In the following chapters, I describe my first adventures with men. Maybe some of you will recognize the experiences and feelings. It is an account of what happened during the last half year, including a few disappointments.
I am 60 years old, married and grandfather. My wife and I had a good sex life till about 5 years ago. Since then she is hardly interested in sex. Even when we still had sex, I used to masturbate from time to time. In the last few years this has become an almost daily habit again, just like it was when I was a young guy.
During many years when I watched porn I always liked to watch women getting butt fucked doggy style. My wife never let me fuck her ass. A few years ago I realized that I actually wanted to be the one being penetrated. This feeling became stronger every day.
I had been using anal toys when I was about twenty-five years old but stopped with that as I married. But a few years ago, I again began using butt plugs and a dildo, usually when my wife was out. The first time I was very embarrassed to enter the sex shop but the seller did not seem to be surprised to see me, despite my gray hair. I started with a modest size butt plug but soon returned to the sex shop and got the bigger stuff.
I liked to fuck myself with the dildo, but usually I did not reach an orgasm by doing so. It is just the feeling of penetration that I liked so much. The largest butt plug I used only got inside after I sat on it for half an hour, relaxing my ass and gently pushing on it. When it was finally inside me, it was an incredible feeling. I liked to walk up and down the stairs with the plug massaging my ass as I walked. The problem is that playing with the toys only made me hornier and longing for a real cock.
Last year, I decided that I had to have the real thing. I was now 60 years old, and waiting any longer would mean that I would never have it. When I go to the gym and shower, I like to be naked among other men, but it is not easy to find a partner there.
I checked for a gay dating website and placed a short text that I was looking for a man to fuck me. Soon I got a response from a guy who was interested to do it. We made an appointment.
He arrived in his car after I had been waiting for half an hour. He was much younger, about thirty years old. I had expected to have this meeting in his apartment or someplace like that, totally nude. But he was married and had no place available. He said he knew lots of places in the area where we could do it in the open air. As we drove around to look for a quiet place, it was clear that he had not expected to meet such an old man like me anxious to get his first fuck. He told me that he would be gentle with me.
He stopped the car at the end of a road not far from a farm. He asked if I wanted to suck his cock. I would like to suck and swallow but some other time but not today. So we had no oral sex. There was no foreplay at all; I was not really interested in it anyway. I was so horny and nervous at the same time that I just wanted him to fuck me.
It was summer and nice weather. We found some bushes to stand behind and he opened his pants. I felt his cock. It was not very big to my regret but stood very hard. It was the first time I felt another man's cock. He said, "Let me see this ass of yours." I have rather a big butt. Without hesitation, I dropped my pants. I had told him that I wanted to be fucked doggy style so he had me bend over. I gave him the condom and put lube on my ass.
He held my ass cheeks with both hands and stuck his cock in me. His promise to be gentile with me was forgotten. He fucked me fast and pushed me forward deeply. I almost fell so I had to hold the ground while he was pounding me. I wanted it harder and was bucking my ass, milking him. I felt like a whore. Here I was standing, a married man, bent over in the open air, offering my ass to a guy whose real name I did not even know!
You may understand how strange this was, how nervous I was but also how horny I must have been to do this. He finished very fast and shot his load in my ass. A few seconds later we heard voices. A woman and child came along on their bicycles. I don't believe they saw us behind the bushes. Anyhow, I pulled my pants up very fast, it was a bit of an anti-climax. I believe I saw him throw away the condom. He asked for a tissue, he did not bring anything at all. Later, I thought it strange that I had to bring the condom, lube and cleaning tissue.
He asked if I did not want to cum, but this time, I really only wanted to be a bottom, just fucked hard and deep. I did not have an erection; I was too nervous. Being naked for a strange guy, offering my ass was enough. As we returned to his car he began asking where I worked and all kinds of questions like that. When I posed him similar questions, he evaded straight answers and clearly was lying.
