I hesitate to say Beth and I were in a relationship. But we were definitely not not in a relationship. The truth of how I felt about Beth was, she scared me. Like any cool chick, she smoked, drank, and swore a lot. She had a personality that made people want to be near her, even if they didn't know her. I saw this unfold so many times, in every setting imaginable. Groups of people flocked to her, laughing as she told one vulgar story after another. The story she told most often was about how she made a "slut" lick her clit so long, the girl got nerve damage in her mouth. The best part was when she imitated the girl's voice. She would snatch the nearest drink, take two big gulps, set the glass down, and began to talk like her jaw was broken, drooling from the corners of her mouth. I suspect the tale was exaggerated, but, I also wouldn't be surprised if every word was true.
I liked that she wanted to be the center of attention. I didn't mind standing in the background, observing. She was so sexy when she commanded a crowed. It also made me a little sad for her. She drew you in so she could control your position in her world. If she controlled the how, why, and when you got close than she knew where you were at all times. To everyone else she was an immeasurable force, but to me I saw her as fragile; ready to break. This is what scared me the most. It scared me that I saw things in here that others couldn't see. Either I was much smarter than Beth, or she had sucked me in, showed me exactly what she wanted me to see, and now had me charted, categorized, and processed.
Don't think this means I was submissive to her. I wasn't. I'm a dominant guy. Every one of my relationships I've been the sexually assertive one. I've done the tying up, and the choking, and the slapping. Beth being a proper whore appreciated that in me, but she was the one who drove the car, if you know what I mean? If tonight she wanted to be bent over and taken I took her. If she wanted to squirt all over my face we did that. I had no desire to complain. How could I? She gave me things I couldn't have gotten on my own. Without Beth molesting drunk sluts from the bar and telling them "You're coming home with me. I hope you are ready to eat my pussy," the elusive FFFM foursome would have probably never been moved from my fantasy section to my reality. Lucky for me, no one could ever say no to her aggressive, take no prisoners, I'm-the-alpha-cunt-here attitude.
A week days ago, I got a text from Beth: "OMG I'm so excited Michael is coming to visit. He'll be here Thursday. I'll probably want to hang out with him Thursday and Friday night, but I want you to meet him. Can we hang out on Saturday?"
"PLEEEEEEASE!"
"Jay!! Why aren't you answering me?"
"Um, hello?"
"Asshole, I know you check your phone every 10 seconds. Don't you fucking ignore me."
"Fine, whatever. Play your stupid text mind games, Jay. I decided we are hanging out. See you Saturday!!!"
For the record, she was right. I had been checking my phone. It was a good rule of thumb to always give into Beth, but never right away. This information will be important to keep in mind for later on in my recounting of events.
Saturday rolled around, and we went to our favorite dive bar. It was the kind of place where drunk people played pool on quarter operated tables. It was the kind of place where the bartender was ten years clean from an opiates addiction but still kept in contact with all his shady connections. It was the kind of place where the security guy sold coke in the bathroom. You know, a dive bar.
I took my usual role when out with Beth, sitting back, watching her operate. "So you have known her since high school?" I asked Michael while eyeing Beth miss hit a cue ball off the side of her cue stick, a cigarette held firmly between her lips.
"Yeah, she was pretty much the only person who talked to me back then," Michael responded.
"I can see that. She is funny like that. She talks to everyone and still has a way of making you feel special."
"Yup. That was Beth, then and now."
Drinks flowed, shots were consumed. At some point Beth, Michael, and the security guy disappeared into the bathroom for a little over five minutes. At 1:45 they did last call. At 2:00 they stopped serving drinks. At 2:10 they stopped serving drinks to the regulars. At 2:30 they turned the lights up high and told people to leave. At 2:45 they demanded it. At 3:00AM, Michael, Beth and I, were all that was left. We were still sitting at the corner of the bar with three shots of PatrΓ³n, one in front of each of us. Hanging off of Michael's shoulder, her words barely understandable, Beth said, "Oh my God, Michael it is so good to see you, please don't leave tomorrow. Stay and let me be your beard, again. We will have so much fun together."
"Honey, I don't need a beard anymore. I have been out for years."
The bartender caught my attention with a glare. I nodded at her and picked up my shot glass. "Come on let's do this," I said.
Beth grabbed my face and yanked us together. Her tongue swirled deep inside my mouth. When she was finished with me she pushed my wrist up. I choked down the shot; the warm liquid burned my throat, almost coming back up. Then she handed me her shot and said, "Here, drink this. I don't think I have it in me to have another one." I flinched, and I know she saw me flinch.
Whispering in my ear she said, "Please, babe. I want you to take me home and have drunk sloppy sex." Her tongue slipped in my ear. "The kind of sex I can't remember in the morning." Her tongue went back in my ear as her hand found its way down between my legs, rubbing my cock through my jeans. "I want to wake up knowing I did a lot of bad things, not remembering what any of them were."
After that, Michael and I cheersed each other before finishing off the last two shots. Even though I emptied my drink into my mouth I couldn't swallow it all right away. Over the next thirty seconds, little by little, I got it all down, poisoning my stomach just enough for it to accept the abuse. I was relieved it would be over soon. My body was done.