"Have you had time to read my manuscript yet?"
No response. We were sitting by the pool of our house in George Town, capital of the Cayman Islands, both of us only in our Speedos. We hadn't been in our Speedos for very long. We'd come out to the pool to cool off after sex, although the sex hadn't been that heated. Collin had lain on his back on the bed, and I'd ridden his cock, rising and falling and revolving in slow motion, coaxing the cum out of him. He'd seemed distracted. I'd had to do it all. He'd seemed distracted a lot lately. We'd burned up the bed with sex when we lived in our small apartment in Manhattan and he'd been training in as an international banker and I'd been finishing up my master of fine arts in fiction writing degree.
We'd been a sexy pair then, he a British hunk of twenty-eight and me a corn-fed Nebraskan of twenty-one. We had both been athletic and figuratively swung from the chandeliers in our inventive fuck positions.
Lately, here in the Caymans, where we had everything we could possibly want, including a sexy black majordomo from Jamaica, Thomas, who was forward enough to stand at the sliding doors into the bedroom from the pool and watch us fuck, I was having to do most of the work to bring us both off. Collin hadn't changed in great looks and sexy body, for his age. It was more that he was going cold emotionallyâat least toward me. There were times when it felt like he didn't even know I was thereâor careâuntil he needed sex.
Having Thomas stand there, watching us, had actually helped me. I could move like I was performing for him and I could imagine him being with us in a threesome. I'm sure he would have been willing. He already was treating me like I was just another one of Collin's possessions, a sex toy, rather than anything close to Collin's equal. That had been rubbing off on Collin. He was making a pile of money here in the Caymans with his British bank. I was still shipping manuscripts around to agents. I'd made money off of short stories, but nothing like Collin made from hiding other people's money. Collin was beginning to remark on thatâon his view that I wasn't pulling my weight.
That was starting to intrude on our sex life, making me feel like a prostitute.
"Time to earn your keep," he'd say, and then he'd mount and fuck me.
This seemed to have given Thomas the idea that I was just Collin's whore and that he, Thomas, could treat me that way too. He'd already cornered me a couple of times, embraced me, kissed me, and told me he planned to fuck me. I probably should have told Collin and had the Jamaican dismissed, but he had started coming on to me at the same time Collin was giving me less attention, and the Jamaican was a sexy black bull. The attention turned me onâas long as I could hold the stud in check. And if Collin didn't start showing more interest in our sex life, maybe I wouldn't play as hard to get with Thomas.
"I said, have you read my latest manuscript yet? I think this one has legs."
"Uh, no, I've really been tied up at the bank. Someone's got to pay the bills."
Of course, I thought. And we were living high on the hog nowâa fancy house with a pool, each of us with a sports car, and a cook, cleaning ladyâand Thomas, the hunky Jamaican man of all services. We were out of our element still in the Caribbean, so Thomas was earning his keep.
He came out on the patio at this point with drinks for both Collin and me. He was looking good. As was typical with him on this tropical island, he was only wearing baggy white cotton trousers and sandals without socks. He was tallâsome six and a half feet, and muscular, an ebony god. The waistband of the trousers rode low on his hips. I loved the look of the line running down from each side below his six pack, under the curve of his hard underbelly, pointing at the goods, when his trousers were dipping low enough to show the curls where his pubes started. Any false moves and the pants would cascade to the floor. He gave me a look and a wink, reminding me that he'd just watched me, naked, riding Collin's cock, and strutted back into the house.
"I've received a check from
Chicago Literary Journal
," I said. "Twelve hundred dollars."
"Great," Collin said without looking up from the papers he was sifting through. "We can fix the roof on the gazebo now."
That, of course, was a put down on my financial contribution here. He didn't really directly say I was sponging off him and was only here now as a sex toyâone he didn't make full use ofâbut there always were little jabs like this.
