As a middle-aged man with a divorce behind me and a newly found openness I had begun to explore my fascinations with gay sex.
Throughout my marriage my ex and I had explored lots of things together but never got beyond the talk when it came to me and a guy. Our sex fantasy conversations had developed many scenarios and, at the time, I had felt that it might happen, that a casual meeting in a bar or an old 'friend' of hers, or some other circumstance would lead to another man in the bedroom for us to share. But it never did, and my slowly growing urges had to be satisfied by her teaching me how to blow her dildo, her filling my mouth with my cum that had just filled hers and her slowly teaching me how to take her pegging.
I loved it all. To this day, were we to ever hook-up again, I know it would come up and she'd be fascinated to know, "have you?' she'd say, "have you sucked a real cock?"
But that won't happen, and she'll never know what has.
What did happen was both scary and so exciting. It happened in stages over the course of a couple of weeks and started with a normal hook-up with another man. We'd met on-line and while the undercurrent was definitely sexual, I'd been open with him before we met about my inexperience.
We met at a nice, dark restaurant and sat chatting at the bar. Sharing our stories, opinions, and beliefs, talking politics one minute, football the next. The three or four drinks we had certainly loosened me up so when he invited me to his place for the next drink I said "sure, I'd love to."
I followed him for no more than a mile into a lovely neighborhood on the intercoastal. The house was what you'd expect in an expensive subdivision; a beautiful Florida ranch with cool tile floors, lots of windows and a pool that was lit in that dark, sexy, party way with the sensual glow of the pool lights.
We sat in the patio chairs, and he told me the story of the house. Until his divorce he lived there with his wife but when they split, he was able to keep it.
Julian got up and said, "sit tight, I'll fix us a drink?"
A minute or two later I heard him come back and he placed two drinks on the table next to me, leaning over from behind me. He stayed there for a second and then touched me, in what I could tell was an "invitational" way his hand rested on my shoulder and, sensing no objection, he slowly massaged my collarbone and moved his hand gently down my chest. I just sat there, did nothing, gathered my thoughts and enjoyed it. I knew that this would be the night, the night that I'd hold and touch and suck a cock, after all those years of fantasy and talk, I would soon know what it felt like to take a cock in my mouth.
And it was sooner than I thought. He walked around in front of me picked up our drinks and toasted "to new friends". I took a sip of my drink and leaned forward, his crotch not even an arm's length from me. I moved to edge of my seat and ran my hand over his cock, and slowly unzipped him. I wanted his cock in my view, I wanted to take it out and touch it, so I undid his belt, his buttons and gently, with a little help his cock and balls were free. He wasn't hard yet, but I sensed there was some excitement there and, for a moment I just looked, I stared at the head of his cock with its lovely soft, shiny skin, at his balls that looked so plump and cleanly shaved and leaned in. I wanted to do nothing but open my mouth and feel that cock so I didn't touch it, I just moved forward onto my knees, I placed my hands on his hips and opened my mouth to take all of it in.
For what seemed like, at the same time, both an eternity, and a fleeting few seconds, I learned how to give a blow job. I don't know if it was a good one or not and frankly, I was less concerned about his pleasure than mine. How can sucking someone's cock be so enjoyable? Why did I not learn this sooner? How can I do this again. I want to do this every day!
It wasn't long before we were completely naked, outside in the humid Florida night. Kissing and sucking and stroking. "Let's go to my room" he said. And we did, the chilled air feeling great on my naked body, as we climbed on his bed, he laid down and I laid on top of him. It struck me as odd for a moment that this was just the same as laying on a woman as we kissed so passionately and ran our hands over each other, feeling our cocks hard against each other's. We romped around for a while with so much oral sex and '69's but never once did I feel as though that was enough cock in my mouth. I wanted more.
I rolled on my back, at his request, and tipped my head over the edge of the bed. "I know what this means." I thought. I'd done it with my wife so many times and I opened wide so that he could fuck my mouth, at his pace, and be as hard or gentle as he wanted. I loved it, that feeling of submissiveness, of 'use me', that opened throat for him to force his cock down. He took it gently to start, slowly fucking my mouth, easing his cock in and out very slowly and deliberately, my tongue wrapping his shaft and feeling each gradual move. The pace went up and down, he got faster and faster and then stopped, only to start slowly again but go further and test me. "How much cock can I swallow" I thought as he pushed himself in all the way, and he stopped, with his balls on my nose and pulsated, throbbed gently in my throat. "Was he cumming" I wondered?
