okay?"
"Yes I am fine, no harm done. Have a good night." I tried to get the bartenders attention, it was nearing the end of the night, so it was crammed with everyone trying to get one last round. The guy who shouldered me, turned around and handed me a beer.
"For earlier." he said turning back and handing in his credit card. "Tommy." he said extending his hand.
"Mason, and thanks for the drink, you didn't have to."
As he fumbled with his wallet, I quickly glanced at the beer, its seemed to be okay, but you know me Figaro always cautious. I looked at Tommy properly, he was nerdy looking, with floppy black hair that came down over his ears. Not very tall. He was hot in a video gamer kind of way. I glanced back to the dance floor trying to catch a glimpse of Lockie, found him, hands on the hips of a girl and they were making out. My heart dropped down to my stomach, I guess I had built this night up to be more than it was in my head. Stupidly, I could feel my eyes begin to sting.
"I am guessing you didn't come here on your own," he said, leaning in closer to me.
Taking a big gulp of my beer, I shook off the thoughts of Lockie, "No, with a friend, he seems to have made new friends." I added with a forced laugh.
We stayed talking until the lights came on, he told me about his job as a building supply manager, he was new to the area and just checking out the bar scene. I nodded along trying to appear interested but my mind was occupied. I told him I was semi new to the area and that I was an aspiring writer. I decided to not mention the videos, I really didn't want to talk about that right then.
Out of the corner of my eye I could see Lockie walking towards the door, arm draped over the girls shoulder. They were both swaying as he helped her put on her coat. He glanced at me and gave a little smile and then left. My night was over at that point and all I wanted to do was go home and get into bed. I had a scene in two days and I wanted to prepare for it.
"Sorry Tommy," I said as I stood up. "I am tired and have stuff to do in the morning, it was really nice to meet you."
His face fell, not sure if he was enjoying my company or thinking he was going to get some.
"Can I get your number?" he asked, taking out his phone. The way he said it made me feel sorry for him, like I had just kicked a puppy.
"Sure." I said and rattled off my digits.
On the way back to the apartment I tried to block out the thoughts of Lockie with that girl. He was obviously confused. I sent him a text, asking was he ok and I would call him tomorrow. I got off the bus, lit a cigarette and began the short walk to the entrance, I was lost in my own world. So lost in fact I didn't see Myles outside on his phone. I had successfully avoided him for three days. I really couldn't deal with him now, so I threw down my smoke and tried to walk past him. He hung up as I approached.
"Long time no see," he said with a grin.
"Yes I have been busy." I said, stopping, my arms folded. He was wearing black sweat pants and black singlet. He was bare foot and relaxed, leaning against the flower bed beside the front door, fuck! even in the dark he was amazing looking.
"I have seen you've been busy," he added with a knowing smirk.
After the night I just had Figaro, I was not in the mood for him, the fact that he knew, you, Channing and I, unnerved me.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked with a confrontational tone.
"Nothing, I just see you leaving early and coming home most nights at this time, no need to bite my head off."
I instantly felt bad for snapping, "Myles, I am sorry I just have had a shitty night and didn't mean to snap."