I can't even remember when I last saw my brother's cock.
Years.
Mum and Dad often go out for a Sunday drive, and neither of us ever wanted to go with them. On this day, as soon as they left, I'd heard Hayden on the phone to his girlfriend, Rhiannon. I wanted to hate her, but I couldn't. Not because of her looks, cos she's really pretty -- short, but so pale and girlie, and with beautiful black hair. She's polite but doesn't say much, and I don't think that's got anything to do with me. I doubt my brother would have told her that he used to fuck me a lot. Actually, the fact he hasn't had a Fleshjack in years is because of me. No, I think she just doesn't talk much in general and does whatever my brother tells her too.
Anyway, he called her, and she came over. Barely ten minutes had passed, and I heard her come in through the back door. She went right to his room, to which he'd moved into about a year ago, and closed it.
Our house is quiet, and there's a thin brick wall between our rooms, so I can hear everything. I heard her giggle, and him grunt something in response. I heard them kissing, lots of kissing, hungry kissing. And I could imagine he gave her as much in his kiss as he did with his fucking.
Then the springs of his bed complained as they must have sat on it. She giggled again, and then lots of, "Mmmm," sounds, followed by more bed springs complaining.
I lay on my bed, as the sounds of the springs began to really screech, then he obviously began to pound her. She moaned out loud, and he fucked her, while I lay on my bed with a hard cock at the thought of his cock.
As she moaned, and he clearly fucked her, I wanked. Couldn't help myself. The visuals were clear.
I heard her moan, then he moaned, and I shot my load at the same time. For a few seconds I felt part of them. Like we'd all jizzed together. My load squirted straight to my open mouth.
It was such a small amount compared to my brother's.
I dozed for a bit after cleaning myself up.
A little while later, a knock, then Hayden came into my room and woke me.
"Hey bro, drive me to a party?"
I snapped awake and sat up. It had been a question, though I wasn't 100% sure.
"Huh?"
"I'm going to a party. Drop me. I'm just gonna shower." He looked at his watch. "About half hour."
It hadn't been a question. I didn't get a chance to say anything, he just said, "Thanks!" and closed the door.
Now that I'm a senior, with my own car, my brother gets me to take him places whenever he wants.
Of course I'll do it, but sometimes I do feel he manipulates me. Could definitely ask me, rather than state it like it's a fact. Maybe its cos he knew I wouldn't ever say no.
We went to the party, and in the short drive there, he got several texts from other girls wondering if he was going.
"You still see that girl? What's her name, Janey?" I asked, noticing how well his bulge sat in his jeans in my quick glance over.
"Nah. Pretty into Rhiannon these days bro. She's pretty cool."
"Sure." But I didn't drop it. "Sex really good huh?" I fished. Not sure why, but instinct told me to go down that line.
He thumbed a reply to another girl.
"You know I'd never say anything to Mum and Dad about taking you to these parties? They come home and think you're in bed. When I go out for a drive and then come pick you up, they still think you're in bed sleeping, and I let them think that."
"Ye, thanks. That's cool."
"And so you know I'd never betray any secret."
"Yeah." He continued to text someone as we spoke.
"Just that it seems like you're less into her as you were the last one." I tried again.
He shrugged. "Sex is okay. It isn't everything."
"It really should be in a relationship. That's what you have with her, no?"
Another shrug. "She's just got a tiny vagina. My dick starts to get into it and she's squirming and trying to pull away. It's just not as exciting as I can see my dick's too big for her."
I pondered his words, feeling a ray of hope.
"Well, if I can give you some advice. Sex is really important."
He texted a bit more. Lots of girls messaged him.
Someone called him. "Hey." He said simply.
He kind of smirked, and grunted, then scratched his balls through his jeans.
After a while, "Nah. Thanks but I'm seeing Rhiannon now."
Something went sour because the mood abruptly changed.
"Fuck you too!" he hung up.
"Everything okay?" I asked.
"Ye. Some dumb chick thinks she's God's gift."
"You fucked her before?"
"Ye."
I wanted to get a better response from him. My brother is difficult to communicate with.
"She any good?"
"Was okay."
"Couldn't take your cock? True?" I fished.
He said nothing. I looked away before he could shrug.
"It's pretty big. I doubt many girls can take it. It is possible to have a girlfriend and a hole to fuck that means nothing. Like the Fleshjack."
He shrugged -- his modus operandi.
"You need to be able to fuck someone that can handle it."
"She'll stretch," he said confidently.
"You think so?" I asked, allowing the doubt filled statement to hang there for a little while as we drove.
After a while, because it had gone too quiet, and I was afraid the conversation would end completely, I added, "You do have a big dick, and it needs a willing hole that will fit perfectly. You know that I never struggled to take your dick. It's almost like a perfect fit."
"No Adam. I'm not fucking my brother. I'm into girls!" It sounded a bit final. Almost like I'd hit a neve.
I felt deflated, but couldn't let it drop.
"Nobody said you had to only shag your girlfriend. And if it's just a hole that you don't care about, it's no big deal."
"Fuck off! Stop talking about that!"
"Please..."
"Adam! I told you."
He was angry.
When he jumped out the car, he said he'd text me later, and I said I'd pick him up.
"Our secret!" I called out as he closed the door. He just waved as he walked off.
Back home, I read for a bit and worked on my final year of school plan and prepared for an exam that was coming up soon.
Later that night, after I heard our parents go to bed, I got a message from Hayden needing picking up.
He looked like he'd had a few drinks, but didn't appear or sound too drunk.
"Was it fun?" I asked, as he got in and we drove off.
"Yeah, was okay. Just tired now."
"Okay. You'll be home in no time. So, no Rhiannon?" I asked.
He just shrugged. "She went home early as she's got an early start."
"Okay." I didn't know what else to say.
Eventually, I couldn't help myself.
"You must be pretty horny then?"
Of course he shrugged.
"Well, I know it's been awhile. But I've never had issues fitting your dick. You remember how it fit all the way in, right?"
He looked away. "No. We're not doing that again. I'm with Rhiannon now."
We drove in silence, not too far from home.
"Well, you know I can keep secrets. I haven't -- and never will, tell anyone about taking you to parties or whenever you want to discretely use me as your personal Fleshjack."
He didn't say anything, and didn't look like he would.
"Fuck off! It's still cheating." He eventually said.
"Not really. Is wanking cheating? Wanking with a Fleshjack? Not really. I mean, you're just wanking into a tight hole that can take your cock. You'd probably be looking at a picture of Rhiannon while your fucking your personal hole. You'd actually be fucking her, and she'd be able to take it, and you'd feel better and you'll sleep really well."
"Drop it. I mean it!" he said. But he went quiet, and I could tell that it seemed to make him think, but he still said nothing.
"Anyway. It's there for you whenever you need it. Just think of it like wanking, but you don't have to do anything or clean up after."
He shot me a look, and I swallowed hard.
"Look... I'm just saying..."