"Do you want another glass of wine?"
"Oh, yes, please."
I didn't want our first date to end. This night with Jordan was amazingāhe was gentle, romantic, smart. Saying I was afraid before joining him was an understatement. This was my first date ever. Maybe some people would think that at twenty years old it was time, but I wanted to take my time, find the good one. Yes, I was romantic like that.
We had met on an appānot the most romantic way to flirt, but I was incapable of going outside to meet people. My shyness was often overwhelming, and I would have just made a fool of myself. The app was a mess of bizarre people, and I had received countless pictures of cocks and asses, and messages insulting me of things I couldn't in good conscience repeat here.
One-night stands, offering myself to someone I didn't know, were not my thing. Since forever I was dreaming of some sort of Prince Charming. A guy who would take care of me and love me before acting on it. So yes, I might be a little ashamed to admit it, but I was still a virgin.
"Did you enjoy our dinner, Ruben?"
"Yes, the food was delicious, this restaurant is amazing and... you... you're great."
"Oh, thank you." Jordan was smiling, his perfect white teeth shining, his face illuminated under the pink-orange gradient lightāabsolutely handsome. He intimidated me when he arrived at the restaurantālooking so confident, piercing me with his dark brown eyes. For a moment I felt like my soul was nakedālike he could see it. I was petrified, shaking, ready to run back home, but he approached me, like he was floating over the ground, in his impeccable suit, and put his hand on my shoulder. Darkness and coldness surrounded me, but his eyes were entrancing. "Don't worry," he said, and all became clear and easy. I still couldn't understand how he managed to reassure me like that.
"Well, Ruben, I have enjoyed this moment with you very much as well, and..."
He let the words flowing in the air. Oh God, he's going to say You're cute, thanks but no thanks.
"...If you agree, I would like to see you again," he continued.
"Oh."
"Are you surprised?"
"To tell you the truth, yes. I - I may not be very self-confident."
"You should, we had fascinating conversations for the past two hours, and you made me laugh a lot. Would you walk with me? I don't live far from here."
"Hum... yes, I guess."
"Don't worry, it's not what you think. When we are there, I'll call you a taxi. All right?"
I should have said no, I wanted to. For our first date, I didn't want to take any risk. But his eyes made me shiver, and I couldn't refuse.
He put his hand on my wallet when I reached for my credit card. "Let me invite you."
"Oh, no, you don't have to."
"I insist, please. You can invite me the next time."
I smiled and thanked him. God, I didn't want to look like a fool, but the codes in these situations were stranger to me. Did that make me the submissive guy somehow? Did that make him the man? Anyway, I barely had any money on my account, so it was for the best.
Cold enveloped me as we left the restaurant, stinging inside my nose like glass. Like an idiot, I hadn't taken a coat, too afraid to sweat. Stress and physical effort were not a good combination for me. When Jordan saw me shivering, he removed his own jacket and put it on my shoulders. He approached his mouth to my ear. "I wouldn't want you to get cold." The sound of his voice went through me like thunder. It reached my ass and my balls, and I became uncontrollably aroused. What was happening to me? I didn't want thatāappearing as easy, as someone who sleeps on the first night. I retook control of myself, and we walked along the street. This is when I truly realized the differences between us. He was tall, athletic, with dark brown hair. I was small, skinny and dirty blond.
Under torture, I wouldn't be able to recall how the trip to his house went. I just remembered that I felt light and happy, but nothing else. And what was this unknown sensation in my belly? Looking at him was impossible, or I couldn't be able to control myself.
"Come to my home." He said in my ear.
No, I needed to resist. But why couldn't I? I wanted to go to my home, but I stayed stoic. He reached his hand to my cheek, rough but without hurting me. "You will come to my home, Ruben." Cold terror filled me. This was becoming very wrong, and I didn't want that. Please.
But I was like out of my body, unable to control it.
I followed him inside.
...
At least the terror had dissipated when I sat on the sofa, next to Jordan, a glass of red wine in hand. Strangely, I didn't want to leave anymore. Jordan hadn't jumped on me when we had entered the house and was still nice. For now.
The decoration was modestāa sofa, a coffee table, and some abstract paintings on the wall. It was rather cold. He put his glass on the table. "Okay, Jordan, now that you have decided to come into my home, I need to test you."
"W-W... What?"