First, all events described in this story actually happened to me. I've finally decided to put it to writing to see what others think.
Just some details about me: I'm currently 33, I'm 5'11", 195 lbs and by most accounts most people say I'm attractive (black hair, goatee, olive complexion, hairy chest). I am currently married but this story is about events that happened when I was single (starting about 4 yrs ago).
Growing up I've always loved women (and still do). I guess thoughts of being with a man started occurring after watching numerous X-rated movies. At first I would get off just watching the women giving blow jobs and getting fucked. Then I guess I started paying attention on what kinds of looks the women were giving with a cock in their mouth. They seemed to enjoy it so much so I began thinking what would it be like to have my mouth stuffed with some guy's cock. That led to many masturbatory fantasies that kept me satisfied for some time. The thought of a guy just using my mouth for his pleasure just thrilled me.
Soon, however, these thoughts were just not enough. I had used numerous telephone chat lines to meet women before (usually for a quick one night stand). It soon dawned on me that I could use these services to possibly meet men. And that started the next phase of my "initiation to cock sucking." I would go on phone chat lines, get on the women's line and talk to men (who I guess were initially there to talk to women). My greeting would be something like, "very horny male, looking to have his mouth used by a man and be a cum bucket, no reciprocation necessary."
Despite being on a heterosexual line, you would not believe the responses I would get. I would get young men, old men, single and married men sending me messages saying how they would like to choke me with their dicks and fill my mouth with warm cum.
With this auditory stimulus I would soon have my own cum shoot from my cock. This was definitely much better than just fantasizing in my head. Sometimes they would give me their phone number and beg me to come over now. For about 1 1/2 years this went on where I would get into some erotic conversation but chicken out before taking it to actually meeting someone. But, as those of you who might have had similar experience, this too was not enough. The combination of watching women enjoy cock on film, the fantasies of taking a cock in my mouth as well as actually talking to guys who wanted to use me sent me to the next stage, I wanted a real live cock in me.
I started frequenting adult video stores and actually had men in booths with me, but it was I who was receiving the blow jobs (which I admit were fantastic, guys really know how to please other guys I thought). Sometimes they would ask if I return the favor, but I guess it was bit too soon for me, and I would decline.