"Do you want to read the manuscript before I start sending it around? You always were a great help in pointing to plot holes and technical issues." That had been true in the pastâwhen we lived in New York. Not so much here in the Caymans. He'd read a few, without commenting much and eventually stopped showing interest altogether. He once had been enthusiastic about my writing. It was a big reason I went with him to begin with. I hadn't gone with many older men before him.
I did go with older men, though. If I got it on with Thomas, that would be out of my lane. I increasingly was thinking of getting it on with Thomas, though. From the Jamaican's treatment of me, moving into a master-slave attitude, I'd say Thomas was increasingly thinking of us getting it on too. From observing how submissive I could get when Collin went commanding and dominant, I'm sure Thomas was learning how to top me.
"We'll see if I can free some time for it," he said, still not looking up.
That meant a "no," of course. Good thing I had other copies of the manuscript. He likely didn't even know where he'd last left the copy I'd given him. Time to ship other copies without his help.
"Should I tell the cook you'll be here for lunch?" I asked.
"No, I think not," he said, standing and stretching. "I have to go into the office. Dinner will have to be late too. I'd best get dressed and get out of here now." He was a handsome manâand he kept his body lean and muscular. I couldn't complain about his capabilities in bedâwhen he employed them. He hadn't changed his sleek form. We probably still could swing from the chandeliers during sex. It's just that we didn't. And I was too young and randy still not to want to. I'd always gone with the older men, but they'd always been men who were still greatly experienced and skilled.
I think for Collin, the pleasure of the game had receded and it had just become relieving the need to evacuate his balls regularly.
At the sliding glass doors to the bedroom, he turned and said, "Thanks for the nooner. You're still a sweet lay. I'm not sure I know where I put your manuscript. Do you have another copy?"
"Yes, sure," I said. "I'll put a copy on the nightstand on your side of the bed." We had separate sides of the bed now. In New York, we just had a twin bed. We both slept in the middle.
I waited until Collin had gone to his room and was changing into a suit. The bedroom opened onto the pool terrace, so I knew everything he was doing in getting ready from the sounds. I didn't dare turn my head and look. I had been devastated by his indifference. He surely could have seen thatâif he had looked at me. But he'd just prattled on about the weekend plans, which all sounded like business, and said he had to go into the bankâwhich I knew, as he was always going into the bank. This was especially so when we got anywhere close to talking about this fissure that was yawning and widening between us.
Thomas padded out with another drink. I couldn't look up at him because there were tears in my eyes. I wanted to wave him away. Another drink was the last thing I needed. I was resorting to "just another drink" too much of the time now. He stood there briefly, looking oh so muscular and sexy, but then turned and went into the house.
When I knew Collin was gone, I stood and looked down at the drink. The last thing I needed at this moment was more alcohol. I picked the drink up and drained it in one go. I went into the bedroomâour bedroomâand sat at the vanity, looking at myself in the mirror. I could see the tears in my eyes, and that's not all I saw. I saw the fissure that was developing between Collin and me in all its yawning breadth. What had happened to us? We had been so happy in New York when we'd had practically nothing.
Here in the Caymans we had everything. But of course that was the problem. That was numbing each of us to the other.
I folded my arms on the top of the vanity and lay my head down and let the tears roll.
I don't know why I didn't jerk and move away when Thomas came close behind me and put his hands on my shoulders, or when he murmured that it would be all right, that he knew what I needed. Nor did I recoil from him when one of his hands glided down my chest and he palmed one of my pecs, worked his fingers into the light brush of curly hair there, and teased out a nipple. I flinched and gave a little groan when he pinched the nipple and rolled it, signaling that this was serious foreplay to laying me, but I didn't pull away from him. Nor did I pull back when he cupped my chin with his other hand and gently raised my head, turning my face up to his, and gave me a long, lingering look before he took my lips with his.
"Thomas, no, this isn't what we should be doing," I whispered.
"It's exactly what we should be doing," he answered. "You're not getting what you need."