I tried to close my eyes but all I could see was Mike's face. I had not realized how much time had passed until I saw the morning sunlight entering my room. I had spent the night laying in my bed, sobering up and trying to rationalize the events that had happened that night. I could not find an explanation. I could not use the beer as an excuse, because I was attracted to Mike before getting drunk. I could certainly not say that he raped me or forced me to do anything against my will in any way. I could not say that I was just horny and wanted to fuck someone, regardless of their gender. All I could say was that I definitely wanted to have sex with Mike again. I wanted to kiss him, I wanted to touch his body, I wanted to hold him, and I wanted to make him moan. I was feeling particularly possessive over him and his body. I wanted to have him in my bed every night and hold him until the morning. All these thoughts combined with my morning wood made me want to touch myself. I realized that I had not even cleaned my hand after Mike came on it and this thought intoxicated me. I brought my hand to my face and inhaled deeply.
A long moan escaped my lips and I slowly moved this same hand down my body until it reached my dick. I turned on my side and shove my face into the sheet where some drops of Mike's seed had fallen and started stroking myself. I felt like an animal in heat desperately wanting to mate with its partner. I imagined myself as a wolf that was trying to remember Mike's scent so I could find him and make him mine. My hand was moving fast, and I was breathing heavily into the sheet, almost growling. I did not know whether my behaviour was that extreme because I had finally felt the warmth of someone else's body for the first time, or because there was something in Mike that made me think that he was my destined one and I had to make him mine at all cost. My heavy breathing turned into moaning. I felt that I was close and stopped moving my hand. Instead, I started moving my hips. I was humping my own hand imagining Mike's touch. My eyes were closed, and my mouth was open. I wished I had tasted Mike last night. I wished I had licked his body more, remembering his taste. My body was moving on its own. My desires had taken control, my mind was blank. My hips stopped moving and I growled. I came thinking about holding him again. I came dreaming about having him on this bed again. I came and I wanted more.
***
I was just getting out of the shower when I heard my phone ringing. It was from Peter.
'Dude, where did you go last night?'
'Sorry man, I was not feeling well, and I went home. I will grab something for breakfast and come back to help you clean. Do you want something?'
'Em, if you could buy about 10 coffees and some food you would be a lifesaver,' he laughed.
'Sure man. I will be there soon.'
I got dressed and went out. I remembered there was a bakery near the store where Mike works and decided to go there. On my way, I was thinking about if I should go and see for myself whether he lied to me or he actually had the morning shift. I was feeling nervous for some reason. My palms were sweaty, and my heart was beating faster than usual. I was hoping that he had not lied to me and I could see him sooner than I had expected. On the other hand, outside my bedroom, in the daylight, I was actually afraid to meet him. As if he knew what I did this morning. Will he call me naughty again? Will he be happy to see me? Will he ask for my name and my contact information?
I got to the bakery and ordered the coffee and some croissants and sandwiches. The lady that worked there asked me if I could wait for about 20 minutes because they were understaffed this morning which worked perfectly for me. I had time to go to the store and look for Mike. As I was walking towards the store, I heard someone calling my name. I turned around and saw Peter and Jack, another teammate.
'Andrew!' Peter was shouting.
'What are you doing here?'
'You were taking your sweet time and we really needed coffee, so here we are. Where are you going? The bakery is that way.'
'Yeah, I already ordered, and they told me to wait 20 minutes, so I was heading to the store over there to buy cigarettes.'
'We will come with you. I need cigarettes as well' said Jack and we all headed to the store.
Unfortunately for me, the cigarettes were on the cash register which was near the entrance. We spent about 2 minutes in the store and went back to the bakery. We took the order and headed back to the house. I did not see Mike. He could have been in the back somewhere. He could have been in that 'staff only' room. Or he could have been somewhere else. With someone else...
***
The party was on Friday so after we cleaned everything on Saturday, we had the house for the weekend. Peter wanted to continue partying, but we figured it would be better to gather the whole team and spend a chill weekend together as some of us were graduating this year. I kept thinking about Mike during the day and I was dreaming about him during the night. I could not wait for the semester to officially start so I could see him around the campus. The more I thought about Friday night and Saturday morning, the more confused I got. I refrained from touching myself during the weekend because I shared a room with Peter in the house he hired, but I was aroused all the time. I felt like I was experiencing everything that I was supposed to experience in my teen years, but I did not because I had no sexual life - the embarrassment after the first time, the 'Did my partner get satisfied' questions, the constant boners and the relentless desire to do it again.
On Monday I woke up earlier than everyone. My classes started at noon, so I had time to go back to my apartment and freshen up before going to university. I took a long shower and picked my outfit for the day. I ended up wearing black jeans that made people from both genders check out my ass, a plain white see-through T-shirt, and a denim jacket. I ruffled my hair and put on my Dior perfume, which I got from my parents last Christmas and only used on special occasions. I had no intentions of going home without meeting Mike. I left at 10 am, way before I had to. I was feeling a bit like a stalker, but I did not really care. I had accepted the fact that for the past three days I had not been thinking or acting rationally and I knew the only way for me to understand myself better was to see Mike. While walking towards the campus, I saw Professor Whitman, who was my tutor during my second year. Whitman was one of these professors who are extremely serious when it comes to their subject, but cool outside campus. During my second year, I was quite busy with the football team and I went to visit him during his office hours every week to catch up on the lectures and do some other work for extra credits. He liked how determined I was, and I kept going to ask for his advice for my other subjects the following year.
'Good morning, sir.'
'Andrew! Good morning, good to see you. Do you have classes?'
'I start at noon, but I thought I could grab a coffee before that.'
'Do you start at noon every Monday?'
'Yes. Do you need me for anything? I would be happy to help, I was hoping for a recommendation letter from you at the end of the year.'
'Actually, I need an assistant for my 11 am class on Monday and I was thinking of putting an announcement, but I think you would be perfect for the job. It is nothing complicated, I just need you to help my students with their assignments, give them some advice on what they could do better before bringing it to me for grading.'
'I would love to do it. Count me in.'
We continued discussing what my job as an assistant would be and it really seemed like nothing I could not do. It would not interfere with my studies or football practices and it was a great opportunity for me. I and Professor Whitman grabbed a coffee and headed to the room where he had his lecture. I opened the door and froze. I had completely forgotten that he was studying engineering. There he was, right in front of me. Mike.
***
The class ended and I needed to get to my own seminar, but I could not let Mike get away. He was the first one to get out of the room and I quickly followed him after telling the professor to email me the schedule and everything I needed to do for next week. Mike was walking quite fast and he was heading towards 'the forest.' 'The forest' was a park on the west side of the campus where freshmen usually went to drink and have sex in between lectures. There were many trees there and some places perfect for making out that were basically invisible if you did not know how to get to them. Since it was the first day, there seemed to be no one there.
'You are quite the stalker, big boy' Mike stopped and turned.