All characters are 18 or over.
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My journey must have begun with my discovery of porn.
When I was eighteen, I discovered a trove of porn magazines hidden out in the abandoned shed of a derelict and condemned house near my childhood home. This was the first time in my sheltered life I had ever seen anything like it. The magazines varied from soft nudity to hard full-contact stuff. They were the basis for most of my sexual education and fantasies in those unenlightened times.
Years later, in my twenties, I found porn on the brand new innovation that came to be called the internet. I found it stimulating but I didn't become addicted instantly. That would come later.
In the meantime, I had a regular life. I met a woman and fell in love. We got married. We held down jobs. We had kids. In time, we worked opposite shifts and lived more like roommates than husband and wife. As the kids got older, they needed to be ferried around to games and recitals. Life was hectic.
As the night owl of the family, and feeling a touch lonely and unsatisfied, I reconnected with online porn. With the internet, it was growing easier than ever to find what you were looking for.
I started out with what I suppose is common fare. Pictures of beautiful twenty-something girls. I rubbed out more cum than I could carry to those nubile young things. But as time went on, I realized I was bored with the same familiar objects. I found myself taking an interest in more exotic women, Black, Asian and Indian, but then over time, the same thing happened. I branched out to other body types and ages. I found that I could get turned on by fat women and BBWs, MILFs and mature women, even hairy women. Porn widened my appreciation for all the different kinds of women. But over a long period, months and years, the pictures all started to become bland to me.
By this time, streaming video porn was becoming more widely available and I started watching men and women having sex. This was exciting and it stimulated me for a long time, but eventually I found my attention wandering. The video streaming sites started posting categories. I started taking a special interest in oral sex. I was really turned on by seeing men eating women and women sucking men off. This too kept me satisfied for a long time.
As before, a few years passed and I found I needed something new to stimulate me when I jerked off. I browsed the available categories. A few caught my fleeting interest, like lesbian sex.
Then I came upon the cuckold category. That was undoubtedly a milestone on my journey.
I remember some scenes that made me come hard. One featured a man lying under his wife and licking her pussy enthusiastically while it was being fucked by another man. When the wife's lover came, he shoved his dick in the cuckold's mouth, making him swallow his cum and clean off his cock. In another, a wife fellated her lover to orgasm and she kissed her husband with a mouth full of cum, forcing the splooge into his waiting maw. I pulled my cock feverishly to this material, always reaching a powerful orgasm.
I wondered why these fantasies turned me on the way they did. I knew I wasn't gay and I certainly didn't want to watch my wife fuck other men. We may have been a bit dysfunctional, but we were still monogamous and very much in love.
But now, on those rare instances when our schedules conspired to allow us to have sex, I had visions of licking another man's cum out of her, or licking her lover's cock clean. I tried to shake them off and concentrate on what (and who) I was doing, but it was difficult. I have to admit those fantasies kept me turned on during the vanilla sex sessions my wife and I were having.
Cuckolds and lesbians kept me excited for a while, but again I felt the need to push the limits. BDSM left me cold, but I began watching videos with men having sex with sissies and ladyboys. Once more, I was getting off with the material. At first I imagined myself as the man in the scenario, but strangely, before too long... I began to imagine myself in the sissy role.
One day, I saw a sissy video and thought I'd give it a look. It was called "Sissy Hypno Cum Trainer". Even with "hypno" in the title, I didn't know what I was getting myself into. The video was of women giving blowjobs, receiving facials and taking loads on their tongue. They couldn't have been faking their enjoyment; they were all smiles. It was hot. The text captions and voice-over however were addressed directly to the male viewer and over several minutes it promoted the ultimate submission of man to man. It was a very sexy woman's voice.
"When you see a cock, you wish you were sucking it."
"You like it when a man gives you orders."
"Get on your knees before him!"
"You are a horny cocksucker!"
"Get on that cock!"
"Please him!"
I found myself coming harder than I had in a long, long time. Later, I asked myself why. After all, I'm not gay.
Well, am I?
I couldn't be. I wasn't attracted to men.
But maybe I was attracted to cock...
I kept coming back to that same video for a while, and I always came to it very hard.
Sometime later, in my recommended videos, a new category was featured. CEI. I had never heard of it. When I clicked on the link, I was horrified and aroused. The videos featured beautiful women giving the viewer cum-eating instructions. I clicked on the first one that looked interesting, merely out of curiosity.
A breathy hypnotic voice entranced me. She immediately won my trust. She said that I could believe everything she said. She told me that I was a good little cocksucker, that the sight of a hard cock aroused me, that the cock was to be served and given pleasure, and most important, the emissions of the cock were to be taken in the mouth, savoured and swallowed. The images in the first part of the video were of men being blown by women. These subtly faded into scenes with sissies and shemales sucking men. Finally, the last third of the video was dedicated to men on men. In this last section of the video, the hypnotic narrator was coaching me to pace myself as I masturbated because she would give me a countdown at the end, after which I would be allowed to come and I would be required-she said "allowed"- to eat my own ejaculate!
Ten.
I couldn't believe I was considering this.
