From Standing To Kneeling

I find that writing about my dick sucking experiences & desire to be fucked quite freeing. This is how my journey.

I sneak into an ABS and discover booths. I go to the desk and get some quarters. Go back and start watching porn, soon I stand up and pull my pants down, sit down, and start slow stroking. A few minutes later this middle aged guy appears and says, "let me suck that for you". I'm young, horny, & rock hard; so I nod yes. He kneels and inhales my cock and stars doing stuff with his lips mouth & tongue that I never felt before. No hands, just his mouth. Next thing you know his hands slid up under my shirt and began to caress my nipples. I slump back, surrender, and release into his mouth. He never broke contact, pushed me back when I got over sensitive and sucked me until my cock went limp. Looked up at me, said thank you, and left. I was dazed & confused after my first blowjob.

Now you know I was back a few days later hoping for a blowjob. But this time, I paid more attention to my surroundings. I noticed I was the youngest guy in there, and most of these guys were looking me up and down. Some would stare at my crotch, look directly into my eyes, and smile. I didn't know what this meant.

i went into a booth, left the door cracked, pulled my pants down to my ankles, sat down and got to slow stroking. Sure enough, in a few minutes a guy popped his head in and looked at me, I looked at him, kept slow stroking, and turned back to the screen. He stepped in, closed the door, & stood there. I looked over at him & put my hands by my side. He immediately came over, knelt & starting sucking me. I came quickly, he swallowed it all, and immediately got up and left after I finished spurting. No words were spoken.

This became my several times a week routine. I soon learned that eye contact, crotch stare, and a smile meant can I give you a blowjob. I could respond with a nod and they would follow me into a booth and take my load. This went on for several months until I visited a different ABS that had holes in the wall.

A few months later, I visit another ABS. I see the usual guys milling about, standing around looking at each other and whoever walks by. I enter the booth and put my quarters in, and eventually pull my hardon out and start slow jerking. I'm startled by a voice coming from my right side, "psst, let me suck it for you". I look over and there's a finger coming through a hole in the wall. "Psst, let me suck it for you". Without thinking, I stand up and put my dick through the hole. The mouth on the other side engulfs my dick. Licks the underside, swirls his tongue around the head while sucking and my horny young ass unloads in short order. I think this is great, I can come by here and not be in the same room with the guy sucking me off, which keeps me straight. I come back, again & again over the next few weeks. I no longer jerk off at home, I still have my girlfriend who won't let me fuck her, we just feel each other up, but the blue balls don't matter because I found a place with holes in the walls.

I strolled into the ABS as usual, young, cocky, & horny as hell. The crowd looked to be like normal. I'll be in and get blown in short order. I put my quarters in, start scrolling through, open my pants and start slow stroking. And nothing happens. A few more minutes go by, I see the light from the screen through the hole, so I know somebody is there. I get closer and peer in through the hole and hard dick, slightly bigger than my almost 6 inches comes through the hole.

What the hell. I just stare at it. And the damn thing twitches and I hear a voice say, touch it. The damn thing twitches again, and I wrap my hands around it. It's hard yet soft. I just couldn't resist. Then I lick the head to taste it. And the voice says suck it and I start to suck it. It doesn't really have a taste, but I squat down to suck it better. Soon I'm going to town on it, trying to make it cum. I'm swirling my tongue all over and under it just the way I want it done to me. I take my hands away and start bobbing and sucking like my life depended on it. I start to hear moans.

Next thing you know, my lips are wrapped tightly around it and I feel throbbing & spurting in my mouth. And this crazy euphoric wave sweeps through my body. I can't get enough. I keep sucking and swallowing until he pulls his softening dick out of my mouth. I remember wanting to, no craving, to do it again.

My mind was racing, I just gave somebody a blowjob. What the hell is wrong with me? I have a girlfriend who I fondle, finger, and lets me eat her pussy.? I wanted to suck a dick again. But my brain said get the hell out of there, so I did. I left feelingly deeply disturbed about not what I had done, but that I got so much pleasure from having a dick in my mouth, and more than that, I loved making it cum in my mouth and swallowing every drop of it.

You know I said never again. That lasted about a week.

Why do I keep saying this is the last time? I know it's not. I've got a girlfriend, we're fucking now. I love eating her pussy, the taste, the smell, and making her shiver & cum. I love fucking her and she gives great blowjobs, but I still go back to the gloryholes and suck dick.

Once every few weeks, sometimes once a week, I go back drop my quarters, wait for the door next to me to open, hear the coins and listen for the zipper. Soon as I hear it, I push 2 fingers through the hole and wait. When the dick comes through I get to licking & sucking. I use my mouth as much as possible. Nothing but lips, mouth, & tongue. None of that jerking hand action stuff, He can jack his own dick. I'm trying to be special. Did you read that, I'm trying to be a special dick sucker. WTF has happened to me. I can't wait to make a dick real hard in my mouth, then I know it's gonna start throbbing, pulsing, and spurting. Those are my favorite moments. I love sucking a load of cum out, savoring, and then swallowing it all. Moving my tongue underneath to give that extra stimulation to get it all. I only stop when he pulls it back.

Again, WTF is going on with me. Why am I enjoying sucking dick so much? I don't even jack off or try to get my dick sucked anymore at the ABS. I started it jacking off & getting blown, now I just suck a dick, 2 if I'm lucky and go home happy & confused.

This goes on for years.