Parallels with real life folks, entertainment purposes only.
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I stayed at my brother's place for a few days to play with my niece and just in general be brotherly. You know, minus the sex but that was only a minor technicality. I let Carey know I was going to stay in New Jersey until Thursday so imagine my lack of surprise when my phone got a text message at 3am on Wednesday.
'Richard, you're still here, right?' I had reached over, bleary eyed to grab the phone, my playbook falling to the side and on the floor. Falling asleep while reading seemed to be a habit I couldn't shake, even though my wife always gave me a glare that could melt steel when she woke up with a binder in her ass crack.
That's as good of place as any I figured. I typed carefully on my phone, still mostly unconscious. 'Yes. Need anything?'
It was a few minutes and I almost fell back asleep before my phone beeped again. 'Could you come visit?' Carey asked, followed by an address. His house. Hmm. This could get interesting indeed.
'Nine AM,' I typed simply, rolling back over. Ashley made a noise but I just draped an arm across her waist and pulled her close. I wasn't going to wait for a response because I didn't need to. Even if his coach requested him at practice, I knew he'd make up an excuse. I wasn't to be ignored. Carey knew that.
My only question: What exactly did he want?
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I toweled off my hair, staring at myself in the mirror. "What are you doing, Carey?" I said out loud, resigned. The absolute last thing I should've done was ask him to come here. I hadn't slept for a few days, the bags under my eyes standing out more than usual, my eyes themselves blood shot. And it was all because I didn't know what to do.
I knew what I should do. Tell them that this Game was over. Turn my back on all of this and just chalk it up to a moment where my faith faltered and faltered mightily.
Problem was, my faith didn't just falter-it was shaken. Unsure. It was intact enough to make me question what I was doing but not so solid to refuse or forget. That was the core of the problem. The day when I just went willingly with no questions asked, no hesitation, I knew I had to stop. Then I was lost. Completely and utterly lost. I didn't think spiritually I could accept that.
Though when the doorbell rung, I was unsure if I had failed already.
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When Carey opened the door, he looked like hell...if one would pardon the description. "You haven't been sleeping," I surmised as he invited me in, shutting the door quietly behind me.
"No, not really. But it's been enough," he assured me, looking down. "I didn't mean to wake you up last night, I just..."
"Needed to say what you wanted to before you lost your nerve," I filled in the blank. Carey winced and I smirked, eyeing his dark blue basketball shorts and worn through tank top I'm pretty sure he'd had since his time at university. "I was born but not born yesterday."
His face turned to steel for a moment, intense and slightly angry. "I never said that," he said hotly before taking a deep breath, looking away. "Why-how do you do this to me?"