I honestly do not know how I made it home. One of the best nights I have had in ages just came crashing down on me.
"Did I just suck my son off?" I asked myself. It had to be. Who else would it be?
"What a cock that was though." I thought.
"Stop it! That's your son you're thinking about!" Arguing with myself all the way home was not helping me think straight. I probably wouldn't have been with it anyway with the night I just had.
Who would have thought that just a couple of days ago, I had only sucked once in a great while. Now there had been two young guys that have had their cocks in my mouth and ass a couple of times each, plus a couple of other guys joining us in our fun.
'What if Jackie finds out?" I thought thinking of my wife.
Another question popped into my head. "How am I going to face Sean?"
When I got home, the house was empty and dark. I was at least happy for that. I was able to get upstairs and take another shower before Sean got home. It would give me time to think about what I was going to say to him.
I heard him enter the house as I got out of the shower. It sounded like he was trying to sneak in the house. "I hope he didn't bring Mark and Andy home to stay the night again," I whispered.
I dried up and threw on some sweats and a shirt. I went downstairs to get something to eat and hesitated at his door. I had to get this over with and talk to him. I knocked on his door and called to him.
"Sean, are you home?"
"Yeah Dad. I just got home." Was it me or did he sound scared to talk to me?
"I'm going downstairs to make something to eat. Are you hungry?"
"No thanks. I ate already." His voice sounded like he was shaking.
"Are you ok?" I asked while I thought to myself, "Please say yes. Please say yes."
"Yeah. I'll be down in a minute. I want to change up."
With that I went downstairs and pulled out a bowl and some cereal. I wasn't really in the mood to eat anything but I needed to do something.
A couple of minutes later, Sean came downstairs. He was looking down at the floor and kicking at nothing. "What's wrong?" I asked. I told myself I already knew the answer but had decided that if he was there I was going to pretend I wasn't.
"Dad, you always said I could talk to you about anything, right?"
"Of course. Always. What's the matter? You look like the cat the swallowed the canary?"
"I was asked to go somewhere tonight. I didn't want to go but I did anyway. Don't ask me where or what I did please, but I just don't feel right what I did. I'm just afraid that you and Mom will be disappointed in me if you know."
I swallowed hard. There was my answer and the way he said it, it sounded like he enjoyed it...
"Son, No matter what, we would never be disappointed in you. We raised you to be your own person and we're proud of you regardless of what you do."
"Thanks, Dad. You know I love you, right."
"Yes. Same goes with you, right?"
"Yes."
"Sean, I do have to ask though. It wasn't anything illegal, right?"
"Oh no. Just somewhere I never thought I would be asked to go. I'm going to go shower and go to bed. Good night Dad."
"Good night, Son." With that he walked out of the room and went upstairs.
Now what was I going to do. I know one thing. I was going to have a talk with Mark and Andy the next time I see them. Ask them who they thought they were putting me in this position. No you put yourself in this position. You should have never have gone there to begin with. Then you should have stopped it when you saw them at your house. You're that adult here. I decided to try and get some sleep and figure it out in the morning. I locked he front door and went to bed, though I knew sleep wasn't going to come easily.
I finally fell asleep around 4:30. I decided I was going to confront Mark and Andy and tell them that I was done. I also was going to try and get out of Sean where he went. Even if I ended up telling him I was there also. Hopefully he realizes I didn't know it was him and he forgives me. I just had to try and convince him not to tell his mother.
I woke up to Jackie shaking me. "Are you going to wake up today?" she asked me.
"Huh, what time is it?"
"11:30. What did you do? Party all night because I was gone?" she was laughing. If only she knew.
"How's Mom?"
"She's having chest pains but is refusing to go to the hospital. Says it's just gas. I have Maggie there now for a while. I'm going back for supper." Maggie was her younger sister that couldn't stand doing anything for anyone. I was surprised she got her there. "Get dressed and come downstairs. I want to talk to you about something."
She left the room and I got out of bed. I grabbed a pair of jeans and went to the bathroom. I had to piss like a racehorse. I stood at the toilet bowl and started to piss. As I went, I looked in the mirror. I looked like crap. I thought of the past few hours and started to get hard. Damn it that was your son! Stop it!
I finally stopped urinating and dressed. I walked by Sean's room and felt that familiar stirring in my jeans. I couldn't get that cock out of my mind. It was so huge and tasty. I walked by his room and went downstairs. Hopefully Jackie doesn't notice my hard on. "Why would she now? She never does when you're in bed with her."
I went into the kitchen and poured myself a cup of coffee. "Thanks for putting this on," I said pointing to the cup.
'Yeah, you look like you were up all night. I figured you needed some."
"Yeah, I stayed up too late watching some old movies. What's up?"
"A couple of things. First, I'm worried about leaving Mom alone. I convinced Maggie to come over for a couple of hours, but she says she can't stay. I know what you think of her but I can't force her to stick around. I might stay at Mom's for a few days to make sure she is either ok or I can convince her to go to the doctor. I already called work and told them I wouldn't be in for a few days for a family emergency."
"You're right. You know what I think of Maggie. Are you serious she won't help? She's not even working right now."
"I know. With Mom like this though, I don't want to start any arguments."
"Hon, that's fine. You know I care for your mother and anytime you need to go there, I understand. Just let me know if there is anything I can do. What else was there?"
"Sean was up when I got home. He said he was going to stay at his friend's house for a few days as well. I don't know what is up with him, but he didn't seem right. He said he talked to you a little last night. What's going on with him?"
"Just some college problems. I talked to him a little but he wouldn't tell me the whole thing. I'll call him later and see if he wants to meet for supper or something so I can talk to him more. Don't worry about him. Just take care of Mom."
"Thanks Dear. I love you."
"Love you too." Jackie went upstairs and I sat back in my chair. I was pissed at Maggie for treating her family like that, I was upset at myself for what I did. I was mad for letting Mark and Andy trick me like they did and again at myself for allowing it to happen. Finally I was worried at what it was doing to Sean. If he felt this bad about going there, how would he feel when he finds out I was the one sucking him off. Again, my cock started to stir in my pants as I thought about yesterday. The way his cock tasted. The way Mark and Andy had to help force him to shove his cock all the way in the glory hole and down my throat. The load he shot and how good it tasted and how large it was. I swear he was saving that for almost a week.
"Stop it" I said out loud. I tried snapping out of it but my cock was rock hard. "That's your son!"