This story contains graphic sexual content, strong language, and has a lot of very strong sexual content in it such as Crossdressing, Kitten Play, Fingering, Mirror sex, Handjob, Begging, Size Difference, Size kink, Butt-Plugs, Creampie, Aftercare, and Subspace. Mentions: Free-Use, Somnophilia.
Fun fact: Aspen is Demisexual; only feel sexually attracted to someone when they have an emotional bond with the person. Also, Mykal's honorific is Alpha, I just wanted to do something different than the traditional ones.
All characters depicted in this story are over eighteen and have fully consented to everything that is happening.
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A S P E N
Mykal had gone out with Ezra to do something. Aspen had been distracted when Mykal explained everything in full detail, but he got the main points down. One, Mykal was going to do something outside of the house. Two, Mykal would be with Ezra, and three, from the moment he walked out the door, he only had three hours before he would return home. Aspen sucked in a deep breath and swallowed around a knot that'd formed in his throat, his eyes squeezed closed as he stood in front of the giant mirror that was built into the wall. He was convinced that this was a dumb idea.
It wasn't even just dumb this was next-level dumb. Especially because he couldn't really remember when Mykal had left, nor how long had passed since he'd gotten showered and dressed. He was just standing anxiously in front of the mirror while Cameron did his hair, trying to avoid looking at himself but also insanely curious. He felt off, but not really in a bad way, either. He didn't really know how he felt.
Aspen was surprised by the amount of arousal he was feeling at the softness of the lingerie caressing his skin, and the feeling of the skirt hitting the top of his thighs was making his heart race. He couldn't stand to look though, he was too embarrassed. He had been so sure about this when he'd asked Cameron for his help, but now he just wasn't sure. Cameron pulled off looking feminine, but he probably wouldn't. And if Mykal saw him and he looked ridiculous... that was a horrific and embarrassing thought that somehow made desire burn hotter in his veins. He felt himself stiffening in his panties, his breath catching in his throat at the sensation of the soft fabric against his cock as he shifted a little. This was a bad idea.
"Aspen, you're turning blue. You have to breathe, darling!" Cameron chattered as he ran his fingers through Aspen's hair. Aspen let out a shuddery breath and bit his lip. "You are so pretty, I'm so jealous of your hair. It's so soft and bouncy." Cameron said as he pulled a section of his hair back and carefully put a rubber band in it, copying on the other side so that he could have a place to clip in the ears. Aspen squeezed his eyes tighter as he felt them slip onto place on top of his head.
Aspen wasn't sure what had made him decide to come up with this surprise anyway. Maybe it was simple curiosity, maybe it was because he thought Mykal would like it, or maybe it was just that Aspen had spent a year and a half watching Mykal's streams and fantasizing about him taking Cameron's place. Okay, that sounds bad but that wasn't how he meant it. He obviously wouldn't picture himself in Mykal's place given that he was the one he wanted, but it still made him feel bad. He'd been so envious of Cameron because he was everything that Aspen had always wanted to be but was much, much too shy to be.
Aspen wanted to be stronger and more confident like Cameron, but Aspen was painfully aware of his own movements and comments so much that it made his skin crawl. Any moment spent around anyone he was unfamiliar with and he became a stuttering, confused, jumbled-up mess. His anti-anxiety medications worked somewhat, but even so, it wasn't foolproof, and he still had anxiety on bad days--and around groups of people, and when he was alone and outside. Mykal helped a lot with his anxiety though. When Mykal was around, he felt infinitely safer than when he was alone, so even if he felt anxiety it wasn't as bad because he knew Mykal would take care of him.
"Alright, I think I'm done with hair and makeup. Are you ready to look?" Cameron asked, and Aspen stiffened. He had to look ridiculous and he was cursing himself. This was ridiculous, he was ridiculous. The outfit was a maid outfit--Cameron and Ezra had picked it out together, and it was short and skimpy, definitely barely covering his panties and he could feel the collar of it around his throat, but it was loosened enough that it didn't seem to be hindering his ability to breathe like he had first thought. He could feel the weight of the bow tied around his neck resting on against the white shirt, and the tops of the thigh-high stocking around his thighs--and the garter belt resting on his hips. He couldn't look.
"I have to look so silly," Aspen said, reaching his hands up to cover his face. Cameron wrapped his hands around his wrists before Aspen could put his hands on his face.
"You look beautiful, and I know Mykal is gonna love it!" Cameron said, pulling his wrists down so that he didn't mess up his makeup. "Look, I know it's probably going to sound super dishonest because I dress so femininely now, but there was a time when I was only comfortable doing it when I was alone. And there was a time when I felt like I'd look ridiculous too."
"Really?" Aspen asked, unclenching his eyes a little.
"Yeah. And you look much better than I did my first time I can guarantee that." Cameron said with a giggle. "I have to go, you said three hours and it's been two and three quarters. I need to get out of here before Myk gets home and discovers your surprise. Aspen, you look wonderful and Mykal is going to love it. Just take a peek when you feel ready, okay?" Cameron encouraged him and Aspen nodded, gulping a little.
"Okay," Aspen said softly, and Cameron patted him on the shoulder softly.
"I will text you tomorrow to see how things go," Cameron promised, and Aspen nodded again. "Every outfit we've picked out so far has been a hitter. It doesn't matter what you wear, Mykal loves it," Cameron said, and Aspen blushed and nodded.
"You're right," Aspen said, and Cameron giggled.
"Obviously! Now, I'm going to get out of here. Talk soon!" Aspen nodded and bit his lip as he tried to relax. He was too focused to even hear Cameron's footsteps as he walked out of the room and the sound of the door shutting behind him. He had a mantra he was chanting in his head: He could do this. Over and over again in his head until he could convince himself that he could. Aspen had never really experienced attraction before he'd stumbled onto Mykal's content so he really didn't know much of what he was doing. He'd always longed for the release of subspace, and Mykal had content that helped him get there even if he wasn't aroused. He had always had the urge to submit, but growing up and not really being attracted or aroused by anyone kind of made him come to think of his pleasure as secondary--but being able to put himself into the headspace of a submissive in combination with the way Mykal's voice calmed him down had him hooked.
After a little time, he'd even started getting aroused by it and that was exciting for him. But it coincided with him developing a crush on him. It had taken him time--as he listened to him, he sounded so kind and in control, so strong and admirable--but he'd managed to emotionally connect to him somehow. As Aspen had never really been attracted to anyone, he wasn't really bothered by the fact that it seemed impossible for him to ever get him, he was just relieved that someone had caught his attention. He would've probably kept just listening to him forever if he hadn't of heard Mykal speak in class that one time. Everything inside of him had tightened up when he heard his voice--he had immediately recognized him but he was so flustered he'd panicked and had no idea what to do. Mykal had exceeded his expectations and he'd come to realize that his pleasure wasn't secondary, it just came from a different place.