I was twenty-six years old. My parents had raised me to be a Christian child, and I had always regularly gone to church. I was also secretly gay. I knew that if I came out to my parents, they would shame me and never talk to me again. Going to church just reminded me of the fact that it was considered wrong to be gay.
I just moved out of my parents' house, quite far away. Waking up on Sunday mornings and not having to go to church was pretty relaxing... at first. Then the guilt settled in. I finally found a church nearby and decided to go there starting this Sunday.
When I arrived, I introduced myself to the pastor and told him that I was looking for a new church. He directed me to the young adults group and told me to make myself feel at home. I looked around for an empty seat and sat down.
I looked around at the people who were here. There were quite a few girls, but I was really looking at all the men. There were two other men beside me.
The first one was short and skinny. His face was quite attractive, but his body was just not my type. He was sitting alone.
The second one was tall and well built. The second I laid eyes on him I knew that I wanted him. His perfect brown hair fell neatly on his head. His button-up shirt complemented his biceps very well. I couldn't resist peeking at his crotch in his blue skinny jeans. He was talking with many of the girls there.
I snapped out of my reverie when the speaker clapped to get silence and said good morning. He told me to stand up and introduce myself, and I did so. Throughout the whole message, I only thought of ways to introduce myself to the handsome man. I didn't even realize the sermon was over and it was already noon because I was lost in my thoughts.
"Hey."
It was a snap back into reality. I looked up from my chair and there he was. The perfect man was standing in front of me, and he was talking to me.
"Uh... hey," I said nervously.
He smiled at me. "My name's Timothy, but you can call me Tim. It's nice to see you here. We don't have many guys in our group, so it's great that you joined."
"Yeah, thanks... nice to meet you too. My name's Nathan." I was dazed at his wonderful body and I couldn't stop looking.