Note: This story contains incest.
As my younger brother's best man, I stood next to Gary with a fake smile plastered on my face watching the ceremony as he married his long-time girlfriend, Lana. I was happy for them. Really. She was a great woman and I liked her. I loved my brother and thought that, for the most part, he was a good man who deserved this happiness. Acknowledging my bias, I thought Lana was a lucky woman to have him, that she was the one who'd won the spousal lottery. Despite my happiness for them, I didn't want to be here standing behind him like everything was fine. It wasn't. I was pissed at him in a way that I hadn't been since we were kids. I was also pissed at three of the groomsmen behind me.
"Look at him."
My smile faltered and I flinched feeling the breath of my other brother, Gabriel, against my ear and neck as he leaned toward me to whisper.
He continued, "He's shaking so much, he's gonna drop that ring."
I stiffened and took a half step away from Gabe indicating I didn't want to talk to him and, thankfully, he took the hint.
The ceremony continued and soon we were all walking out of the ballroom behind the newlyweds.
While the guests all mingled with drinks and hors d'oeuvres, the wedding party moved across the tree-filled lawn for photos.
There was lots of happiness and laughter but I didn't feel it. Not wanting to be a party pooper, I faked my way through it as best I could. Each time we were posed, I shivered or shuddered as Gary, Gabe, Gary's best friend, Nick, or our cousin, Steve, touched me. Whether it was the accidental brush of a hand against mine, or the intentional placement of hands on my shoulder as one of them stood behind me in order to fit us all in the frame, I didn't care. All I wanted was to get away from them.
"What's going on?"
"Nothing." Even with the genuinely tired smile I gave her, I saw that my wife, Olivia, who was also a bridesmaid, didn't believe me. "It's just been a long weekend."
That seemed to convince her and she gave me a quick peck. "A few more hours and we can sneak out."
I nodded but knew that our leaving wouldn't be the end of either her curiosity or the anger simmering inside me.
Hearing the photographer ask for more shots, I gave her another quick peck then made my way to the new position.
After photos, we took a little rest in a holding room to have drinks and freshen up before going into the reception. I tried my best to avoid the four guys, but somehow I kept being pulled into conversation with them. They seemed oblivious to or simply ignored my wanting not to be near them. It felt like the longest half hour ever before we were able to leave the room for our seats in the reception hall.
I was thankful to be seated between Oliva and another bridesmaid so I could avoid the men for most of dinner. The placement, along with more than a few drinks, helped me relax and soon I found myself actually enjoying myself. Those drinks quickly worked against me, though, and I ended up in the restroom.
I had just unzipped my pants when Steve walked in.
"What are you doing?" I snapped when he locked the door.
"Are you okay?"
I glared at him for a moment then turned back to glare at the wall in front of me. Sounding exactly the opposite, I said, "I'm fine."
"Bullshit," he said without heat.
I didn't respond.
After a long moment of silence, he said, "I know I should apologize for my part, I know I should feel bad, but I don't."
I turned an intensified glare on him for a second then looked back at the wall feeling my anger grow. Honestly, I didn't even want an apology from him or the others. But I also didn't want to have this conversation with him while I was standing there trying to piss at my brother's wedding reception and I sure as hell didn't want to hear him admit that he wasn't sorry.
"Gauge." He paused and I heard a heavy sigh leave him. "I know I shouldn't have done it, I know I should've tried to help you stop the other guys. I haven't been able to stop thinking about what happened and..."
Hearing him trail off, I looked in his direction and saw him staring at my dick.
It wasn't until I looked down at myself that I realized I was hard. Not just hard, my dick was visibly throbbing.
I looked back at my cousin and saw something in his eyes that I both did and didn't want to see. He began to unzip his tuxedo pants and I gave him a look of disbelief but didn't stop my eyes from moving down to his crotch. When he pulled out his dick, it looked as painfully hard as mine.
"I've been thinking about what happened, too," I said through clenched teeth as I stared at his cock. I wasn't ready to talk to him, or anyone, about what had happened but I also knew that if I didn't right then, I never would and might never have the chance again to get this off my chest. "I fucking hate you and I really hate them. Mostly, I hate myself."
"'Cause you liked it?"
I took a deep breath as my rage reached the boiling point. But all I could do was nod.
Steve continued, "When we went to bed, I thought it would be one of those 'it never happened' things like we agreed. But my dick's been hard just about all damn day thinking about you."
We stared at each other in silence for a long moment. In his eyes, I saw the request that he wanted to make and I was sure he saw the corresponding look in mine. Neither of us wanted to ask first, neither of us wanted to give voice to what we wanted.
Knowing that both of us were stubborn enough that we would stand there staring at each other until the end of time, I undid the button holding my pants closed. After lowering them and my boxers to my knees, I turned to the side and braced myself against the divider that separated the stall from the urinal as I heard Steve approaching me. Over my shoulder, I watched him spit lube his dick just before he pushed it between my ass cheeks and lined himself up. My hole was still raw and it hurt like hell as he pushed into me but it was exactly what I wanted. The sensation took me right back to the night before when I had been fucked in the ass for the first time in my life by him and the other guys at Gary's bachelor party.
The four of us had planned and agreed to have a relatively calm party in Gary's suite. It was just going to be us drinking, watching movies, eating pizza and other takeout crap, and shooting the shit. At thirty-two, my clubbing days were long gone, and even Gabe, the youngest at twenty-five, was in favor of not having too wild of a night.