Hi guys, sorry for such a late upload.
I have been very busy these past weeks as I am finishing two books (this one and My New Personal Assistant) as well as writing enough chapters ahead with two new books I will be releasing here in some time - Why Him of All People?! and Co-Worker in Heat (Own-me).
I will try to post chapters again according to the schedule.
Thank you for your patience, and enjoy :)
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Chapter 14 - I've missed you
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That guy really hasn't contacted me. At first, I didn't care, then I was pissed as he was absolutely fine with knowing about Karl's lover, but I was still his dirty secret. A few days passed, and I cooled off and decided not to care about that.
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My days returned to my old ways, and I got over it. Well, that's bullshit I wanted to believe, but I tried. I kept watching Kyle's stupid dance in the kitchen and jerked off many times to those videos we did that day. It would be pathetic if I cared about labeling it.
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I talked with Chad, and he told me that Kyle had already called him a couple of times since Chad was indeed rebuilding his basement and some parts of the house, and Kyle sent him some designs. How cute. I was curious how did that look for me to be officially calling Kyle so often. Well, if he still does have Chad saved as me.
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The month rolled by, and then I got a text from him.
"Hi, bro. You going to the boulder Friday?"
I just replied with a simple "Yeah."
"Cool, are we still up for that basement afterward?"
"Sure. If you want."
"Great, I will see you at the gym!"
"Sure, can't wait," I said sarcastically into an empty room and threw the phone on my bed. I knew I wanted to see Kyle, but at the same time, maybe I should listen to Don. At New Year's, Karl called Don for like half an hour. I am not usually petty but when I got single "Happy New Year's, bro" text from Kyle, I was pissed. I realized how much it hurts watching a guy you care about from across the fence being happy with a prick that doesn't deserve him. Fuck all this...
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Friday, Jan. 10th, 2020
Friday came, and for the first time in years, I stood in my shower and stared at the bottle of douche, seriously determining whether to use that or not. I have no idea why I brought it in the first place, and I was really weirded out with everything going on in my head these past couple of weeks.
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"Hi, Fred."
"Hi, Ross. Finally, the whole team together?"
"Everyone's here already?"
"Yeah, they're up."
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I went after them. Kyle looked good. Fuck! He looked great! He already wore clothes for climbing. His arms were bulging, and that tight slacks were driving me crazy. His face was one huge grin, and he bro-hugged me enthusiastically.
"How was the month without me?" he grinned and talked as if my buddy was teasing me.
"Cool. How's your family?"
He rolled his eyes and said, "Fine."
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We had a good session, and Kyle was excited about the progress I've made in the time he was gone. I tried to be neutral, but I think it mostly came out as me just being rude...
I went to shower with Zack and Stan and was dressed by the time he came out.
The guys looked like nothing was amiss, but Zack looked suspiciously at us, and Kyle definitely knew something was wrong. I could see it in the way he was watching me.
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We said bye to the guys, and Kyle got into my car.
"Okay, what is going on, Ross?"
"Nothing." I started the car.
"Right... I've missed you."
"Really?" I didn't even look at him.
"Well, yeah..."
"Well, you could have called."
"I didn't want to risk that."
"Sure, and how you managed to call Chad? Didn't Karl wonder that I called you?"
"I changed the names after leaving that day."
"I see."
"Are you jealous?"
I looked at him, and he smirked.
"No, just pissed."
"Good, we are getting somewhere. So why are you pissed?"
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I stayed quiet until we reached my house. "We are here."
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I stepped out and tried to calm myself down. I was torn between pinning him down and kissing the life out of him or slamming the door in his face and blocking his number. I don't even know why I cared so much, but I cared a fucking lot.
"You know that he has someone, right?" I didn't even look his way and just walked in.
"Who does?"
"Stop it, Kyle. I am a fan of open relationships. However, you should know that I worked with Karl, and I know he doesn't need to be working overtime in December."
I went to the kitchen and ruined my favorite ritual with this conversation. I washed my hands and pulled out things for meal prep. Kyle automatically followed me and frowned.
"I don't see how that is any of your business, Ross."
"Sure is not. I am just baffled that you're okay with Karl having someone, but you can't tell him about me."
"Are you the same person that made me a speech on that couch about not expecting anything from me?"
"Fair enough. So how did you decide?"
"On what?"
"You said you will try not to think about me the whole month. How did that go?"
"I tried, but as you can see, I am here."
I just scoffed and started chopping the poor vegetables in front of me.
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"I was going to ask you if I could spend the night, actually."
"Why? Karl's at Don's for the weekend as every year?"
Dead silence. As I thought.
I looked at him, and he stared at me in utter horror. It would be funny if it weren't so messed up.
"What did you just say?"
"You asked how my month was. Well, honestly pretty fucked up. At first, I was pissed thinking that the fucker was cheating on you. Cos, you may not know what Karl does, but you forgot I was working under him, so I know fucking well that December is the month when we pretty much chill out. So I forced my friend to look into CCTV to be sure before I would think whether I should tell you."
His mouth was agape, and I just turned back to my chopping board.
"Not like it's my business or I ever cared enough about anyone to act like an absolute moron, but let's leave that aside. I found out that Karl is fucking my good friend. Not only that. That poor bastard loves him for some reason and was brokenhearted when he found out Karl got engaged. I suppose you know why? Cos Don is not fucking good enough for Sinclair's stuck-up parents!" I looked at Kyle with contempt and turned back again, too riled up to stop myself and try to settle this like a normal person.
"I got into the most awkward conversation with my friend as I tried to convince him that I was not looking for some dirt on his precious boyfriend when I told him I saw them."
I took a deep breath, but it was no help whatsoever. I've been on my own emotional rollercoaster these past three weeks.
"Not only that. I've been told that his fiancé knows about all this and they have a kind of arrangement. But said fiancé doesn't mind spending twenty minutes in a room with Karl while he calls his boyfriend at midnight, but there is no way he would send me something more thoughtful than Happy New Year, bro. While he's got me saved under the name of a guy, again - not good enough for his posh family! So what I got from that is that you don't mind Karl fucking around, but for some reason, I am still your dirty secret."
I exhaled and put the knife down.
"Man, if I get to fuck you, I will destroy that hole!"
He crossed his arms in front of him.
"Now look at who is acting like a crazy woman."
"Don't fucking push me, Kyle." I looked at him furiously.
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Kyle watched me for a little while and then sighed and put his palms against me. "Ross, seriously, let's just stop."
"We haven't even started, man. But I am honestly considering if I even want to."
"I don't get it. Most of the guys you sleep with are married, as you said yourself. So now that you know Karl has someone, I am no longer interesting enough?"
"There is a huge difference if I fuck someone or that prick already made me develop feelings for him. I wouldn't mind having you as revenge prize, but you kept fucking with my feelings, dude."
"And what happened to that: You not gonna break up with him, and I would think you were naive if you would, so I will protect my feelings first!" He said in a deep mocking voice.
I threw the knife in the sink and turned to him with a fierce look.
"How long did you really date Karl?"
"Why?"
"I want to know who that fucker cheated on first."
"Why?!"
"Cos I care about Don!"
"What business is that of yours?!"
"I want to know what is happening!"