***This is part one of a fictional series written in first person. All stories involve participants eighteen or older.***
Ever since I was old enough to understand what attraction was, I knew I was gay. Even before that, however, I always formed very close friendships with boys that were more intimate than other boy's typical friendships.
I had a particular group of friends in my neighborhood growing up that were more traditional male friendships however. Landon was probably who I was closest to, along with his older brother Jaden. There were two other friends as well named Noah and Ben.
I was always particularly attracted to Jaden. We saw eachother naked many times growing up but it was never anything sexual and I never really saw it as such; it was just juvenile behavior like streaking or skinny dipping. We were your typical teenage boys, always playing sports and wrestling around or playing video games.
My name is Grayson and I was always short (5'6 140 pounds since my freshman year) but very athletic and somewhat of a jock. My friends weren't quite as athletic as I was but still enjoyed sports. Thanks to my athleticism and masculine voice, I passed well for being straight.
It wasn't until my later teen years that I began to look at Jaden as more than just a friend. As a closeted gay teen in a conservative state, I had zero sexual experience. I dated a couple girls because my friends thought they were hot but obviously, I never really was interested.
As a result of my emerging feelings, it began to become difficult for me to see my friends naked ot wrestle around because I couldn't help getting an erection. It was hard to even do normal things with them anymore.
I was scared to be found out, scared to lose my friends as a result of being gay. I couldn't help but develop feelings for Jaden and they were rather intense as my first major crush. I ultimately confided in him and he was kind to me about it but he told me he was straight. He was nice enough to never out me, thankfully. (It wasn't until a few years later that I got to fulfill my fantasy with Jaden but thats a story for later on in this series.)
I ultimately quit hanging out with my friends at the beginning of my junior year of high school and spent my junior and senior year with a new group of friends I made.
Though I was pretty reserved in school, people always gravitated towards me outside of school settings. I had green-hazel eyes and short light brown hair that made me cute if you ignored the acne that dotted my cheeks until late my senior year. People thought I was funny and nice so I had a personality that was conducive to making friends.
Despite the fact I quit hanging with my childhood guy friends, I still hung out with some guy friends at parties I would go to and bonded with a couple of them. I gained a reputation for being "cool" thanks to hanging out with kids at parties so I'd find after high school that many people knew me from other people's stories.
Going to these parties, I'd made a new guy best friend named Zane that, surprise, I developed a crush on. It was easier to handle with him though, possibly because he wasnt a life long friend. He was a popular baseball player that was extremely attractive. Thats another story though.
I met Zane through my friend from school named Trey. Trey was 5'8 with an average build and reddish-dark brown hair. He had brown eyes and was just your average guy in most ways.
It was with Trey that I had my second ever sexual experience. We were both eighteen at the time at a party at Zane's house. Everyone at the party had gotten extremely intoxicated so eventually we went to our respective places to sleep it off.
Me and Trey, ended up on a futon in the basement while another friend slept in a sleeping bag on the floor beside the futon. It didn't have heat and was therefore freezing cold so we both just got under the covers together. Trey wasn't anything special to look at but he was cute enough that I was a little turned on sleeping in the bed with him. Of course, at that age, you're always horny regardless. I resisted any urges though and fell asleep rather quickly.
At some point in the middle of the night, I felt something odd in my crotch and realized that Trey had his hand on my rock hard cock. I remained still in the darkness but my pulse quickened.
Next thing I realized is that my hand was burrowed into Trey's hair as if I had been playing with it. Whether or not I was, I don't know because, as I said, I wasn't awake. I thought maybe it was a coincidence that Trey's hand was resting on top of my dick.
I was on my side facing Trey and Trey was on his stomach looking away from me. It wasn't until I felt him give it a light squeeze that I realized he was awake and aware of what he was doing.
He brushed his hand up my shaft before setting his palm flat against my stomach and tried to push his fingers under my waistband. I sucked in some to give him easier access and he slipped his hand into my pants and underwear.
