Well I really do not remember how long it took him to reply to me, it seemed to be forever but one day I got a message in my inbox from him. I looked, I waited a few minutes just starring at my inbox then I moved my cursor to the line and click... I opened the message. Steve was telling me that he owes me an explanation of why he did not call. He started out telling me that he did not think that he would have been able to fill my expectations of him, that he wanted to call, that he even picked up the phone and dialed the number but just could not go threw with it. There was more said but that is the just of it, some more about how sorry he is and that we are better off this way etc. Well I responded back with, that's okay, I understand but let's just stay in touch, I want you in my life even if it just via email.
"Pete, are you telling me that after I stood you up that you are willing to forgive me, that you still want me around in your life? I don't know what to say, you are a special man and I do want to be part of your life and I do want you in mine, I just don't know what to do or say."
"Steve, call me ###-###-####."
"Pete, when can I call, it is 12 o'clock my time, my secretary will be leaving in 45 minutes can I call then?"
"Yes, I'll be here."
I was hurt that he stood me up but I knew I wanted him, I knew I felt something in his messages but just did not know what it was. I did not want to admit that I feel in love with him, after all I never saw a picture of him, just that nude photo that he posted without a face. Boy was that the longest 45 minute.
Ring.... Out-of-area the phone read, I answer: "this is Pete"
"Pete, hi, it's Steve. I can not believe that you want to talk to me, that you are forgiving me. What I did to you is inexcusable, you sure a special person to be able to forgive me like this."
"Well I don't know what it is but there is something about you that I know I just want to know more and to have in my life. I am so hurt at what happened but I am also in no position to argue about it, I am still married after all, I was the one trying to pick you up and have sex. You have the right to pick and choose and I just thought that you decided not to have a married man."
"No, no that is not it, that's not it at all. I was afraid that I could never live up to all your expectations that you have described in our emails. I am not like that. I love to be with men, I am gay, but some of those scenes, well I just don't know if I could have live up to them. I have never been tied up before and to be truthful, I was a little nervous about that."
"HA HA! You had nothing to worry about. I have never tied anyone up, I have never acted anything out like I said I wanted to do. I got ideas from reading some gay porn and also from some porn movies that my wife and I rented before. I am a mild, kind of boring guy that likes to have sex, but I do have quite a vivid imagination I guess."
"Vivid I would say is an understatement, those were some of the hottest stories I have ever read. I have read and re-read some of those and just imagined being there with you, Oh Pete, I am sorry that I did not call."
"I have your picture downloaded on my computer and I still look at you every day. That body is just the type that I have always dreamt of. The man that I always wanted would be built like you, I knew I wanted you. Your hairy chest, that hard cock, how it turns up and just the right size to fill my mouth up. I wish I were right there right now. I would fall right in-between your legs and take your cock into my mouth. I would suck it slowly at first, making it nice and wet. I'll swirl my tongue down the shaft and then all around the head. I'll feel your cock throb in my mouth and then I would reach down with my hand and grab your balls and begin sucking hard. I'll apply strong suction to your cock with my mouth, going up and down. Oh yes Steve, my mouth is water right now."
"Pete, yes, I can feel your mouth all over my cock."
Well unknown to me at this time, Steve had his cock out and was jerking himself, but I just kept going on talking to him on what I would love to be doing to him. I found out late in our conversation that he was masturbating and I went for it with him....
"Steve, I would shove your cock right down into my mouth, pounding my nose right into your pubic hairs, wrap my arms around you and just fuck your cock with my mouth."
"I would take my hand and hold your head down and start to pump your mouth.. Oh yes... and then I would pull you up to me and take your cock. I want your cock in my mouth, I would stick it in, suck it right down my throat, take every inch of those 7 uncut wonderful cock inches that you have."
"Oh yes, that's it, that's right Steve, I'll pump my cock down your throat while holding your head tight to me give you no mercy. I'll start fucking in and out, your hot wet mouth will feel so good, so good on my cock."
Now I can hear his excitement, I can tell that he is masturbating on the other end. I am so hard, so horny but at work with people around that I can not do anything but talk my talk softly over the phone only to please my man.
"Oh yes, fuck my mouth Pete, fuck my mouth. Make me choke on your cock, I want it all in my mouth, I want you to shoot your load down my throat I..."
"Oh yes, that's right.. I'll have you so tight in my hands that you can not move. I have you and my toy, your mine right now and you can not move.. Your cock throbbing hard and I fuck your mouth.. Spit dripping down your lips from the non-stop fuck action I am giving your mouth. My cock is hard and you feel it go right into your throat. You can not move but you hold on to me making me want you even more.... Oh, ah!!! God I can feel it, I can feel it I am so hard, so hard right now I want to be with you."
