We kissed our hellos, Kerry being one of my oldest friends. It's always so good to see her, she's knows me better than anyone. My wife has never been jealous with us being friends, in fact they get along very well. But Kerry and I have always had a special bond.
She's always seen right through my bullshit. I tried to pick her up in college, but she always shot me down. I think that just made me like her more, and we ended up being great friends. We've always been able to talk about anything, giving each other advice on the most personal details of our lives. It was on one of those nights, drunk on too much rum, that I let slip my secret desire to be with a man.
She wasn't even taken aback, telling me she could totally see that in me. Even in my inebriated state, I was nervous as hell to share that with her. But she wasn't fazed, and it really felt good to be able to discuss these hidden feelings with her.
Even after I met my wife and got married, and Kerry got married as well, we would still chat about my curiosity whenever we would get together. It was liberating for me, having an outlet for this pent up lust of mine. And it had only gotten stronger over the years.
Kerry encouraged me to be open with her, and it got to the point that she would refer to me as her gay friend and we would check out guys together. It always made me feel so amazing, so freeing, like I could finally let this secret side of me out. And it doesn't need to be said that I always left our get togethers horny as hell. Sometimes I would jerk off in my car before driving home, the lust boiling over. Other times I'd go home and fuck my wife like a man possessed. In a way I guess I was.
I always looked forward to seeing Kerry, and this time was no different. We sat together chatting like old girlfriends, and then she said she wanted to talk to me about something.
"You know, you've been curious for years now, don't you ever wonder what it would be like to finally go through with it?"
"Sure, I guess." I replied. "But I'm married, plus I don't know if I'd actually have the nerve to do anything."
"Well I think you owe it to yourself to find out." she said. "It's been so long, I think it's time you finally took the plunge."
"But..." I stammered.
"And I've found just the right guy for you." she said. "He works in my building, and I've told him all about you. He knows you're married and will be very discreet. He's gay, about your age, very handsome, nice body. I told him I'd give you his info and you'd call him to chat."
I sat there stunned, my stomach flipping over. I couldn't believe she too such an initiative like this. So many emotions were washing over me. I was so excited, yet scared as hell. Could I really do this, meet a guy for sex? God the thought was making me so hot. Kerry could read every emotion on my face.
"Don't be mad, I just want you to explore this side of you. I know you're scared, but this is something you want, deep down. Life's too short, take a chance. This could be a real turning point for you."