I went to the bar with a mixture of excitement and trepidation. I'd been thinking about it for a long time and I still wasn't 100% sure I wanted to do it.
The thought of it at times gave me a raging boner, at others a sense of shame and disgust.
I'd fallen asleep at night fantasising about it and woken up in the morning with a wet patch on the sheets beside me having dreamed about it.
I'd tried to forget about it. Put it out of my mind, but the thought of it always returned. Sooner or later I caught sight of a muscled torso, a tight ass or a bulging crotch and I was caught in the alternating trap of lust and shame.
I'd come to the decision that I had to do it. Just once. It would either draw me in or repulse me for good.
So here I was, standing outside a gay bar, my cock already semi-erect, trying to make the decision to either go in, or walk away.
At last, with a deep breath, I walked through the door and sat down at the bar to order a drink.
The barman flashed a friendly smile as he came to serve me. He was wearing the tightest black t-shirt and I admired the way it clung to his manly form as he poured my drink.
There were only a few people there to begin with, sitting in groups of two or three around the bar and I drank my first pint quickly, the thought already running through my head that I should leave.
That's when Brad came and sat beside me.
"Hey buddy, buy you a drink?" he asked.
"Er... um... okay," I stammered.
His handsome face broke into a broad grin at my obvious awkwardness. "Haven't seen you around before."
"Er no. I'm from out of town. I'm only here for the weekend."
"Cool. So where you from?"
"Erm... Newburgh."
He grinned again. "Let me guess - you're in the closet and come to the big city to have some guy-on-guy fun?"
I felt my face flush. He laughed and placed a hand on my knee. "It's okay buddy, I won't tell anyone!"
I smiled sheepishly. "It's not quite like that..."
"Oh no? What is it like then?" I felt my crotch tighten as his hand moved further up my thigh. He must have seen it...