"Oh yes, my mouth is full of your cock, I feel it going down my throat... Fuck my mouth Pete Fuck my.."
"My cock throbs in your mouth, I am hard like steel and shoving it, fucking shoving my cock into your mouth. You choke as I shove it into your throat but I don't let up. You know that I am getting ready, your tongue just going all over when it can. You are submitting your mouth to my lust and I am taking it... I am fucking your mouth."
"Yes, fuck my.."
"Oh god, and then another plunge into your mouth I slide into your throat, your nose right up against my body. My hand pressed on the back of your head holding you tight to me and my hips thrust forward.. You open your throat to my cock with is even deeper, I throb, I pulse up and then I cum."
"Ah yes, yes.."
"I cum in your mouth, shooting shot after shot of my hot cum down your throat.. You gag, you choke but I give no mercy I just continually ram my fucking cock into your wanting mouth Steve.. Just fuck your wanting my while my cum shoots out over and over."
I hear him cumming over the phone, sighs, moans, oh yes I made my man cum, he's happy.
"Oh my god, that was something Pete. I can not believe that I just came, god yes. You know I could feel you as you told me all that. I could taste your cock in my mouth, god do I want you... Hey, I am coming to Baltimore in Oct. Do you live far from there?"
"You are, yes I am close, what days are you going to be here?"
Well believe it or not I made a date with him in Baltimore, 3 months from now. I knew it was a long time but after all, I wanted this guy, I wanted him so much, and I wanted to keep him.
I went home that night and the wife and kids were gone so I took the digital camera and got undressed to send my man a picture of me. Of course it was of my cock, what else does a man send another man. I took one of me in the mirror, turned to the side with my cock sticking up nice and proud, face covered by the camera. No matter what, I am shy and private and by the actions I had you would never be able to tell but as long as my face wasn't in the pictures that no one could tell it was me. To the bed, legs spread, jerking.. hard.. click click.. cum.. yes.. shooting dripping... click click. Got clean and then to the computer, downloaded and attached and hit send....
"Pete, those are the hottest pictures I have ever seen. What a body.. What a cock. I can not wait for us to be together in Baltimore so I can have them all to myself."
"Well I can not wait either, cum and get it." Attached another cum shot and send
"Oh I want that cum in my mouth, I want to taste you so much Pete, I know you, I know we are meant to be and that only time is against us, it is making us wait. It must be something of a test but I am willing to wait for you Pete, I love you."
Love, he said love. I used that word after he stood me up and I do love him but I never again said that. Oh god, I wanted to tell him right then and there that I loved him but I was afraid that I would loose him. After all, I lost him from hot steamy sex fantasies and I just did not want this to happen again, I had 3 months to go threw before I was to be with him and I did not want to loose him again, so I responded.....
"Oh Steve, I do love you, I knew I did from almost the start. I felt it when I saw you ad and picture, I want you be with you, I want to move, leave here, my job and I can maybe transfer from the second job out there. After all, I will have child support and alimony payments to make."
"Pete, I make a good living, I can support you, I just want you in my life."
"I am home today, call me ###-###-####"
"You mean to tell me that you are home today, not at work? Are you alone?"
"Yes"
"My secretary leaves today around 12:45 my time, I'll call you then."
So to fill in a little missing material, I am home alone, the family went on vacation bringing my oldest son back to college. I decided not to go and that I was moving out of 'our' bedroom and starting the separation. I was so stressed at this point not being with the family. In fact, this was the first time that I have not go with the family on a vacation and I really hated it. Steve and I had some wild and wonderful email exchanges, he told me about himself, where he lived, his job, what he did and his homes. It all fit so well with my ideal man, the way I always envisioned him to be. The only thing missing was a picture of how he looks. I had drawn an image in my head about him, but then again, it was of the image of my ideal man and that was him. I had time to kill so I took a shower, why? Well I wanted to be clean, after all, this was going to be the first time that I was going to be with him even if it was only over the phone. And then it happened, the phone rang....
"Hello"
"Pete, hi, how are you? Can you talk now, is this a good time?"
"Yes it is fine, just wait a minute."
"What are you doing?"
"I am going to my bed, I am taking off my clothes, there, now I am laying down, naked.. there."
"Oh Pete, I wish I was there with you. I want to suck that uncut cock of yours, take it in my wet mouth and feel it grow."
