This is a completed six-chapter story that will post within two weeks.
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Nathan Thorne had just made his first decision since landing in Key West—to go with an Audi 4 convertible rental rather than the Mustang that everyone else in line was getting—not getting, actually, had gotten and had already been on their way in while Avis tried to track down an Audi 4.
"Sorry about that," the woman at the counter said, giving Nathan a glorious smile. "Almost everyone goes for the Mustang in Key West. It once was Sebrings, but now it's Mustangs."
"Quite all right. I'm not in a hurry." He smiled back, politely. She still was looking like she wanted to swoon in his presence. He got a lot of that. And he
wasn't
in a hurry. But he was a little irritated that one of the first decisions he'd made—which car to rent—after weeks of not being able to make one, just floating along, struggling to get up in the morning and to make it to night without screaming or torturing himself with his feelings of guilt, seemed to have been a bad one.
Was coming to Key West a bad decision too? Was considering moving here permanently fatally flawed no sooner than he'd gotten out of the plane from New York via Miami?
The young woman at the counter turned back to him. "It's ready now, sir. I'm really sorry about the wait. You'll find it in bay 7 on the lot. You can wait for the courtesy bus, but it's only a five-minute walk. It's metallic blue."
"The bus?" Nathan asked, still distracted by his thoughts.
"No, sir, the car you've rented."
Nathan was afraid she was going to break her face she was smiling so hard. He noticed for the first time too that she'd unbuttoned the top two buttons of her uniform blouse while she'd been turned away from him. He'd already noticed that she had big tits.
"Are you meeting friends in Key West . . . or are you visiting alone?" she asked.
"A group of friends," Nathan answered, and, thanking her, he turned and left, hoping she hadn't seen the flash of pain or the lie on his face when he said that. The word "alone." It meant so much more to him now than it ever had before. And, yes, he was alone. Utterly alone. Twice over.
He was staying at the New Orleans House, right in the center of everything on Duval Street, he had been assured. He was trying the shock treatment; trying to jump back in with two feet. The young woman at the counter—quite the looker really—apparently hadn't zeroed in on the hotel address he'd given. Either that or she was terribly naïve and didn't know Key West very well. He wondered if she'd laugh or curse when she did look at it and realized what kind of hotel it was.
It didn't take more than ten minutes to get to Duval, the heart of Key West life, or to find the New Orleans House, which was on top of the Bourbon Street Pub, which Nathan would have been able to identify just from the clientele loitering around the entrance. After he'd parked and come around from the back of the place, he had to good-naturedly fend off several offers just getting through the door in the middle of the building that opened onto the stairway up to the hotel on the second floor.
The reception clerk gave him pretty much the same look and deference that the car rental woman had.
"Will yours be the only name on the booking, sir?" the clerk asked.
"Yes, I am here alone," Nathan answered, wincing again at the use of the word "alone."
"Not that it matters, of course," the clerk prattled on. "We have a very lenient policy on visitors to the rooms."
Was that a wink the clerk gave Nathan?
"That's good to know. I know there isn't much time left this afternoon, but is there a beach nearby? I've flown all the way from New York today, and I've been looking forward to dipping my toes in the water first thing."
"An appropriate one?" the clerk asked.
"Yes, if such a one exists."
"There is Higgs Beach and there is Fort Zackary Taylor Park. Both are south on Duval. For Higgs, turn east on South Street, south on White, and then west again on Atlantic. The Fort Zackary beach has areas giving more privacy." At this point the clerk definitely did give Nathan a wink. "For that, turn west on Truman and follow the signs. But it's getting late for the beach. The life will have already come up here on Duval . . . downstairs mainly . . . and I'll bet you—"
"Thank you. You say the room is right down this corridor."
"Yes. Our best. Room 21. A king with a queen loft bed and a full kitchen. And French doors out onto the balcony overlooking Duval. You did see the warning about the music, though?"
"Yes, that that club is just below and there will be music late."
"Yes."
"That's fine. I don't go to bed early, and the music will be good company."
The clerk couldn't help muttering, "The guests here go to bed at all times of the day and night, and not to sleep. And I bet it won't be long before you're doing the same. And kudos to any and all who manage it." But by then Nathan was already down the hall, out of earshot.
The room was big and was appointed as advertised. Nathan decided to take his suitcase up to the loft. The room up here was cozier and he was that much farther from the club floor of the Bourbon Street Pub below. When he had booked, he was feeling numb and had assumed that would continue until he used dynamite to get himself out of his funk, so the expectation of loud music late into the night seemed like just what he needed to help jolt him out of his lethargy and grief.
He went out on the balcony and looked down on Duval Street, which seemed to be getting busier by the moment. He heard a cat call and looked down at the sidewalk to receive an offer to come up and join him. But he just smiled, waved the offer off, and withdrew into his room. He changed into swim trunks, pulled shorts on over those, shrugged on a T, grabbed a towel, and clattered down the stairs and out onto the street in his sandals. Smiling his way through the whistles and requests to know him better, he escaped to the Audi 4, headed east on Duval and then south on Truman.
The clerk had been right—about both things. The sun was going down by the time he got out on the beach and the beach was nearly deserted. As he'd driven out on Duval all of the foot traffic seemed to have been heading toward the Bourbon Street Pub area. The clerk had also been right that there were rock outcroppings on this beach, creating pockets of privacy. Nathan found such a pocket area from where he could go down to the water and then come back and lay on his towel and be entirely alone.
He wasn't really alone on the beach, of course. The first couple of private areas between the rocks he had passed were occupied, by couples—coupling. He looked aside and moved briskly on from these. The memories were still painful to him. He was here to be alone. Wasn't he?
Each moment as he sat, knees bent up into his chest, on the towel and peered out into the ocean, moonlight shimmering off the surface of the gently rolling waves, he thought that it would be his last minute here, that he was ready to stand and return to his hotel. But he lingered, as if he was waiting for something. Why had he come out here at all? Was it because of what he'd heard about the Key West beaches?
What had he come to Key West for? Was it some sort of last-ditch effort to end this numbness? To regain feeling? To somehow find life again? To somehow bypass the pain and guilt he felt whenever he was able to feel anything at all?
It certainly wasn't to be alone. He could be alone in New York. He had been alone in New York for months.
It was time finally. Nathan moved to rise, but as he did so, his view to the water was blotted out. Someone was there.
"Oh, you're alone."
"Yes, no one else here," Nathan answered, as if conveying that whoever the owner of the voice was looking for was not to be found here.
"Do you want to be alone?"
That question was much too fundamental for Nathan to respond to immediately, and the young dark-haired man took that as a "no," entered the crevice in the rocks, knelt beside Nathan, and rocked back on his haunches.
"Hi, I'm Gene. You come here to hook up?"
Yet another fundamental question that Nathan didn't know the answer to. It perhaps was what he had wanted subconsciously by coming to Key West at all, but he hadn't openly considered the question.
"I just flew in today . . . from New York. Wanted to check the beach out."
"This beach?" the guy asked. He seemed so fresh and alive—in a cheery curly dark-haired athletic way that made anything he said sound innocent and natural. "You know what sort of beach this is?"
"I've heard," Nathan said.