He pulled on it some but when he couldn't get it to pop out he quickly gave it up as a bad job and pulled his hand out. He then moved to his side, facing away from me and appeared to try to go back to sleep.
I was incredibly horny and so chose to try to return the favor. Though I'd received a handjob before, I'd never touched another guy's dick. I was too determined to stay in the closet and not appear to be "the gay one" in my previous encounter.
The futon wasn't large so we were already pretty close to eachother. I edged a little closer and reached over his waist to do the same thing he did to me. When my hand first grabbed his bulging hard erection through his shorts, his breathing quieted as if he'd stopped breathing. We both were trying hard to stay quiet so as to not wake up the other friend in the room.
I gave his cock a few squeezes before moving my hand to his waistband and trying to slip it inside. I realized there was no chance of that happening as he had a belt on his shorts. I paused for a second before deciding to try to undo his belt. I ultimately decided he could stop me if he wanted me to stop, after all he is the one who started this.
I pulled his belt through the first loop before pulling it up and out of the buckle and then through to where it was now undone. Going a step further, I unbuttoned his shorts with one hand as well and pulled one side apart from the other to get them unzipped and open.
Trey had on boxer briefs and as I felt his cock through his underwear, I heard him exhale loudly. I knew he wasn't nearly as long as I am but was thicker.
I ran a finger over his clothed cockhead and realized he was leaking a large amount of precum. I slipped my hand easily into his underwear and grabbed a hold of his penis. It had a large vein that ran along the side down to his under-shaft.
I ran my finger against his piss slit and felt another guy's precum for the first time. I was surprised by how much seemed to be clinging to the head of his penis. I took another risk and pulled his hip towards me in an attempt to get him to lay on his back. He did so at an awkward angle to where he still faced away from me.
I pulled his underwear down just in the front to free his short, fat dick. It was probably four and a half inches long but was very thick. My hand covered his entire length as I gave his cock a few jerks for the first time. His precum dribbled down his cockhead onto my hand and began to lube his penis some.
I was amazed at how much precum someone could have. I decided I couldn't really give it a good jerk because my hand covered his whole shaft so I put my hand over his cock head and grabbed it with my fingertips. I then started to push and pulled down to where the palm of my hand would hit the tip of his cock before I pulled back up.
It wasn't a minute of doing this before I felt his cock jerk and heard him let out a low moan. Suddenly, a huge jet of cum shot into my palm with the force of a water gun. His body jerked as he spurted several times, totally coating my hand and fingers as well as getting all over himself.
When he was done, I licked my hand dry as he zipped, buttoned and buckled himself back up before we both went back to sleep. We spoke about it the next day and both agreed that it was a one time thing. I mostly agreed because I still didn't want to be outed and I really was only interested in Zane at that time.
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It wasn't until after high school that I started hanging around with my friends again. I was still eighteen but I felt comfortable enough to tell them I was gay since I no longer felt the pressure of fitting in at school anymore. They'd all been hurt when I quit coming around and felt like I ditched them so I really wanted them to understand what was really going on.
Thankfully, they all responded really well which was a theme for my life. I know how lucky I was, especially in the bible belt. Everyone was surprised when they found out Jaden knew all along.
I grew closer to Landon after this and we hung out often. He was slightly shorter than me but was 20 pounds lighter. I was considered stocky and well-built and he was considered skinny with a six pack he never had to work for. He was a cute blue-eyed brunette boy.
Because of how short and small he was, he never had confidence in himself. Because of that, I always felt sympathy for him. He was a virgin with extremely limited sexual experience.
After I told him I was gay, I began to notice he acted differently toward me whenever the other guys weren't around. Never flirty or anything, he would just ask questions out of curiosity and speak to me in a different, nicer way. We weren't mean to eachother but we all were the typical group of guy friends that talked shit to eachother.
One day, we were hanging out in his garage alone and smoking some weed when he asked me a question.
"How big is an average dick?"
I'd only ever seen two erect penises other than mine at this point but I didn't want to admit that. I tried to give an honest answer regardless.