He wasn't. At least not then. I enjoyed the intimacy, I enjoyed kissing and touching and so enjoyed sucking but what I learned that I enjoyed most was being used. Becoming what would turn out to be a 'cum slut'.
I slid off the bed and assumed a position that in the coming weeks I would learn to love. I knelt in front of him and sucked him more, but this time I was taking the lead and doing what the girls always do in the porn movies, sucking and jerking, caressing his balls and his ass, looking at his face and saying, "I want you to cum in my mouth". And he did.
I can't say that I wasn't a little scared at the thought of cum being pumped into my mouth. I shouldn't be, I've tasted my own cum many times, mouth-fulls from my wife dripping it in, spitting it in, kissing it in. I shouldn't be because I've cum in many mouths before and never had a girl who didn't like it. But when the moment came it was great, and it was a lot. I felt the pressure building up, literally and figuratively with the groans and the pace, and when it came, that first fast spurt, I was holding his cock tight with my lips, I felt the pressure release on the roof of my mouth and then I pulled back and held his cock tightly just away from my face, with my mouth wide open so I'd see the second pulse shoot from his cock. It flew across my face and into my mouth, into my eye and hair and then, for the third and final stream I took him back in and let the cum, more slowly this time, fall on my tongue.
My wife was especially good a blow jobs and one of the things she often did was just hold my cock after I'd cum. Not with her hands, but gently in her mouth, she'd let the hardness relax for several minutes in the warmth and softness and move her tongue slowly as the orgasm waned. I did that. I loved it, and after a few minutes I was sucking gently on a soft, worn out, satisfied cock.
The next time we hooked up, a week or so later the fun expanded to real penetration. I'd never been sure about who's a top and who's a bottom, or whether you can be both but my sexy ex's escapades with her dildos had led me down that path. I'd always loved the feeling of her dildo anal play; she'd start off easy with a small one and work up through her collection to larger and larger ones.
After we divorced, I'd bought myself a few to do the same thing. Occasionally I'd have an anal masturbation frenzy; I'd prepare properly and then, over an hour or two fuck myself silly with all sorts of toys. I love the realistic ones and the way they slip in and slowly expand my ass and the completely different way that I get excited. I can do this for hours without my cock reacting ; it's a totally different pleasure.
So, when we got together the next time, I wanted that, I wanted my ass pounded and wanted to feel his cum squirting in my ass and the pulsing of his cock inside me. Which is what happened, after an evening fueled by a few drinks, hanging around naked for hours and a lot of cock sucking. But it was what we talked about for our next meeting that got me going.
We, Julian and I, met for a drink as we had planned with a few of his friends. I knew the plan, and I knew these 'friends' were also fuck buddies, and I knew that we'd end up back at his house. What I didn't know was the fun and craziness that would ensue.
There was no holding back when, after a few drinks we went back to the house. Two of the guys, stripped down and got in the pool right away and I was fascinated, seeing their cocks swinging around, their openness and casualness. While Julian started fixing drinks I was talking with the others and one of them suggested we all get in and swim. "Oh yes!" I thought, all these cocks, nakedness, casualness, "let's go!"
The rest of us stripped down dropping our clothes just where they fell, there was this openness about checking each other out, as each piece of clothing was removed, it was almost in unison as we all stood there naked, what seemed like sighs of anticipation, as we checked out each other's cocks. Or perhaps that was just me; I'd just seen two "new" cocks get in the pool and now, here I was standing in front of two more, the excitement just ran through my body.
We were all in the pool, talking and, I think, playing with our cocks when Julian walked out with a tray of drinks. He'd dressed up! And oh-my it was sexy, kinky and, just wow! He strutted out from the sliding doors wearing heels, fishnets and one of those little very, very short stripper schoolgirl skirts that's more like a frilly belt than a skirt and so short that his cock was completely visible swinging away as he walked. But that wasn't everything, the 'piece de la resistance' was the tits. He was wearing a set of those silicone boobs, the life like ones, and they looked almost real as they bounced around with his steps, then, as he served us all drinks they swung and drooped almost naturally as be leant forward to hand each of us our cocktail.