Did porn transform me? It's hard to tell. But after years of watching blowjobs I noticed that I was focusing more on the big cocks than the beautiful women.
I would stare at them and wonder what it felt like to bob up and down on one. What the head would feel like in my mouth. Feeling the throbbing as it came. I eventually started wearing lingerie and fantasizing about giving a blowjob.
But I could never go through with it. I'm straight and I like girls. I just like to wear their clothes. I'm not attracted to guys, but I can accept that a big cock is hot.
I kept falling asleep imagining a cock in my mouth. One night at 2am after tossing and turning, I opened up Bumble on my phone. Were there any guys I could actually imagine touching?
I changed my profile over to men. I kept swiping left and felt very underwhelmed by what I saw. There was no one to be interested in. Oh well, it was just a stupid fantasy anyway.
The next day I was still curious. I opened up my phone and started swiping again. Left, left, left 20 more times...hold on a second. He's not too bad. Pretty attractive, normal looking, nerdy, and talked about liking Dungeons & Dragons. He's married and looking for guy to hang out with. Hmmm. Maybe...
I looked at his picture for a while wondering if I would ever be able to go through with something like this. I nervously swiped right to see what would happen. I waited the rest of the day, and was slightly disappointed when I didn't match. But what were the odds that one swipe would work. Throughout the week I would occasionally look, but swiped left on everyone.
A few days later I was sitting at my computer working. *Ding*
I looked down at my phone and saw a Bumble notification. I opened it up and was surprised to see Dungeons & Dragons guy had sent me a message. I got nervous and felt my cock swell up.
We started chatting. I told him I was curious about Dungeons & Dragons and would like to learn. And eventually the messages started getting sexual. "What are you looking for?" he asked.
"I'm curious about watching porn and jerking off with someone. Maybe working up to sucking cock." I said. Then asked, "How big is yours?"
"9 inches."
Did he just say 9 fucking inches?! Holy shit, I wasn't expecting that. I have a nice size cock, but not 9 inches! "Can I see it?"
He replied with a pic that made my mouth water. It looked like it was straight out of a porn video. I sent back a picture of mine.
"Damn, yours is nice too!" he said. "So, my wife is going out of town this weekend. Wanna play D&D?"
"Ya, definitely!"
Then we made plans to play on Saturday. It would be nothing sexual, just getting to know each other and playing the game.
Saturday came around and we decided it would be best to get a drink first. We met at a bar, and I was nervous. I was meeting a guy who I've talked about sucking cock with. He showed up and we shook hands like normal friends. Everything seemed very normal, and we talked about normal things. Then he asked if I was ready to play.
"Sure, let's do it!"
We went back to his house and I saw he already had the game set up on a table. We sat down and he started explaining everything to me. But I kept having flashes of the 9 inch cock, so I was having a little trouble taking it all in.
After explaining the rules, we started playing, and I almost forgot all about his cock. We played for several hours. Dice rolling, fighting monsters, learning about characters. It was great. His wife called to check on him, and he said I was still there and we were almost done the campaign.
When we finally finished, I said, "That was awesome, we'll have to do it again."
"Definitely. I'll try to come up with a new campaign. Do you wanna have a drink and watch some TV before you leave?"
"Sure, sounds good." I said. I was having a good time and was in no rush.
He made us a drink and we went into the living room and started watching TV. After about 10 minutes he got on his tablet and started doing something. His tablet connected to the TV and a hot blonde girl sucking cock popped up in front of me. "Is this ok?" he asked.
"Sure", I replied and nervously sipped from my glass. I had no idea what to do, I thought this was just game night!
We sat there sipping our drinks and commenting on the girls in the video. I was getting more and more turned on. He said, "Looks like you like her."
I glanced down and saw my pants bulging. I quietly said, "Ya she's hot." Then I saw him gently start rubbing his crotch. I didn't say anything, but I couldn't take my eyes away.
A minute later he was taking off his pants. "Is this ok?" he asked.
"Yes..." I responded as I watched his cock grow in his boxers.
I kept watching while hearing the sucking noises in the background. "Do you mind if I see it?" I asked.
He responded by pulling his boxers down and exposing an enormous cock. It looked even bigger in person. All I could say was, "Wow." I stared and dropped my pants and boxers to expose my own cock.
I sat there touching myself and staring at his monster cock. At one point saliva dripped onto me and he noticed. We both started laughing. "Do you want to suck it?" he asked.
"I don't think I'm ready for that yet." I responded. But I kept watching. Then asked, "Can I touch it?"
He didn't say anything, simply removed his hand from his cock. I slowly reached over and grabbed it. I gently stroked it. It was warm, and huge in my hand. It felt amazing! Again all I said was, "Wow."
As I stroked I felt his hand move onto my cock. And I couldn't stop. I jerked and watched, and listened to the sucking sounds of the porn. His cock was so big. I stared at it intensely, and somehow got closer and closer until I kissed the head. I tasted precum on my lips, and couldn't believe what I just did. I backed away and kept stroking.