Warren Savage only visited the Hayden saloon and required Cal's services one more time during Cal's temporary work there. He was a bit more demanding and rough on the repeat than the first time, and Cal sensed that this was something that would build in intensity until something gave—probably Cal's life. He knew that law was so raw out here on the edges of civilization and Savage was so powerful here that he could get away with murder if he wanted to. Thus, although the totality of the taking attracted Cal on some level, and he was forced to say it was what he wanted, which only egged the man on, he was relieved that he was only at the Hayden saloon temporarily and thus didn't have to worry—much—about where it was going.
Despite Levi's advice to neither become attached to any of his customers nor to give his favors away for free, Cal met Frank more frequently. Never in the saloon again, but three times, in the morning, across the Yampa on land of the Double O ranch. They met in a lean-to in a gully Cal could get to on foot that was there as an emergency shelter in case one of the men was out on the range in the winter and was overtaken by a storm before he could get to one of the more permanent buildings scattered about the ranch.
Whoever got there first stripped and lay on blankets under the low, sloping roof of the lean-to. They would embrace and kiss and grope each other as soon as they met, making full use of every minute available to them. Whoever had arrived first would start off on the bottom. The first time Cal arrived first and Frank, stripping off outside the lean-to, came down between Cal's spread legs and lifted his knees with his own knees. He leaned over Cal's body, his hands around Cal's neck, his thumbs stroking under Cal's chin, and his forehead plastered against Cal's forehead, the two of them locking eyes to fully capture the effect of the coupling on each other. Cal's hands moved between their bellies, and he stroked both cocks together as they engorged. Then he rolled his pelvis up and guided Frank into him, giving a little cry at the thickness and strength of him—and then at the length of him as Frank pressed in and in and in. He stroked slowly at first, and Cal moaned deeply, a sound that was cut off by Frank's lips finding his.
Innnn, and outtt, slowly at first. Then increasing in speed and intensity. Cal grabbed Frank's buttocks and dug into the flesh with his nails as Frank pounded him, both of them lost in the fuck.
The second time Frank was there first and Cal straddled his pelvis and rode the cock.
The third time Cal almost left before Frank finally arrived, thinking that perhaps he had the date or time wrong. And when Frank did arrive, he seemed disconcerted and he fucked Cal roughly, in a more primeval, businesslike way like their first copulation rather than like the previous two hot, and almost romantic, couplings in the lean-to.
"Is something wrong, Frank?" Cal asked. He felt he knew what it was. Cal's time at the saloon was coming to an end. Frank would be wondering where, if anywhere, the two went from there in what could become more than casual fucking.
He was completely surprised and dismayed by the answer, which wasn't something he'd been prepared to hear. Once hearing it, though, he knew that he'd been stupid and shouldn't be surprised.
"I've seen Andy Reeder from up at the lumber mill on Hahn's Peak. You know Andy Reeder, don't you?"
"Oh," was all Cal could say. Yes, he certainly knew Andy Reeder. He knew him from Milo Mather's mill; they had worked side by side on more than one occasion. And he'd seen Reeder just two days previously—in the Hayden saloon. Like the other mill workers, Reeder had left the mountainside until tensions between the cattlemen and the sheep men and homesteaders settled down. Reeder had seen Cal in the saloon, and he'd found out what Cal was doing in the saloon.
For the life of him, however, Cal had not imagined that Frank and Andy Reeder would ever meet up and, even if they did, that they would have a reason to discover that they both knew Cal. Now he could see that that had just been wishful thinking.
"Reeder tells me you live in the Slater Creek valley—that you are a sheepman."
"I live there, yes. And I live on a sheep ranch, yes, although we're switching to farming. But I was adopted. I have no stake in the sheep; I'm just living with an old man there who is no threat to the cattlemen. I doubt he'll have an opportunity to be a threat to anyone very long."
"I can't be consorting with no sheepman," Frank said. "If Savage found out, I'd be a dead man. So would you. This has got to be the end."
Cal processed this and sat on it for a minute, but then he answered, with a sigh. "It would have been the end, or close to it anyway, Frank, wouldn't it? I finish in Hayden and go back to the valley in a couple of days."
"They won't let you back in the valley."
"I got out of the valley when they weren't letting anyone in or out. I'll get back in. I can't just leave the old man there."
"What's the name of this ranch you live on?"
"Round and about it's known as Heaven; but it says Paradise on the signpost. But it's neither, Frank. As soon as the old man can be convinced to leave or . . . or dies . . . I'll be moving on. Maybe into Hayden."
"To be a fuck doxy?"
"Maybe and maybe not. That's how you found me, Frank. That's how you've used me. Does it matter so much now?"
Where was this coming from, Cal wondered. Frank had always been so impersonal about their fucking, giving the impression that he was just taking his pleasure on Cal's body—for free now. Cal was getting what he wanted out of the coupling, and it's true that he was having feelings for Frank. But Frank hadn't shown any indication that it was more than just a good fuck for him.
Frank didn't say anything. He just moved away from Cal and reached for his trousers and shirt.
"Or does what matter is that I live with the sheepmen? Would it make it even worse if you knew that before that I lived with the Arapaho? That I was raised by them? That I'm no better than a half-breed. You're a half-breed, Frank. How do people look at you? As who you are, inside, or do they only think of you as a half-breed?"