Drew
"Why did I agree to this????" I said aloud.
"You agreed for what? Mentoring the new intern? I told you not to take it as you are already loaded with this sprint's work but nooooo you had to be the nice guy here." Nick said to me.
"What are you talking about?" I asked him as it wasn't the answer I was looking for.
"So, we are not talking about work?" His face beamed like a sun. Argg what did I call upon myself that this is happening to me.
Sandy is very close friend of mine. We joined the company together, did the training together and lucky got in the same department. We both are gays and most of the office knows about it. For once everyone in office thought that we were together but we clarified that it isn't the case. I'm gay but Nick, he's the definition of what gay means. He's polar opposite of me and maybe that's why we click. He was the reason I started to know and learn more about queer culture. He was the one who took me to gay bar for the 1st time. He took me for my 1st drag show. He even taught me how-to put-on lipstick. He even tucked in front of me once which I wasn't asking for but still got it. Even though he used to get in and out of drag time to time, for the past six months he's getting regular for it. I've to say one thing about Sandy, if he takes a thing seriously, he takes it seriously. And that's why he's insisting me to put me in drag as well. Which I'm not against, but I still don't think I'm ready yet.
There was Brain too, who joined the company with me and Sandy, but he left company just three months ago. He's pan and when he recognized that this job isn't for him, he left. He has now become a content creator and his fans account is running quite successfully. He was dabbling between creating contents and working nine to five. But when he left, he totally got into it. His social media pages too have huge amount of followers and all is going good with him. Me and Sandy as loyal friends are subscribed to his channel even though we never watched his video. Well, I'll come clean, I did go to his page once, but then without opening any video I closed it.
"We are talking about work." I said, so that he doesn't lead the conversation far.
"No, we are not..." his face beamed even more. Fuck, he's gonna get it out of my mouth right.
"So, I assume that Blake wants to get in touch with you and you said yes and now you are regretting it?" He asked.
"No...." I said in high pitch tone.
"Well, then we are talking about work then." He turned his chair and went to his desk, leaving me shocked. So according to him, my life is either work or Blake? That was a deadpan read on me that my life consists of only two things.
I got up from my chair, went to washroom and locked myself in a stall. I closed the lid and sat upon it, putting my face in my head rewinding what happened yesterday. First, he looked so carefree when he was drunk. His cheeks were red and his goofy smile was doing things inside me. Second, he really hugged me tight during bike right and I loved every second of it. Third, I was on verge on losing my self-control as my fingers traced his crack. I'm sure he was sighing with smiling that I lost my control. My body wanted him, I wanted him. Fourth, when I was washing him down, I almost brought my mouth on his shoulder to kiss and bite. I wanted to bite his neck, his shoulder, his collar bone. While washing him down I was imagining how his body will look like with all the bite marks on his body. And that constant thought didn't let me lose my boner for a very long time.
And when at last I almost lose my boner, he had to put his chin on my stomach, look at me with eyes saying "FUCK ME" brought my bone back. And while thinking all these four things, my boner is back again. I took out my phone and typed,
"So tonight..."
I was thinking as how to complete the sentence and instead of pressing a letter I pressed send. And to my surprise I got immediate reply,
"Yes. And see, as I said before, yes will be my answer."
So, we will have something for tonight, won't we?
"Cool, then. I gotta go for meeting."
There wasn't any meeting. I wanted to end this conversation
"Sure."
I got out of the stall, washed my hands and looked in the mirror. Let's see how this night will go then.
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When I came to flat, it was empty, meaning Sean left for his workout. Our gyms are different, his gym far from flat compared to one I go. After freshen up, I went to closet to change into something light before heading out, and my eyes went to the pack of jockstraps which was a pack of five but I only have four with me. I got flashbacks of seeing the package opened, a short with briefs in it and a t-shirt adjacent to it lying on the ground. I immediately pictured that Sean is trying one of them and that image itself not only surprised me but also gave me inkling that he actually wants to try exploring his sexuality.
When I opened his room's door, I saw him facing mirror, and his whole naked body from back visible to me. His one hand on his head's back, other hand down, probably on his dick caressing it. But that image sustained only for a second as he quickly turned around and I looked him down and up, in orange jockstrap. On his skin, orange jockstrap was actually looking so good. When my eyes met his, my eyes again went down and up, totally registering his naked body in jockstrap in my mind. And when our eyes met again, I was thinking two things at that time, first, he's thinking what to say, second, he looks fuckable!
Before he could say anything, I said,
"You can keep this one for yourself." And I left.
Even though I was wearing boxer briefs already, I still wanted to inaugurate this blue jockstrap in front of me. I quickly changed into it and looked into mirror. I again started to doubt myself that he wants to try things with me. I shook my head, to throw those incoming thoughts from my mind. And I left.
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As I stood in front of mirror after my shower, with only a blue towel wrapped around my waist, I was weighing everything. On one side there was anger to show him how it's like to fuck, on the other thinking that this would probably be his first time with a guy, should I be rough with him because of anger? I shook my head as I was unable to come to a point. But there's a part of me who do want to try things with him and at the same time thinking I'm digging myself in the same situation as before. And on top of that, my dick was growing slowly with passing time.
"Fuck it!" I said and got out of bathroom.