I've heard it from guys before.
"I'm a loner. Don't need anyone. I like it this way." He's laughing. I love the sound of his laugh; but I call bullshit.
"Everyone needs someone in their lives." Dustin looks taken aback. He did not think I would challenge him this way.
"Not me." He's looking down as he answers me. He obviously does not believe his own lie. "I just like sex. No hang-ups. No attachments. Sex." We have known each other since grade school. Dustin is one hot looking eighteen year old now. He was hot then. Now he's a scorcher.
"So the stuff you and I do - nothing more than hookup sex? No feelings? No deeper desires?" He looks at me like he hurt my feelings. His hand is reaching for my shoulder.
"I...let's just jerk off, okay?!" I find myself uncontrollably shaking my head from side to side. As much as I enjoy sex play with his hot young body, I need more from him. A lot more.
"You can get milked by someone else. Go see if Jerry or Kevin are home." Now Dustin is the one who looks hurt. I have a point to make here. If I crumble and give in to his total pull on me...
"I want you." Fuck. Those stunning blue puppy eyes. Be strong Kyle.
"Then tell me the truth, Dusty. Why do you want me? Not about my body. Me." He looks like he's about to cry. Damn. I don't want to break him!
"Because I know that you want me. Other guys just want me for sex. You want me...for more. But it's more than I can give back, and I'm sorry." Now we're getting somewhere.
"Why. Why can't you give back?" I'm sounding less angry, and more sympathetic now. He starts to sit on the edge of my bed. I sit next to him. Close. Our thighs are touching. It's a hot summer day; and we are both in cutoffs and muscle shirts. Dustin has the more muscular body, with light blond fuzz everywhere that matches his head hair. He is always working out with weights or chest bands. We weigh about the same, but he looks bulkier. Our genetics are similar. Same height at 5'10". Same weight at about 160. He just looks more jacked than i do. Who cares, right?
"You're my bestie, Ky. No one knows me better than you do. But..."
"But what?"
"I can't. I just can't!" Shit. my bud is hugging me hard. That's not the problem. He's bawling like a baby! Great going, Kyle - open up Pandora's Box; and now you have to deal with this!
"Hey. It's cool. Let's just forget it. It's okay." Dusty and I have kissed. We have sucked each other to the point of orgasm, and jerked our cocks to completion. The two of us have even taken to my bed, and rubbed our bodies together - man was that hot! Once, when my cock brushed on his hairy crack, he told me to stick it in. I just wasn't ready then. I am now.
"No. You deserve more. Listen. I have a tough time trusting anyone. I trust you, K, but overall, in my head, I can't let trust fool me again." Wtf is he talking about?
"I don't get it."
"Years ago, when you and I first started to make out, you remember, just the touching stuff..." Oh, yeah, that was so hot back then. I nod. "Kevin and I did stuff too. Only one day he pushed me to do more." He's biting his lip and clamming up.
"Like what?"
"He wanted to fuck me. I said no. He is way stronger than you or me." True. Kevin is a big guy. Biggest in our class. "He flipped me over and got on top. I started to curse and wriggle away, but he held me down."
"Did he do it?" I really hoped he did not do it to Dustin. I wanted to be his first. Hearing this for the first time has my sympathy sparking up; and my dick is chubbing at the prospects. I feel ashamed.
"No. His mom came home and yelled at him to come down and take the groceries from the car. We both got dressed real fast. He slapped my ass as we went downstairs; and I helped him take the bags in. Before I left, he told me he would never force me like that again, but I was really traumatized. Not so much that we stopped fooling around. But I have not trusted anyone since."
"So you kept the sex and held your heart closed?" He nods.
"But you trust me, right." He nods again. "Will you let me help you get over your fear?" After a long eye-lock, my Dusty leans in and places a gentle kiss on my neck.
"Yes."
Part 2 -
I have a twin bed. It's an extra long mattress. Big enough for me when I sleep, but a tight squeeze for two - just the way I like it.
"Let's do something different, D." He is wide-eyed. "Let's make love. We know each other's bodies pretty well by now. Our hot spots are no secret. You know that I totally love the way your pits turn me on. And I know how much you love getting my precum to flow onto your tongue. So let's go all the way." He looks excited and apprehensive at the same time. I will not coerce my friend. "You can stop us at any time, D. I will never hurt you." He is nodding as he lifts his shirt up and over his wavy blond hair, tossing it to the floor. I do the same. He and I always show up commando when we know that we will fool around. So when our cutoffs hit the floor, we are good to go.
"Okay. Then I get to choose positions." I nod. "You said no to me before, when I wanted you inside of me. I said no to Kevin when I wanted it to be you." So that's why he said no! My jaw just slacked a bit in surprise. Guess I should have known.
"I'll get a condom." As I get up and head for my dresser, Dustin pulls the blanket and top sheet off my bed and gets onto his belly.
