As a middle-aged man with a divorce behind me and a newly found openness I had begun to explore my fascinations with gay sex.
Throughout my marriage my ex and I had explored lots of things together but never got beyond the talk when it came to me and a guy. Our sex fantasy conversations had developed many scenarios and, at the time, I had felt that it might happen, that a casual meeting in a bar or an old 'friend' of hers, or some other circumstance would lead to another man in the bedroom for us to share. But it never did, and my slowly growing urges had to be satisfied by her teaching me how to blow her dildo, her filling my mouth with my cum that had just filled hers and her slowly teaching me how to take her pegging.
I loved it all. To this day, were we to ever hook-up again, I know it would come up and she'd be fascinated to know, "have you?' she'd say, "have you sucked a real cock?"
But that won't happen, and she'll never know what has.
What did happen was both scary and so exciting. It happened in stages over the course of a couple of weeks and started with a normal hook-up with another man. We'd met on-line and while the undercurrent was definitely sexual, I'd been open with him before we met about my inexperience.
We met at a nice, dark restaurant and sat chatting at the bar. Sharing our stories, opinions, and beliefs, talking politics one minute, football the next. The three or four drinks we had certainly loosened me up so when he invited me to his place for the next drink I said "sure, I'd love to."
I followed him for no more than a mile into a lovely neighborhood on the intercoastal. The house was what you'd expect in an expensive subdivision; a beautiful Florida ranch with cool tile floors, lots of windows and a pool that was lit in that dark, sexy, party way with the sensual glow of the pool lights.
We sat in the patio chairs, and he told me the story of the house. Until his divorce he lived there with his wife but when they split, he was able to keep it.
Julian got up and said, "sit tight, I'll fix us a drink?"
A minute or two later I heard him come back and he placed two drinks on the table next to me, leaning over from behind me. He stayed there for a second and then touched me, in what I could tell was an "invitational" way his hand rested on my shoulder and, sensing no objection, he slowly massaged my collarbone and moved his hand gently down my chest. I just sat there, did nothing, gathered my thoughts and enjoyed it. I knew that this would be the night, the night that I'd hold and touch and suck a cock, after all those years of fantasy and talk, I would soon know what it felt like to take a cock in my mouth.
And it was sooner than I thought. He walked around in front of me picked up our drinks and toasted "to new friends". I took a sip of my drink and leaned forward, his crotch not even an arm's length from me. I moved to edge of my seat and ran my hand over his cock, and slowly unzipped him. I wanted his cock in my view, I wanted to take it out and touch it, so I undid his belt, his buttons and gently, with a little help his cock and balls were free. He wasn't hard yet, but I sensed there was some excitement there and, for a moment I just looked, I stared at the head of his cock with its lovely soft, shiny skin, at his balls that looked so plump and cleanly shaved and leaned in. I wanted to do nothing but open my mouth and feel that cock so I didn't touch it, I just moved forward onto my knees, I placed my hands on his hips and opened my mouth to take all of it in.
For what seemed like, at the same time, both an eternity, and a fleeting few seconds, I learned how to give a blow job. I don't know if it was a good one or not and frankly, I was less concerned about his pleasure than mine. How can sucking someone's cock be so enjoyable? Why did I not learn this sooner? How can I do this again. I want to do this every day!
It wasn't long before we were completely naked, outside in the humid Florida night. Kissing and sucking and stroking. "Let's go to my room" he said. And we did, the chilled air feeling great on my naked body, as we climbed on his bed, he laid down and I laid on top of him. It struck me as odd for a moment that this was just the same as laying on a woman as we kissed so passionately and ran our hands over each other, feeling our cocks hard against each other's. We romped around for a while with so much oral sex and '69's but never once did I feel as though that was enough cock in my mouth. I wanted more.
I rolled on my back, at his request, and tipped my head over the edge of the bed. "I know what this means." I thought. I'd done it with my wife so many times and I opened wide so that he could fuck my mouth, at his pace, and be as hard or gentle as he wanted. I loved it, that feeling of submissiveness, of 'use me', that opened throat for him to force his cock down. He took it gently to start, slowly fucking my mouth, easing his cock in and out very slowly and deliberately, my tongue wrapping his shaft and feeling each gradual move. The pace went up and down, he got faster and faster and then stopped, only to start slowly again but go further and test me. "How much cock can I swallow" I thought as he pushed himself in all the way, and he stopped, with his balls on my nose and pulsated, throbbed gently in my throat. "Was he cumming" I wondered?
He wasn't. At least not then. I enjoyed the intimacy, I enjoyed kissing and touching and so enjoyed sucking but what I learned that I enjoyed most was being used. Becoming what would turn out to be a 'cum slut'.
I slid off the bed and assumed a position that in the coming weeks I would learn to love. I knelt in front of him and sucked him more, but this time I was taking the lead and doing what the girls always do in the porn movies, sucking and jerking, caressing his balls and his ass, looking at his face and saying, "I want you to cum in my mouth". And he did.
I can't say that I wasn't a little scared at the thought of cum being pumped into my mouth. I shouldn't be, I've tasted my own cum many times, mouth-fulls from my wife dripping it in, spitting it in, kissing it in. I shouldn't be because I've cum in many mouths before and never had a girl who didn't like it. But when the moment came it was great, and it was a lot. I felt the pressure building up, literally and figuratively with the groans and the pace, and when it came, that first fast spurt, I was holding his cock tight with my lips, I felt the pressure release on the roof of my mouth and then I pulled back and held his cock tightly just away from my face, with my mouth wide open so I'd see the second pulse shoot from his cock. It flew across my face and into my mouth, into my eye and hair and then, for the third and final stream I took him back in and let the cum, more slowly this time, fall on my tongue.