(All characters are over 18)
It had been more than a year since I broke up with Lucas. I couldn't take him off my head even though I was the one who broke up with him, a decision that I regretted since almost the beginning but was too much of a pussy to say something about it.
He had a twink now, a very pretty Latino called Diego. And I assumed the role of best friend, hiding my jealousy.
The only way I found to deal with the situation was to become a slut. I would go to clubs on the weekends, find a big hunk with dark hair that was close enough to Lucas and would let them use me up.
Lucas couldn't know about this. The reason I broke up with him was because I thought I didn't want to be a bottom anymore. Our relationship was pretty even in that regard, but it had seemed like neither of us wanted to bottom. I decided to put an end to it. But a few weeks later, I was missing him to much I realized I actually was just afraid of assuming the most submissive role only because I enjoyed it too much.
If Lucas found out, he would probably think I had problems only with him, that he was not good enough. Plus his twink boyfriend would make him stop being my friend.
On a Sunday morning, Lucas knocked on my door while one of the big hunks was still in my place. He screamed my name and woke me up, instantly putting me in panic mode. My ass was burning from the treatment the night before. I looked at the stirring body who had caused all the trouble, a 6'2 god made of muscle and a big cock which was half-hard from morning wood.
"Shit, what time is it?"
"2 P.M." I said, looking over the clock by the nightstand.
"Fuck, fuck!" he got up and begin to dress up. His cock dangled all the way until he put on his boxers briefs. "Who the hell is knocking?" he asked. "You don't have a boyfriend, do you?"
I shook my head.
"He's my ex. Long story. Just a friend now. I should've met him an hour ago for lunch."
Gustavo raised his eyebrows but said nothing. I was reluctant to go answer Lucas, knowing that there was no way to hide such a big juicy guy.
"Goddamn it, Roger. Why did you take so long?"
"I was sleeping!" I said, rubbing my eyes. I took a good look at Lucas, wearing a white shirt and blue shorts. He looked like a lot like Gustavo, but Lucas was more handsome in my opinion, with his brown curls and green eyes.
"It's two in the afternoon."
Then Gustavo showed up behind me. Lucas's eyes went wild and I had a quick moment of gratification before it turned to irritation.
"Gustavo? What the hell!" Lucas shook his hand.
"You know each other?" I asked.
"I was about to ask the same thing," he said.
"We just met Yesterday," Gustavo said. I could tell that Lucas was forcing a smile.
"Well, I'm sorry to interrupt, you could've said something on the phone..."
"No, no, I'm just leaving, dude," Gustavo said, grabbing my shoulder as a goodbye. "Nice seeing you, Lucas. How's Diego?"
"Working."
Gustavo nodded. "Well, bye. Call me," he told me.
After he was gone, Lucas got inside.
"Let me, huh, just take a shower and dress up. It'll be quick."
"Sure, buddy," Lucas said, turning his back and going to the kitchen. He was familiar with the place. "Sorry again for interrupting," he called back. There was something in his voice but I couldn't be sure what.
I was not a twink. I was almost as tall as Lucas, just as jacked. But somehow I was still intimitated. It was one of the things that impressed me about him. I got off the shower and put on a blue shirt and light brown cargo shorts. I fixed my blond hair back. Truth be told, I was stalling. My heart was beating fast. But when I met Lucas, nothing seemed to be wrong and we went to have lunch and spend some time together.
After we ate, we went to the mall because he wanted to buy something for Diego. I stood outside the store, wondering if he would watch a movie with me, when I got a text from Gustavo.
It was actually a screenshot of a conversation between him and Lucas.
Lucas: hey man i know it's weird but im curious cause i know you are a top like me and roger
Lucas: we've been friends for a long time and he always says that he doesn't like to be bottom
Lucas: did you top him?
Gustavo: It's weird.
Gustavo: And none of your business.
Then Gustavo sent me a 'WTF?'
I almost asked him to lie and say I was the top, but it would be even weirder.
I apologized, agreed that it was weird, and told him to ignore it, that I was going to deal with it. Thank God, Lucas wasn't close by.
I didn't consider myself a socially anxious person, but the embarrassment I felt was like walking on cracked glass.
If I lied to Lucas, would he go on to tell Gustavo about it? Would Gus tell him the truth then?
What if I didn't say anything? I loved this idea.
Lucas bought his boyfriend a gift, then we went to the theaters. It didn't look like he noticed my worry. I stuttered only once when I asked if he would go back to my place. He said he couldn't, Diego's shift would be over soon.
That same day, around 9 o'clock, I got a call from Diego. He asked if I knew where Lucas was, and after I denied, if I would please call him if Lucas showed up or talked to me in any way. I got worried and asked what happened. Diego told me they had a fight but didn't explain any further.
I tried calling and texting, but Lucas didn't respond. I was worried. Lucas had seemed happy and even bought Diego a gift. What could have made them fight? Did I have something to do with it?
I sighed, then, and sat on my couch, ordered a pizza and watched TV. Suddenly, I shaked my head. I realized it was wishful thinking. Lucas and Diego were a couple, and I would have to accept that. Even Diego's worried phone call to his boyfriend's ex was a clear indication of how much those two trusted and loved each other.
My phone ringed.
"Lucas?" I said, so quickly I had to catch my breath.
"Hey, Roge." His voice was husky and calm. "Diego called you, didn't he?"
"Yeah, he asked about you. Are you okay?"
"Of course. I gotta apologize to him. Just snapped at him for no reason, just stress, you know?"
"You seemed fine today, why didn't you say something?" I relaxed against the couch, closing my eyes, with Lucas's deep voice right by my ear.
"Don't worry about me, Roge. I'm gonna talk to Diego now, alright?"
I felt a cold twist in my chest.
Please, talk to me a little longer.
"Alright. Good luck, buddy."
I stayed in the couch, mind numb. I just waited for my pizza while letting the TV distract me. The doorbell startled me.
I opened the door and stared wide eyed at Lucas, who was on the other side and definitely wasn't delivering any pizza.
"Can I come in?" he said.
"S-sure," I said, opening the door wider. He was wearing the same white shirt and shorts. We sat down on the couch side by side.
"I thought you were going to talk to Diego."
"I did. He's so great. I was such an asshole. He even cried because I told him to shut up and stop acting like a girl."
"That...wasn't nice."