I wasn't worried about Kyle. He would contact me. I couldn't contact him. He needed to come to me, figuratively and literally crawling back. It had to be him begging to me. And it would be. The only question was how long it would take him. I sat back. It would be bad to lose him, as I certainly had become attached to him. I thought about that. I had let myself fall for him more than I should have. That might be a mistake on my part. Boys can come and go, and I shouldn't want one to stick around and be devastated if he left.
I could survive if he never spoke to me again, but it would leave me feeling empty. I took a deep breath. Damn, he had better come back. I actually glanced at my phone, then over at his place. I couldn't see in his windows from this angle, but I knew he was over there, feeling hurt. I wanted to comfort him, but he needed to ask. I could take his pain away, and afterwards it would be better for both of us. This was part of the process I had to put him through. He had to know deep down that I was free to do anything I wanted, and he had to accept it. This was going to wrench his guts, but on the other side, he would be more submissive and more tied to me.
A few hours passed, it was hard on me, but I knew it was much harder on him. I'm sure he was in pain. I was proud of him for not folding in minutes. He wasn't a wimp, just submissive. He was showing a form of strength in holding back, and where I could get irritated at him for making me wait, I wouldn't. I did want him back in my arms however.
[Why?] He texted. It was late, but I had been waiting. He wanted to know why I had someone else in my apartment.
[He's one of my boys. I can't ignore any of my boys, can I?] I replied.
[How many boys do you have?] He texted back. I thought that would be a question on his mind.
[Don't worry about that. You are one of my boys, so I won't ignore you either.] I texted to him. He didn't need to know how many guys I had. I'd have to do some counting anyway. He just needed to know he was one of them.
[I'm just someone on your string?] His text made me think that I couldn't reveal that he was special for me.
[I don't string people along. You're my boy, I care for you.] This is hard to relay via text. It was true, even if I cared for him more than I should.
[But you have so many!] I could almost see the tears on his face as I read his text, he was getting a little irrational now. Let's see if I could turn this the way I wanted.
[My dick ever seem distracted when you were sucking me?] Hopefully this message would shift his mindset, let him think of my dick.
[No] A simple reply from him.
[I'm always totally with you when you're here. All of me.] I don't text much, but I have do this for him now.
[It's so hard to think of you with other guys.] He wanted me all to himself, of course.
[You don't have to think of that when you are with me. Or anytime, actually.]
[But I know!] In my mind, I could see the tears on his face.
[And I know I don't think of them when I'm with you.] That was true enough, sometimes I couldn't even think of him so I could hold back my cum.
[Yeah...]
[When I hold you in my arms, you are safe and all mine.]
[I so want to be in your arms right now.] Jackpot. I had gotten him thinking about my body and let his gonads start pulling on him.
[What's holding you back?] Let's see what he says.
Nothing for a short bit. [Will you let me? Come over?] I was ready to type up that he could when a new one came in. And it was the best yet. [Please].
[Yes, get over here.] I got up to be at the door. His adding 'please' meant he really wanted to be in my arms again. I had flipped him. Getting him physically in my arms was the next step. He would feel me, smell me. The trauma would cause him to be turmoil, and I could guide him right where I wanted him.
I heard his steps coming up the stairs. I opened the door as he go to the top. He catapulted himself into my arms. I held him tight for a bit, letting his head rest on my chest. He was holding me tight, his muscles showing their strength. "It's all right boy, it's all fine. I'm here." I kissed the top of his head.
"I hurt so much, but I can't be without you." Kyle sobbed into my chest. He was crying. I hadn't noticed when he showed up, but he couldn't speak without me hearing it.
"You're here now, where you belong. With me. Always with me." I gently pulled his head back and wiped his tears away. Then I kissed him, deeply. I pulled him to a chair, holding him tight. His head curled down on me chest again. As much as I'd like his lips on my cock, this was not the time for sex. He needed me to just hold him, and I did, letting him come to terms with everything.
"So you still want me?" He sounded small, confused.
"Of course, you are my boy, I would never of messaged you if I didn't want you. Getting to know you has made me want you more." All true, and he needed to hear it. I do have a huge capacity for wanting men.
"I've been a damn fool, haven't I?" He wasn't looking up at me, he was still looking at my chest.
I moved, shifting us both. My hand raised his head up. He kept his eyes down. I tapped his jaw with a finger. He knew what I wanted. He took a deep breath and looked me in the eyes. I saw fear, not like he was worried I would hit him, but that he had disappointed me and worried of the consequences. "Yes, you've been a damn fool."
Kyle shifted a bit in my arms. I continued "You can trust me. I won't let you be harmed." Harmed and hurt are two different things. "You are my boy, I take care of my boys." I stroked his hair. "Right now, you are the only one I'm thinking about. You are my boy, the boy in my arms."
"I like being in your arms." Very sweet of him. After what he had been through, he needed some simple time in contact with me.
"I like you in my arms. All comfy?"