The canoe slid forward, effortlessly it seemed. I could see the final bend in the river and knew I was close. My muscles ached a little and I realized that as much as I tried to push the thoughts away, I was still getting old. I had been to this same spot so many times over the years that it seemed like an old friend. The water sparkled a brilliant blue and the rising sun brought a warmth to my body. The feeling was something I have experienced many times, and it always brings a smile to my face.
I eased the canoe forward and on to the small beach. I climbed out. It took only a few short minutes to stow the canoe behind a thick clump of trees and settle into my special place near the beach. A place I had been coming to for many years. I was soon completely naked. The gentle breeze and morning sun left me feeling at peace. It is hard to describe. I am sure many people have never had an opportunity to feel this way. I was completely comfortable and relaxed. Stress was an emotion which never entered my mind in this place. I was able to stretch out and let my mind return to the events so many years ago.
My mind drifted back to the summer after my final year of high school. It was the year that I had met Keith and discovered sex for the first time. It did not make a lot of sense. Sex was supposed to be easy to understand. Sexuality is the hardest thing to understand.
My life had completely changed over the course of a day. I had gotten up and went to school thinking of summer, school, work, and girls, like most guys my age. Then, in one afternoon, I had met Keith and finished the day with his cock in my mouth and his cum in my virgin ass. I went home, obsessed with the new knowledge that I was gay. Really?? I had sucked cock more than once and was feeling deprived now that my mouth was empty. I had willingly let Keith use my me as his personal cumdump. I knew that I was going to do it again. My mind went back and forth. Gay - Not gay? Finally, I just accepted that I was going to do what felt good and not worry about whether I was gay or not.
I spent the rest of that night barely able to sleep. The following day seemed brighter and events of the previous day seemed much less important. It wasn't that I didn't want to repeat the entire day. It was going to happen, and it would feel better than anything I could have ever dreamed.
I didn't see Keith until after lunch and even then, it was brief and uneventful. I began thinking that maybe it was just a once in a lifetime experience. Keith had his fun and was now just moving on with his life. I could accept that even though it would have been immensely disappointing. I am sure I would have been able to accept it. It had only been one day.
It could have been that way and my whole life would have followed a different course. However, it was not like that. School was wrapping up and as I left the building Keith was waiting by his car. He offered me a ride and I accepted.
"Cocksucker, are you ready to prove to yourself that you are a full time faggot" Keith asked calmly.
My brain and my body seemed to jump in anticipation. Not fear or uncertainty, but complete longing and excitement. I instantly realized that yesterday was not a one-time event. I was going to completely submit to any sexual act Keith could think of. It is hard to explain how powerful the feeling was. It was completely dominating my thoughts. I wanted to speak, to reply, to explain myself.
I looked over at Keith. He seemed so relaxed. I opened my mouth to speak but nothing close to words came out. I had already decided that I wanted to repeat everything that had happened the day before. My moment of decision was here. The words just would not come out. Looking back, it was probably, extreme fear and embarrassment. This was a time when any homosexual act was deemed evil and would bring horrific consequences. The list of reasons running through my thoughts to say NO! was limitless. I had never even fantasized about cock sucking, much less anal sex.
My eyes lowered to Keith's crotch. His cock bulged and formed a beautiful outline in his running shorts. My hand reached over pulling his shorts down and exposing his beautiful 7-inch cock as we drove. My lips wrapped around it, and I started to suck and slurp. I played with his balls and licked the delicious precum from his glistening slit.
Keith pushed down hard on the back of my head and his cock filled my mouth. It slid further and I gagged as it tried to enter my throat. I wasn't about to stop. Then, after a few minutes it was fully in my throat.
It was the beginning of my utter fascination with cocks. The smooth sublime feeling as the cock slides through my lips and down towards my throat. The pulsing as it begins to become more aroused. The ultimate prize as cum is pumped out and into my waiting mouth or onto my face. I abandoned any negative or questioning thoughts as the blowjob continued. I wasn't simply sucking a cock now. I was making love to it.