I still don't know why I do it. But I do it.
There's that song about goin' back to New Orleans, and a ball and chain...
In my case, there's two balls, and it's not exactly a chain... but it is hard.
I get out of the car and look around, like I expect someone to recognize me. No matter how many times I do this, there's still that tinge of shame, that fear of discovery, like I'm doing something naughty, something wrong, like someone's going to know...
I'm a cocksucker.
I enter the arcade. This one has two sides, one is a big open room with a dozen tattered couches and a porn video continuously playing on a big screen. The room could be empty, or have several men disinterestedly watching the videos, or engaged in various sex acts for everyone to see.
But today I'm here, drawn to the other side.
I can feel my hands shaking.
I'm here for the glory holes.
I pick a booth, more or less at random, but it's the first one that's free, and it doesn't go un-noticed in my mind that the adjacent booth is occupied.
I enter and latch the door behind me. Again, with the fear of discovery. I go to sit in the chair, a hard, plastic affair firmly bolted to the floor, and I fumble with my money. The signs all threaten to kick you out if you're not playing a video, so I clumsily try to stuff a dollar in the slot. It won't go and I'm frustrated. Is the machine broken or is it my trembling fingers?
Then I see it, out of the corner of my eye. It's already happening. I hadn't been in there for 10 seconds, and I wasn't ready.
To my left, a cock is coming through the hole in the wall, and the adrenaline surges in my body. I think I dropped my dollar, I'm not sure if I put my wallet in my pocket or not, and even though I'm still getting adjusted in the seat, I'm now sliding to my knees as fast as I can in the dark confines of my little cell.
I reach out to touch it, out of fear that if I don't touch it fast enough, it will disappear, retreating back through the hole and out of my life - and right now that penis is what I live for.
In the dim light, I can see it's a decent cock, curving to the owner's left. It's circumcised, and roughly five inches long, about as long as my woody, but as my hand comes into contact with it I'm in for a surprise. It's totally flaccid.
My hand lines it up, and now that I've hastily assumed the position of glory, on my knees, I guide the cock to my mouth. I'm too hungry and flustered to savor the moment, and I open widely and take the head right onto my waiting tongue.
Another surge of adrenaline hits as I'm assaulted by all the sensations - there are so many of them. The softness of his meat as I first close my mouth around it. The smell, mostly of a fresh shower and soap, but that wonderful underlying masculine smell that never completely goes away. The moan I hear from the opposing booth as the warmth of my mouth sends shivers up his spine. The involuntary flex of his hips as he struggles to get more of his cock into my mouth. The soft creak of the plywood wall as it protests against my man as he feeds me the silky flesh of his soft cock. All so glorious.
I pause for a moment, partly to get adjusted on the floor, and partly to revel in the moment. Then I feel it, his entire cock pulses ever so lightly in my mouth, and the tip slides just a tiny bit, extending itself deeper in my mouth.
He's getting hard.
I really just want to enjoy feeling of his manhood swelling to full erection, but I get barely one second of that. His cockhead, still growing in my mouth, is shoved a bit deeper by a thrust of his hips, forceful and intentional, as if he's telling me "Get to work" - So I do.
I run my tongue across the underside of his growing member, and it surges again in my mouth, the curve of his lengthening shaft thrusting it into the right of my cheeks. I adapt my stance before him to accommodate the shape and bend of his member, and I begin to service him.
I pull back, applying suction and start work on him. I keep my tongue moving and change styles, sometimes turning my head to get a swirling effect, sometimes just bobbing up and down on his cock.